could not let go. ‘The hate and the attacks started many years ago when I was forced to leave Germany, Austria, Denmark and Norway. For years, people who were afraid of what I said have spread rumours that I was insane. Here in America I have been barred from professional organisations and, as you know, attacked by the government. You know they have orders to burn some of my books this week.
‘I can’t believe this is happening, but it is. Strange things have happened before: the Orgone motor being stolen, the Einstein affair, the Air Force … it all adds up to an incredible conspiracy. And it is frightening. Of course it is frightening. They do not look at the work, they attack me personally. Peeps, people do not fight back like this unless they are themselves frightened and they are frightened by the truth of cosmic Orgone Energy. They are frightened by life.
‘But Peeps, no matter what happens, I will not stop my work. No matter what happens, the work must go on. Nothing can stop the truth. No laws can stop scientific research. That is why we are fighting, and that is why I may have to die. Truth is deadly and they know I am right. The emotional plague can kill.
‘I told them that in court, and they refused to listen. I told them that a court of law could not judge basic scientific principles and they refused to look at the real issues. It doesn’t matter that they found me guilty, because even if we lose the appeal we have really won. That is why this is such an important battle and why you must be very brave. It is very hard to stand up for truth but it is very important. That is why I always told you never to lie.
‘Now listen. The men may come back and I want you to be a brave soldier and help. Will you be strong?’
‘Yup.’
‘All right. I want you to go to the lab. When Moise comes, tell him to come directly up here and when Mr Ross comes back from lunch, tell him I want him to come up here also. If the FDA men come back, I want you to stop the car at the lab and telephone me to see if I shall come down or if they will come up. Don’t let them come up without first telephoning. Okay?’
‘Okay.’ I started to go, but he held me.
‘Peeps?’
‘What?’
‘Give me your eyes.’
As I walked around the front of the observatory and started down the hill, I heard the telephone ring.
I didn’t know what was going to happen but I wasn’t scared. Toreano came up and brought me a pony. We rode down the hill together.
Daddy was so serious and worried. I know there are a lot of bad things people say about him. One day, a long time ago when I was at the observatory, I found a whole stack of magazines in the basement. They had pictures of lots of girls with their breasts almost showing and movie stars. One of them was Uncensored . I started looking through one of the magazines because it was exciting to see the soft curvy breasts and legs. There were pretty girls struggling with tough guys with crew cuts and swastikas. But that was fucking.
Then there was a picture of a naked girl jiggling her breasts in front of a row of accumulators. There were men staring out of the accumulators at the girl and the story said that the men were masturbating and that the accumulator – only they called it an Orgone box – was supposed to give them huge orgasms.
I haven’t masturbated yet but when I do, it will feel good. And it doesn’t matter if people say it is bad because they are sick. Daddy said I could use Vaseline or oil to rub my penis. I told him I didn’t understand but he said just wait.
Then there was another magazine that didn’t have as manypictures but there was a long story about how we had machine-gun guards around Orgonon and lots of naked people running around inside, protected by barbed-wire fences. But I’m the only person I know who ran around naked a lot. It scared me that people thought that.
Besides, I’ve used an accumulator and it makes me feel better.
Mummy used it when
‘I can’t believe this is happening, but it is. Strange things have happened before: the Orgone motor being stolen, the Einstein affair, the Air Force … it all adds up to an incredible conspiracy. And it is frightening. Of course it is frightening. They do not look at the work, they attack me personally. Peeps, people do not fight back like this unless they are themselves frightened and they are frightened by the truth of cosmic Orgone Energy. They are frightened by life.
‘But Peeps, no matter what happens, I will not stop my work. No matter what happens, the work must go on. Nothing can stop the truth. No laws can stop scientific research. That is why we are fighting, and that is why I may have to die. Truth is deadly and they know I am right. The emotional plague can kill.
‘I told them that in court, and they refused to listen. I told them that a court of law could not judge basic scientific principles and they refused to look at the real issues. It doesn’t matter that they found me guilty, because even if we lose the appeal we have really won. That is why this is such an important battle and why you must be very brave. It is very hard to stand up for truth but it is very important. That is why I always told you never to lie.
‘Now listen. The men may come back and I want you to be a brave soldier and help. Will you be strong?’
‘Yup.’
‘All right. I want you to go to the lab. When Moise comes, tell him to come directly up here and when Mr Ross comes back from lunch, tell him I want him to come up here also. If the FDA men come back, I want you to stop the car at the lab and telephone me to see if I shall come down or if they will come up. Don’t let them come up without first telephoning. Okay?’
‘Okay.’ I started to go, but he held me.
‘Peeps?’
‘What?’
‘Give me your eyes.’
As I walked around the front of the observatory and started down the hill, I heard the telephone ring.
I didn’t know what was going to happen but I wasn’t scared. Toreano came up and brought me a pony. We rode down the hill together.
Daddy was so serious and worried. I know there are a lot of bad things people say about him. One day, a long time ago when I was at the observatory, I found a whole stack of magazines in the basement. They had pictures of lots of girls with their breasts almost showing and movie stars. One of them was Uncensored . I started looking through one of the magazines because it was exciting to see the soft curvy breasts and legs. There were pretty girls struggling with tough guys with crew cuts and swastikas. But that was fucking.
Then there was a picture of a naked girl jiggling her breasts in front of a row of accumulators. There were men staring out of the accumulators at the girl and the story said that the men were masturbating and that the accumulator – only they called it an Orgone box – was supposed to give them huge orgasms.
I haven’t masturbated yet but when I do, it will feel good. And it doesn’t matter if people say it is bad because they are sick. Daddy said I could use Vaseline or oil to rub my penis. I told him I didn’t understand but he said just wait.
Then there was another magazine that didn’t have as manypictures but there was a long story about how we had machine-gun guards around Orgonon and lots of naked people running around inside, protected by barbed-wire fences. But I’m the only person I know who ran around naked a lot. It scared me that people thought that.
Besides, I’ve used an accumulator and it makes me feel better.
Mummy used it when
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