without Clarissa's permission,” I said coldly.
“Why don't you just exile him? That would solve everything,” asked Joshua .
“I can't,” I sighed. “Adam is part of her soul and exiling him would break Clarissa. I just can't do that to her so I have to figure something else out.”
When I mentioned Adam being part of Clarissa's soul, Joshua hit the wall. S hape shifters had only one soul- mate and when they found it, it was for eternity. Even though I had said we would find a way to separate them, it w ould be really hard, especially if Clarissa and Adam didn't want to separate. Clarissa didn't know that when Adam bound them together, he could find her no matter where she was, influence her and seduce her wit hout an effort. I would have to teach her to protect herself better . I would have to protect her better. “And what if she doesn't want your protection?” Tiamhaidh's voice asked in my mind. I glanced at him, but he looked so steady that I was sure no one else knew what he had asked. I didn't know the answer, so I stayed quiet.
Daniel and Gavin glanced at each other. They could challenge Adam, but this was my fight and I had to make the decision. If Gunward were here I could've done it together with him, but he wasn't so I had to trust Tiamhaidh, who led the pack with me. He was Gunward's first man and I had to count on him and David to help me out of this. I felt hopeless. What decisions were to be made? I couldn't exile Adam without getting the eldest on my neck. Clarissa was stuck with him unless we could figure out some loopholes in their bond. So there was no choice but to let things stay as they were and try harder to keep Clarissa away from Adam. Darel was staring at me and it started to feel annoying.
“What?” I snapped.
“Drew and I are going to Sarek,” he said and glanced at Drew, who avoided my gaze.
I said nothing. Clearly they had made up their minds and I had nothing to say to that. I shrugged like I didn't care, though I did, and turned my eyes from Darel's dazzling blue eyes on purpose. He grabbed my shoulder blindingly fast and turned me around so that I had to face him. Tiamhaidh stood up and looked at him warningly, but I flagged him down.
“Sofia,” he said, begging. “We're not going far. Things can change and then we'll be back.”
“And obviously you decided this a long time ago?” I asked icily.
“Before Gunward left,” Drew mumbled.
I gasped. They had made this back up plan with Gunward, a few weeks, maybe a month ago. I felt so betrayed. Had they been spying on my pack and informing Gunward on its every move? Had they spied on me?
“I see,” I expressed with an ice-cold voice. “I didn't even know you had contacted Gunward. I actually thought you didn't even know him.”
Drew blushed. “Gunward is the strongest alpha-male ever, so we contacted him before we even knew Clarissa existed.”
“And Gunward spends most of his time in Senja nowadays, so he needs someone to look after his pack while he's away. We promised to take care of it if Clarissa didn't choose either of us,” said Darel steadily.
“Or if she chose one of you, the other one would be free to join Gunward's pack,” I snapped.
“Not exactly. We'll stay, if you need us,” sighed Darel .
I sighed, too. I didn't want them to stay, but I didn't want them to leave to go to Sarek either. You want to go there instead of them, a small voice whispered in my mind, but I shook it away. I raked my hair absentmindedly and sighed again. I framed Darel's face with my hands and kissed his cheeks.
“Of course you'll go.”
“Sorry I even tried to stop you. You’ll be a bigger help in Sarek than here and you will love that place,” I said gently and turned to face the ones who were leaving.
I embraced them tightly. I didn't know if they would stay to say goodbye to Clarissa. I didn't wa nt to let them go in a rush without proper goodbyes or in anger so that the next time I saw them the space
“Why don't you just exile him? That would solve everything,” asked Joshua .
“I can't,” I sighed. “Adam is part of her soul and exiling him would break Clarissa. I just can't do that to her so I have to figure something else out.”
When I mentioned Adam being part of Clarissa's soul, Joshua hit the wall. S hape shifters had only one soul- mate and when they found it, it was for eternity. Even though I had said we would find a way to separate them, it w ould be really hard, especially if Clarissa and Adam didn't want to separate. Clarissa didn't know that when Adam bound them together, he could find her no matter where she was, influence her and seduce her wit hout an effort. I would have to teach her to protect herself better . I would have to protect her better. “And what if she doesn't want your protection?” Tiamhaidh's voice asked in my mind. I glanced at him, but he looked so steady that I was sure no one else knew what he had asked. I didn't know the answer, so I stayed quiet.
Daniel and Gavin glanced at each other. They could challenge Adam, but this was my fight and I had to make the decision. If Gunward were here I could've done it together with him, but he wasn't so I had to trust Tiamhaidh, who led the pack with me. He was Gunward's first man and I had to count on him and David to help me out of this. I felt hopeless. What decisions were to be made? I couldn't exile Adam without getting the eldest on my neck. Clarissa was stuck with him unless we could figure out some loopholes in their bond. So there was no choice but to let things stay as they were and try harder to keep Clarissa away from Adam. Darel was staring at me and it started to feel annoying.
“What?” I snapped.
“Drew and I are going to Sarek,” he said and glanced at Drew, who avoided my gaze.
I said nothing. Clearly they had made up their minds and I had nothing to say to that. I shrugged like I didn't care, though I did, and turned my eyes from Darel's dazzling blue eyes on purpose. He grabbed my shoulder blindingly fast and turned me around so that I had to face him. Tiamhaidh stood up and looked at him warningly, but I flagged him down.
“Sofia,” he said, begging. “We're not going far. Things can change and then we'll be back.”
“And obviously you decided this a long time ago?” I asked icily.
“Before Gunward left,” Drew mumbled.
I gasped. They had made this back up plan with Gunward, a few weeks, maybe a month ago. I felt so betrayed. Had they been spying on my pack and informing Gunward on its every move? Had they spied on me?
“I see,” I expressed with an ice-cold voice. “I didn't even know you had contacted Gunward. I actually thought you didn't even know him.”
Drew blushed. “Gunward is the strongest alpha-male ever, so we contacted him before we even knew Clarissa existed.”
“And Gunward spends most of his time in Senja nowadays, so he needs someone to look after his pack while he's away. We promised to take care of it if Clarissa didn't choose either of us,” said Darel steadily.
“Or if she chose one of you, the other one would be free to join Gunward's pack,” I snapped.
“Not exactly. We'll stay, if you need us,” sighed Darel .
I sighed, too. I didn't want them to stay, but I didn't want them to leave to go to Sarek either. You want to go there instead of them, a small voice whispered in my mind, but I shook it away. I raked my hair absentmindedly and sighed again. I framed Darel's face with my hands and kissed his cheeks.
“Of course you'll go.”
“Sorry I even tried to stop you. You’ll be a bigger help in Sarek than here and you will love that place,” I said gently and turned to face the ones who were leaving.
I embraced them tightly. I didn't know if they would stay to say goodbye to Clarissa. I didn't wa nt to let them go in a rush without proper goodbyes or in anger so that the next time I saw them the space
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