his hand and stared at the TV. A news report had his commercial on the screen and they talked about how he was an escort and the potential lover of Tanner Lachlan. They made their relationship out to be some big fucking news. “How did they find out about it?” “You’re dealing with the rich and famous, son. They find out about everything.” Noah shook his head. Tanner was probably livid. He was pretty fucking mad at him when they parted and he wasn’t sure that had changed all that much with time apart. DJ left and Noah continued to get ready. He didn’t have paparazzi breaking down his door so going out was something he could do to get his mind off Tanner. He had no interest in having sex with anyone else, which surprised him. Even if he wasn’t in the mood, it still became somewhat of a job requirement some nights. The dinner date was at a luxury restaurant. The event was some kind of black-tie affair, so Noah pulled out his one and only tux. Maybe taking his mind off Tanner for a little while would help. Plus, he got paid in the process. He got ready and looked at himself in the mirror. Nothing about him really wanted to go. He tried to psych himself up, but the reality of it was he wanted Tanner. He wanted to go to his penthouse and figure things out. He glanced at his phone and saw it was too late to cancel. He blew out a breath and grabbed his wallet and keys. The cab ride to the event was uneventful. The cabbie tried to engage in conversation and he simply wasn’t in the mood. He nodded and gave short answers, but his mind was elsewhere. The restaurant was packed and he found his way to the table to meet his date. He gave him a smile and a handshake before he sat down. “You come highly recommended.” His client, a wealthy man who was in the fashion industry, smiled at him. “I’m meeting with some clients, and then if you want to continue the night, we can talk about that before we leave.” Noah smiled. He hated when people said he came recommended. It wasn’t like he was a toy or something. “You’re all over the news. I didn’t know you and Tanner were an item. Or was he just renting your time? The media twists things around all the time. You never really know what to believe.” “Tanner and I were a couple.” Noah didn’t want to go down that road with his date. He’d tried so hard to not think about Tanner and it seemed like everywhere he went, his name or memory came up. “And he was okay with you dating other men for money? I mean, I know Tanner. I can’t see him being okay with that. He get’s pissed off if you park in his parking spot let alone date his man.” Noah chose to change the subject and did his best to avoid talking about Tanner and other dates. He simply wasn’t in the mood to be cordial, though he tried to be just that. Nothing about his job felt the same. He didn’t want to be entertaining strange men. And it didn’t matter what he tried to do, Tanner’s name and memory still lingered. He talked with the guy and shared wine with him until the other guests arrived. The man himself didn’t like being alone since all his friends had significant others. It made sense and it wasn’t the first time Noah had ever heard that one before. The evening was nice enough once he stopped thinking about Tanner for a few minutes. Noah didn’t know what the hell he wanted, but the pain he felt was not it. He glanced up and a man who resembled Tanner walked across the restaurant. He almost got up to go after him until he saw it wasn’t his former lover. He blew out a breath. “I’m sorry. I need to go. Would you please excuse me?” Noah’s tie felt tight around his neck. He scooted his chair back with a few complaints from his date and headed for the cooler night air. Loosening his tie, he watched the people in the city go by. He couldn’t do this. Not anymore. He didn’t want to date random strangers. He wanted to date Tanner. Hailing a cab, he took it