brainstorming meetings with various breakaway groups within the firm. We have lined up soup kitchens in seven key media markets that have all agreed to have Rita lead celebrity cook-ins. Four prominent politicians and one ex-president are already interested in using it as a platform to discuss the homeless situation.
âRita is not political,â Barry interrupts.
âNo, of course not. But she is charitable. Or at least she will be when weâre done with her.â It takes so much energy to smile, to appease, to spin when sometimes all you want to do is slap your clients silly.
Barry looks over at Rita, who nods imperceptibly.
There is some talk of timing and possible sponsors before the meeting comes to a close. After seeing them out, I sit at my desk staring at my computer, depleted. I look up to see Petra standing in my doorway.
âYes?â
âCarol wants to see you.â
âCan she wait a minute? I need to make a phone call.â
âShe seemed pretty insistent.â
âAll right.â
When I walk into her office, Carol is seated on her couch, her thin, bare legs crossed at the ankles. A Band-Aid is peeking over the edge of her new black pump where a blister is forming on her heel. âHave a seat,â she says, smiling with an uneasiness I canât quite place. âHow did it go with Rita?â
âFabulous. As long as she doesnât spill boiling soup on a homeless mother of three, weâre good.â
Carol nods distractedly, hardly listening. Her face seems particularly taut. Maybe too much Botox. She clears her throat. âYou know how incredible I think you are,â she says.
I look at her blankly. I have no idea where she is going with this.
âI couldnât have done this without you. Your contributions have been invaluable,â she continues.
These are words that no employee wants to hear. Like a man who begins a relationship talk with âYou know how fantastic I think you are,â there is sure to be a but that will break your heart. I race backward, looking for something I might have done wrong, an expense report error, a phone call promised but not placed.
âI donât know if youâve noticed, but for some time now Iâve lost the thrill,â Carol continues. âMaybe itâs burnout, maybe I just need a new challenge.â She looks down, suddenly engrossed by a piece of lint on her skirt. âLisa, Iâve sold the company to Merdale Communications.â
âWhat?â Merdale is one of the largest PR firms on the East Coast, known for its large war chest and its conservative ethos. It is impossible that I have not heard anything about this. So much for thinking Iâm connected. âArenât they based in Philadelphia?â
âThey have decided to create a toehold in New York.â
âThatâs what weâre going to be, a toehold?â
Carol ignores this. âThis will be great for you. People make the mistake of writing them off as provincial but theyâre huge. The company will have scale. Youâll have room to grow.â
Scaleâthat great clarion cry of the city, you can hear it echoing through streets, boardrooms, corporate pep rallies, in schools, media companies, banks. Scale is survival. Scale sells. Of course, it can also swallow you whole. I suddenly feel dizzy, weightless. âI thought scale was passé, right up there with synergy,â I mutter.
âScale is never passé.â
I look over at Carol but she is already someplace else. I am what she is leaving behind.
As soon as I get back to my office, I shut the door and try to reach Sam, but there is no answer at any of his numbers.
FIVE
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