looks at me with big mascara eyes. These girls are so different from my friends in Maine. I donât know how to act around them.
âWell,â I say, âmy Latin teacher is sort of a pita.â I still donât know what a pita is; I can only hope I used it right.
âOhmyGod, you take Latin ?â This from Chelsea Ableson, my homeroom buddy.
âIsnât Latin, like, dead ?â asks a girl with dangly earrings.
âUm,â I say. âYeah, but Iâm thinking of transferââ
Andrea holds up her hand. âLatin helps with your S.A.T.s. We should all be taking Latin. Shouldnât we, girls? Evelyn here will probably get into Harvard. Wonât you, Evelyn?â
Everyone nods in agreement.
Itâs Evyn, I want to say. Not Evelyn. But I donât dare correct her.
âSo,â Andrea says. âDid you find out who Ajax likes yet?â
âAlmost,â I tell her. âI should know for sure by Monday.â
She smiles. âGood work.â
Everyone else smiles, too.
Translation: Iâm allowed to sit here until the bell rings.
The night before a wedding means you have to rehearse. Which means, in my case, tossing imaginary flower petals on the carpet as I march in time to the organ version of âLove Me Tenderâ by Elvis.
Phoebe is glued to my side, like weâre field-trip buddies on our way to the aquarium. Behind us is Thalia. Followed by the sweater twins. Followed by Eleni, who is holding fake flowers but shedding real tears. The acoustics in this church are faaantastic. Everyone will be able to hear her crying for joy. She is just so head-over-heels in love with my father, sheâs overflowing.
I will not think about it. I will not think about it. I will not think about it.
I will look straight ahead and focus on the groomsmen. On one groomsman in particular, who tomorrow will be wearing a tux and looking beyond gorgeous.
Stella? Itâs me.
This time she has her head down so I canât see her face.
Stell?
Sheâs never done this to me beforeânot responded. I give her a minute, but she doesnât look at me, so I start right in,
Can you believe tonight? Eleni and her whole âI never thought Iâd love again and then I met Alâ speech? I thought I was going to barf right there at the table. Of COURSE she had to cook for the rehearsal dinner instead of us going to a nice restaurant like normal people because itâs all about HER. Have I mentioned how much I am beginning to hate hummus? I canât believe Birdie is actually going through with this. I canât believe I have to wake up in the morning and put on an orange dress and pretend to be happy, whenâ
Stella is looking at me now. Her eyes are red, but she is as beautiful as ever. Oh, honey, she says.
For a moment, all we do is look at each other.
Youâll be there tomorrow, I say finally. Right?
She gives a laugh that is more of a hiccup. You want me to come to my own husbandâs wedding?
I nod. My throat is so tight I canât talk.
Stella fishes around in the pocket of her bathrobe. She comes up with a tissue and blows her nose hard. When sheâs done, she folds it and puts it back in her pocket.
Youâre not going to make me dance the chicken dance, are you? she says. Because I really hate the chicken dance.
You can sit that one out, I tell her.
She gives me a tiny smile. In that caseâ¦
She means that sheâll be there tomorrow, and Iâm so relieved that a million hot tears start pressing against my eyeballs, and thereâs nothing I can do to stop them.
Luckily, the sweater twins snore so loud, an armored tank could plow through the wall and they wouldnât wake up.
At least they wonât hear me cry.
CHAPTER ELEVEN
In the limo, Iâm squashed between Thalia and the bride, who has on a tan dress. Tan. Not that she should be wearing white; itâs obvious sheâs no virgin, but come on.
Alexander McCall Smith
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