the line. âWhatâs up?â
âNothing much.â Mattie smiled, leaning against the wall and feeling a bit like a teenager as she absentmindedly coiled the telephone cord around one finger.
âWish I could say the same. Seems everybodyâs left their tax returns late this year. Weâre flat out.â
âPoor you.â
âYes, poor me. What I need is a hot bath, a massage, and a bit of Mattie. Not necessarily in that order. Anyway, whatâs for tea?â
âTea?â repeated Mattie, the smile sliding off her face.
âYeah â tea. You know, the meal that comes after lunch.â
âI . . . donât knowâ
âThatâs not like you, Little Miss Organisation.â
âNo.â Mattie couldnât think of what else to say. She didnât know how, or when, Jake had got the impression he was coming around to the unit tonight. Sheâd actually planned on taking the children out to McDonaldâs after their swimming lesson, as a sort of celebration and the chance for a chat without distractions. But the last thing she wanted to do was get Jake offside, again, so it looked like she would have to rethink things.
âI take it from the silence that you donât actually want me?â
âItâs not that,â said Mattie quickly. âJust that I hadnât . . . but of course youâre welcome. You know that.â
âNo, I donât know that. Iâm beginning to think I donât know anything. But tell me, what was last night about then?â
âLast night?â
âYeah, last night. Remember? When you were all over me like a rash?â
âA rash?â
âChrist, Mattie, I always know youâre playing games when you repeat everything I say. At least have the guts to tell me where I stand.â
Mattie pulled the corkscrewed cord off her finger, leaving red indentations that numbed her knuckles. âLook, last night I needed . . . I donât know. Itâs just that I â â
âWant to pull the strings. Thatâs it, isnât it? Itâs all about what
you
need, what
you
want. Which is everything your own way.â
âNo!â Mattie could hear the indignation in her voice, tinged with desperation.
âYes. You want me to be there when it suits you, and away when itdoesnât. And Iâm expected to somehow magically know which is which. Well, life doesnât work that way, lady. You canât treat people like frigging puppets.â
âListen, Jake.â Mattie spoke quickly, the words tumbling over each other. âIâm
not
playing games. And Iâm sorry if you . . . but how can I want everything my own way when I donât even know
what
I want? Thatâs why Iâm here â Iâm
trying
to work it out!â
âWell, youâd better bloody work it out soon, because Iâm fed up.â
âBut you have to realise . . .â Mattie petered off as the engaged signal sounded in her ear. Heâd hung up. She replaced the receiver gently and then massaged her knuckles until the blood flow throbbed painfully through her fingers. Then she washed her hands, took a deep breath and gathered together the Centrelink paperwork, aligning the edges neatly. One thing at a time and first things first. These needed to be signed and delivered, otherwise her twelve months were going to be over before they began. And, amongst everything she was confused about, one thing stood out in bold relief â if she went back now, she would never leave again.
âDo you think Daddyâs sad by himself?â
Mattie looked across the scrabble board at Courtney with surprise. Because the question came totally from left field. Neither child had even mentioned their father all afternoon and Mattie had gone to great pains to make sure theyâd enjoyed themselves. Although sheâd given the McDonaldâs idea a miss, just in case Jake
did
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