one of his cars when he gets home. But thatâs in a couple hours.â
We didnât have a couple of hours. We had an hour. Less than that, as weâd already wasted twenty minutes. âWhat are we playing at prom?â Zack asked.
âDakota requested a bunch of covers. I have the list at home,â I said.
âCovers? I thought we were going straight original,â Chaddie said. âCovers are lame.â
âItâs prom.â I shrugged. âPeople want to hear music they already know. And I promised Dakota weâd have some.â
âThen she should get a DJ,â Chaddie said. âI thought you of all people would want to play our own stuff, Jason. Youâre always saying we should do our own thing and not sell out.â
âI do want us to play our stuff,â I said quickly, not wanting this to turn into a thing. But even I had the good sense to know that high-school girls wanted something they could dance to. âJust not if itâs gonna cause riots or flaming corsages and whatnot.â
âFlaming corsages,â Max said. âMaybe thatâs a song title.â
Chaddie put down his guitar. âWhatâs the point of us doing it if weâre just gonna flake out? Are we a real band or not?â
I laughed. âOf course weâre a real band.â
He jutted his chin upward, defiant. âYeah? Where are all the gigs you promised us weâd have by now? The all-ages shows in Philly and your friendâs club in New York? How come we still donât have anything else lined up?â
Okay, so maybe Iâd overpromised a bitâand maybe heâd picked up on that. It wasnât exactly a friend but an acquaintance of a guy Iâd known at music camp three summers ago, who was now an intern at Mercury Lounge in NYC. And yeah, I had said I was going to go pound the pavement on weekends and get us some gigs downtown. It hadnât happened yet. I fully intended toâIâd just been busy. And then lately . . .
âWeâll get them,â I said. âAnd we have a gig already, playing in front of the entire junior and senior classes. Thatâs like two hundred and fifty people. You never know what that could lead toââ
âYouâre lying,â Chaddie cut in. âHeâs lying about the friend in New York.â
âIâm not lying ,â I sputtered. Where was all this pressure coming from all of a sudden? âI just need to text the guy. Can we just focus here? Iâm working on it . . . Zack, tell them.â
âYeah,â Zack said unconvincingly. âYouâve said youâre working on it.â
The truth was it hadnât turned out like I thought. I thought if I started writing great songs, the rest of it would fall into placeâweâd have people begging us to play shows. Weâd be legendary. But writing good songs was hard work.
âYou always say this band is the most important thing ever, and you want to be famous and blah blah blah, but the truth is you havenât done crap,â Chaddie said.
What? Was he serious? âThatâs not true! Iâm carrying all the weight here, all the responsibility. Iâm doing things behind the scenes, spreading the word, trying to get us on college radio . . .â I struggled to think of other things I could/should be doing, but I was coming up short.
Zack tried to turn around to face me, only there wasnât quite enough room to fully rotate. âLook, dude, no offense, but maybe this whole thing isnât working out anymore.â
No no no, I thought. My partner canât crap out . âItâs working out fine,â I said. âI donât know what the big deal is.â
âThe big deal is we canât play in a closet,â Chaddie said. âRight, Zack?â
Zack shrugged to back him up. âItâs pretty uncomfortable.â
âBut we canât quit before our big
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