and not to let it happen again. The only serious talks she could remember in her life were the “Suck it up cowgirl, don’t cry” ones she got each and every time she’d been emotional enough to let loose a round of tears in front of him. “Just some ranch stuff, nothing important.” Obviously it was important. He’d never asked to talk business with her. She had no idea how the ranch operated. He’d always handled everything himself and he’d never involved her. Sitting down to talk about it, bringing it up wasn’t just important, it was monumental. “We could talk now.” She offered. She watched him pick up his tea with a shaky hand and tried to breathe. What if something was really wrong? He didn’t look well. He wasn’t acting like his normal self. She needed to know what was going on. “No.” She hadn’t realized she was holding her breathe until he spoke and she felt like she’d combusted like a popped balloon, “But…” “No. It’ll hold until Sunday.” He shook his head and changed the subject in typical avoidance behavior, “Where’s this dinner at tonight?” “Sullivan’s.” “Nice restaurant. They serve a good T-bone.” “Yeah, I don’t think I’ve been there since high school.” “I heard Molly met her man over at the university.” “Yeah. At Tech.” “Good for her. Be sure to give her my congratulations.” “I will.” “She was always a nice girl.” “Yeah, she was.” Small talk. They were back to the grind of small talk. He brought up something important then shut her out just like he always did. There was no point worrying about it. If he said it would hold until Sunday odds were it would hold. If there was one thing Lyle Carter was good at it was running his ranch. She’d just have to stop worrying, get through dinner, the wedding and then she’d figure it out on Sunday.
Chapter Four
Blue sipped her beer and avoided looking directly at anyone. Her head hurt, not a migraine but a dull, pounding behind her eyes that had started up the second she set foot in Sullivan’s for the rehearsal dinner and was only getting worse now that they’d gone next door to Sully’s for the joint bachelor/bachelorette party she hadn’t known anything about. She wished she could just slip out the back door and go home but Molly had insisted on drinks so she was playing along for now. Now being the operative word because she wasn’t sure how much more she could take. Dinner had been bad enough. Just as she’d feared nearly everyone else in the bridal party was happily part of a couple and they’d all brought their significant others with them and a few had even brought their children. The icing on the cake though was the surprise that the groomsman that would be escorting her down the aisle the next day was none other than Woody Hopkins, her eleventh grade boyfriend. He’d changed little since they parted ways except that his formerly muscular football player frame was softer and rounder and his hairline had begun to recede as though it was scared of his forehead. He asked that they not harbor hard feelings for the time she keyed his car in high school and she’d agreed even though he’d totally deserved it for lying that he’d gone all the way with her in the backseat. Still, it hadn’t been all bad. Molly’s parents had beamed and gushed over her fiancé. For a second she’d figured it probably had something to do with the fact the guy was from a very old, very wealthy oil family from down near Odessa but she’d dismissed that as her own jealousy rearing its ugly head. Molly seemed absolutely blissful and Blue was old and alone and evading questions about why she didn’t have a man of her own. Yes, those questions had come time and again. It wasn’t so bad from Molly or even Molly’s mother. They genuinely seemed to care if she ever found a husband and if she was happy. When the questions started coming from Molly’s cousins who’d