the palace and she had done so stealthily enough that he hadn’t noticed her.
“ I am Perseian.” Speaking the name of his species made him remember the pendant that he had bought Natalia, one which he would never have the audacity or courage to give to her but which now resided close to her hands in his jacket pocket. His gaze flicked to it and then to her hands. She was toying with the sleeves of his jacket, her slender fingers tracing the blue embroidery around the cuffs. “These are the weapons I was raised with. The only ones that I have needed since I took the trials as a child.”
“ You went through trials when you were a boy?” She drew her knees up again, wrapping her arms around them and looking up at him. He was thankful that her hands were away from the pockets of his jacket.
He nodded.
“ Tell me about them.”
Ixion tensed. He didn’t want to tell her about them. She didn’t need to know about the things that he had done.
“ Is something wrong?” she said with a frown.
He bowed his head. “My lady, I request you give me leave to refuse your request.”
She giggled. “Why should I grant your request to request that I give you leave to refuse my request?”
He frowned. She was playing with him. The things that he had done were no laughing matter. If he told her, she would never look at him again. She would fear him. He sighed, pressed his right hand against his chest, and closed his eyes.
“ My lady does not need to know the things that I have done, only that I will protect her.”
She was silent for a long time. He didn’t dare look at her. It had taken him a strangely large amount of courage to say those words. He had told her earlier that he would protect her but now it felt different to say such a thing. It felt as though he was confessing that there was something deeper than his duty behind his reason for protecting her.
“ I would like to know.” Her voice was small.
He looked at her, right into her green eyes, trying to see if she was telling the truth.
“ Why?” he said.
She toyed with the fastenings on his jacket. “So I will know you better.”
He bowed his head again. “I am unworthy of such a thing.”
“ Indulge my whim then and tell me because I am asking you to.”
“ An order?”
“ If you prefer it that way.” There was an edge to those words that said she might order him to do other things if he was lucky. He could only pray to Iskara for such an elusive dream to come true.
“ Then I will do as my lady asks.” He drew up a chair and set it down in front of her.
Just as he was going to sit down, a loud blast shook the building. Natalia gasped. One of the white spotlights went out and then blinked back into life. The baby Friskin made a purring noise.
Ixion reached into the crate and stroked it. It settled immediately. He glanced at Natalia. Her eyes were wide and fearful again. He wished he could soothe her fear so easily.
Perhaps talking to her would keep her mind off the fighting outside.
He sat down on the chair and thought about what to tell her. Only the truth would do, although he would omit some parts.
“ Tell me about the trials,” she said in a tight voice.
If she feared the fighting outside, then telling her about the trials would only scare her more, but she had ordered him.
“ They are a rite of passage on Perseia. I was the only survivor out of nineteen others who shared my birth date.”
“ That’s terrible. What happened to them?”
He leaned back in the chair. “I killed them.”
Her eyes shot wide and she gasped again. Her mouth opened but he beat her to speaking.
“ It is the way of Perseia,” he said, hoping it would make her see that he’d had little choice in the matter. “All males of eleven years—”
“ Eleven!” she shrieked, cutting him off. She looked horrified. “They made you kill at eleven?”
Clearly his people were not well documented and she didn’t have