Emily was finally shocked.
âI owe him. For all he didnât do last night,â she admitted, not going on to let them know that she was as nervous about it as if it were her first date ever.
âSo do you like him?â Emily asked.
Abby shrugged. It wouldnât do to like him. And she wouldnât admit that she did. Not to her sisters. Not to herself.
âHeâs nice. Nicer than youâd expect for as good-looking as he is. He isnât arrogant or conceited. But it doesnât really matter. Iâm just going to pay him back for taking me home last night and not doing anything while I was nearly passed out in his bed and at his mercy. And then that will be that.â
âWhat makes you so sure?â Bree asked, her voice full of possibilities.
âCal Ketchum isnât interested in someone like me. He acts like he saw through the wild-woman thing, but Iâm sure he still thinks that a little of it was real. You know when he realizes the truth heâll be on to someone exciting.â
âWhat are you? Dull as dishwater?â Bree asked.
Abby shrugged again. âLetâs be honest, Bill wasnât off the mark when he complained about me. I am shy and quiet and steady and predictable and provincial. Even last night I couldnât pull off the wild-woman thing. And this morning I was terrified I might have done something I couldnât face. Or promised something I couldnât follow through on. Maybe Iâm not dull as dishwater...I hope Iâm not. But Iâm also not the kind of woman a man like that bothers with. Iâm just not the type a world-class ladiesâ man wastes his time with.â
âOh, Abby,â Emily said in a moan. âIâd like to chop Bill Snot-grass into tiny pieces for making you doubt your appeal to anybody.â
âBill Snot-grass?â Abby repeated with a laugh.
âWell, thatâs what he is. Among other things. I still donât buy his reasons for calling off the wedding. I think he just got cold feet, chickened out and then laid the whole thing on you because he wasnât man enough to admit it.â
âOr worse,â Bree said under her breath.
âOr worse?â Abby asked.
âI canât help feeling he had something else up his sleeve. Maybe something he had a guilty conscience over and it made him feel better to pick at you.â
âBut I am all the things he said,â Abby reminded, wishing she had more than last night and one kiss by the rear-end cowboy to refute it. âAnyway the good news is, being shy, quiet, steady, predictable and provincial isnât fatal. It isnât really bad at all. Iâm okay with it. It just wonât keep Cal Ketchum coming around. And thatâs good because I donât want him coming around. I just want to get tonight over with so my debt is paid and I can go on with my own business. Without a man to confuse things. I need a break from men for a while. Like maybe the next ten years.â
âItâs good to take some time for yourself. Regroup,â Emily agreed.
âBesides, rebound relationships never work out,â Bree added.
âSo letâs just not make a big deal out of what isnât a big deal. I did something dumb last night, but luckily I was with a man who didnât take advantage of the situation. Tonight Iâll pay him back by showing him the sunset. Iâll be home before ten without even a peck on the cheek to say good-night, and thatâll be that.â
Both her sisters nodded their heads as if they thought she was absolutely right.
She thought she was absolutely right
But somehow she couldnât help wishing that she wasnât.
Because for no reason she could begin to understand, the whole lily-white scenario sheâd just laid out for the coming evening made her feel oddly downhearted.
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âCOME ON OUT, GIRLS,â Cal urged. âI have a date and you all
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