again. I have to leave, soon. I have to pick someone up from the airport, so I gotta run, and I have a family thing to do today.”
“Okay,” I replied. Trepidation began to descend on me, but his next words warmed me.
“ But, I want you to come see me tonight. Bring an overnight bag. I will text you my address. Can you come at eleven? I know it is late, but I don’t know when this family thing will be done.” He had just finished pulling on a tight black T-shirt over his head. He looked so good in black. He had on faded blue jeans already, not fastened yet.
“Yeah, I can come. Tampa, right?” I asked. It was Saturday and I had no plans this weekend.
“ Yeah, it is not hard to find. I have a roommate. I hope you don’t mind that. Also, she is a girl.” He looked up at me from tying his sneakers and must have seen a flicker of apprehension cross my face, and added, “She’s just someone I used to work with on base. Just a friend, purely platonic. I just moved in with her a couple of weeks ago until I can save up for my own place. I lived on base before that for the last six months”
“Oh,” I stated lamely when he paused.
“Yeah, she’s been a really great friend. I’ve known her forever,” he smiled looking down at me.
I smiled back. How could I not, when he looked at me like that. “That’s nice.” Again, lame, but with him leaving soon I was beginning to feel a little lost.
He looked at me puzzled, and then dropped a bomb. “ I want to be honest with you, baby. I like you a lot and we could have a lot of fun together, but, Monica, don’t fall in love with me. I am not in a good place in my life. I’ve got some money issues, and I’m starting over. I don’t want to lead you on. You’re the first girl in six months that I have wanted to fuck more than once, but don’t set your cap for me. It’s not going to happen.” His eyes searched mine.
A lump began to form in my throat, and I just nodded. I tried to hide the disappointment and met his gaze and smiled.
“I want to be honest with you, babe. I don’t want to hurt you,” he whispered and gave me a peck on the lips looking a t me. “Can you handle that?” He searched my face.
Again, I nodded . The lump was still there. I couldn’t speak. Last night had been amazing, this morning too. I wanted all this man had to offer, but apparently all he could offer me was mind blowing sex. Would that be enough? It would have to be enough. “Yes, I can handle that.” I replied to trying to harden my voice.
“ I will make it easier on you.” He was all seriousness now. “I won’t do romance. No gifts, no flowers, no fancy restaurants, okay. The minute you want out, let me know.” His eyes still searching mine looked for doubt.
“Okay,” I said and straightened my shoulders a little to show him I could handle it, and directly met his penetrating scrutiny. God, I was so disappointed. A thousand possibilities died in that moment, but maybe his feelings for me could grow.
“So, are we still on for tonight?” he questioned and laughed softly eyebrows waggling mischievously.
“Yeah, I’m game. Why not?” I shrugged my shoulders nonchalantly trying to appear indifferent.
“It’ll be fun while it lasts, baby.” His eyes searched mine and I feared he may have seen my doubts, but then he shrugged too. “Bring a bathing suit, we can swim on Sunday.”
“O kay, sounds like fun,” I said. He straightened up and grabbed my shoulders and gave me a firm kiss on the lips. I was still in a daze over his revelations that it took me a moment to respond and open for him as he plunged his tongue into my mouth. The kiss lasted pretty long and was pretty intense, but somehow this time it didn’t make my toes curl.
He pulled back and looked at me questioningly, “You okay?” His ice blue eyes pierced my brown ones.
“Yes, I am
“Okay,” I replied. Trepidation began to descend on me, but his next words warmed me.
“ But, I want you to come see me tonight. Bring an overnight bag. I will text you my address. Can you come at eleven? I know it is late, but I don’t know when this family thing will be done.” He had just finished pulling on a tight black T-shirt over his head. He looked so good in black. He had on faded blue jeans already, not fastened yet.
“Yeah, I can come. Tampa, right?” I asked. It was Saturday and I had no plans this weekend.
“ Yeah, it is not hard to find. I have a roommate. I hope you don’t mind that. Also, she is a girl.” He looked up at me from tying his sneakers and must have seen a flicker of apprehension cross my face, and added, “She’s just someone I used to work with on base. Just a friend, purely platonic. I just moved in with her a couple of weeks ago until I can save up for my own place. I lived on base before that for the last six months”
“Oh,” I stated lamely when he paused.
“Yeah, she’s been a really great friend. I’ve known her forever,” he smiled looking down at me.
I smiled back. How could I not, when he looked at me like that. “That’s nice.” Again, lame, but with him leaving soon I was beginning to feel a little lost.
He looked at me puzzled, and then dropped a bomb. “ I want to be honest with you, baby. I like you a lot and we could have a lot of fun together, but, Monica, don’t fall in love with me. I am not in a good place in my life. I’ve got some money issues, and I’m starting over. I don’t want to lead you on. You’re the first girl in six months that I have wanted to fuck more than once, but don’t set your cap for me. It’s not going to happen.” His eyes searched mine.
A lump began to form in my throat, and I just nodded. I tried to hide the disappointment and met his gaze and smiled.
“I want to be honest with you, babe. I don’t want to hurt you,” he whispered and gave me a peck on the lips looking a t me. “Can you handle that?” He searched my face.
Again, I nodded . The lump was still there. I couldn’t speak. Last night had been amazing, this morning too. I wanted all this man had to offer, but apparently all he could offer me was mind blowing sex. Would that be enough? It would have to be enough. “Yes, I can handle that.” I replied to trying to harden my voice.
“ I will make it easier on you.” He was all seriousness now. “I won’t do romance. No gifts, no flowers, no fancy restaurants, okay. The minute you want out, let me know.” His eyes still searching mine looked for doubt.
“Okay,” I said and straightened my shoulders a little to show him I could handle it, and directly met his penetrating scrutiny. God, I was so disappointed. A thousand possibilities died in that moment, but maybe his feelings for me could grow.
“So, are we still on for tonight?” he questioned and laughed softly eyebrows waggling mischievously.
“Yeah, I’m game. Why not?” I shrugged my shoulders nonchalantly trying to appear indifferent.
“It’ll be fun while it lasts, baby.” His eyes searched mine and I feared he may have seen my doubts, but then he shrugged too. “Bring a bathing suit, we can swim on Sunday.”
“O kay, sounds like fun,” I said. He straightened up and grabbed my shoulders and gave me a firm kiss on the lips. I was still in a daze over his revelations that it took me a moment to respond and open for him as he plunged his tongue into my mouth. The kiss lasted pretty long and was pretty intense, but somehow this time it didn’t make my toes curl.
He pulled back and looked at me questioningly, “You okay?” His ice blue eyes pierced my brown ones.
“Yes, I am
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