time. Nothing looks familiar to her, Iâm sure. This is something Iâm smart enough not to ask, though I did have to catch myself once. A lot of people think Iâm quiet or shy, but itâs just that Iâm smart enough not to lend voice to thought if I can help it. It was the same way with my sister and the blue jays. I wanted to ask her if she was taking anymedication or seeing a therapist or getting enough sleep. I wanted to say she should get herself laid one time, maybe get blind drunk some night, but I kept it all to myself. People have a hard time recognizing this kind of genius, but Iâm happy to say that my new wife can. She said as much the night we met. She said, I can tell how smart you are by how you sit and say nothing. I married her three days later. This was back in Atlantic City, which seems another lifetime ago, maybe two lifetimes, even though itâs only been three days. This is how the world works sometimes. Time and math donât always apply.
My new wife has never been anywhere other than Atlantic City for the past five years. Iâm not sure where she was before that. I did ask once. I said, Where are you from? And she said, Iâm not proud of this. Sometimes Eastern Europeans talk this way, so I think thatâs what she is, where sheâs from. It can mean almost anything, so I decided to drop it. Another thing people donât know about me is my intuition and how sharp it is. I told her it wasnât important. I told her the only important thing was our everlasting devotion. She agreed by getting behind the wheel and driving north to Piscataway. This is yet another reason she is doing the driving, and it works out, so I can do the looking. She wouldnât know what to look for and also she doesnât like responsibility, I donât think. I canât claim this as fact, but Iâve pickedup on such. Thereâs only so much you can learn about a person in four days, so at this point itâs all suspicion and extrapolation, which is as close to intuition as you can get sometimes. I do, however, know plenty about myself, but only when it comes to poker. I know I donât like to play suited connectors out of position and that Iâm best at the three-bet. I can play back at anyone who tries to bully me. This is how I met my new wife, at the table. I raised preflop with an ace-ten of spades and she played back at me. So I reraised and put her all in. I was surprised when she called with a pair of nines, but sometimes Eastern Europeans play fast and loose like that. I caught an ace on the turn and that was that until an hour or so later when I saw her crying at the bar.
Another reason she is doing the driving is I donât have a valid driverâs license. It was revoked last year, Iâm pretty sure. I think it was for my third DUI, which is a night Iâd like to remember. I know thatâs a reason they revoke licenses, the third strike, so to speak. Otherwise, I let the license lapse and never renewed it. Iâm not sure which is true in this instance. It could be that Iâve lost my license both ways over the years. It is like me to ignore things I have to do, like renew driverâs licenses, pay the heating bill, rent, insurance. Sometimes I forget to call my sister. Itâs not that I forget to return her calls because sheâs never called me on the telephone or dropped by in person. Iâve learned not to take thispersonally, though Iâm sure itâs personal. Iâm sure she holds me responsible for something and thereâs no getting over it. Maybe itâs the monkey bars. Maybe she thinks Iâm the one who tripped her. Even still, I have it in my head to call her every so often, check in. I like to know sheâs okay, that sheâs still living some kind of life. This is one reason weâre driving around Piscataway, trying to find her. I also want to introduce her to my new wife, show her that
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