change.
Perhaps it was wrong to lie with him . Now I have given him what he wanted. Now I have nothing for him, nothing held back, nothing to hold him .
Perhaps it was wrong to lie with her. Another duty, another obligation, another potential source of guilt. Was I lying to her in lying with her?
Perhaps it was right to lie with him. Now there is no secrecy, all of it out in the open and fixed and unchanging. Now he will know that he loves me .
Perhaps it was right to lie with her …
—I love you, said Dolores O’Toole.
—I love you, said Virgil Jones.
They both felt very, very sad.
—It was him , said Dolores fiercely.
—Who?
—Flapping Eagle, she said. If he were not here, we would not be. Here.
—We have much to thank him for, then, said Virgil Jones.
—Yes, said Dolores, unhappily. We have everything to thank him for.
But the risk of grief, thought Virgil, and the risk of guilt: could one not lay that, very properly, at the door of Grimus?
Dolores stared at the mountain with a possessed intensity.
—Nothing will change, she said, between clenched teeth.
XII
I T WAS THE tremor that woke Flapping Eagle early. It shook at him through the thin mat; it upset the room’s single low table to send the jigsaw crashing. He came awake fast, and leapt to his feet at the same instant; but it was over, too slight to cause any damage.
He had been dreaming: a nightmare. He stood on a black rock, in full warpaint, clutching a tomahawk, slashing vainly at the eagle that swooped endlessly down at him, scarring his body, biting at his flesh, while on the ground below stood a faceless figure, long and black and very smooth, with jewelled rings on every finger, laughing and laughing and laughing: the laugh of Deggle.
The room was still dark, sackcloth barring the first faint light. He stood gulping breath for a nervous instant, and saw that Dolores O’Toole’s mat was unused, and Virgil Jones’ rocking-chair was rocking emptily. He went outside.
Mr Jones and Mrs O’Toole stood in the clearing; chickens squawked with alarm and birds screeched, interrupted in their sleep. The ill-assorted pair stood still. Virgil’s tongue was working unconsciously; Dolores’ eyes looked vague and distant. They did not focus on Flapping Eagle.
—Earthquake, she said.
—What? said Flapping Eagle. Dolores appeared not to hear.
—The Great Turtle moved, she said to Virgil and cackled.
Virgil looked at her worriedly, as she broke off and said gravely:
—No, no, I was mistaken. Nothing happened. Nothing changes.
—Is Mrs O’Toole all right? asked Flapping Eagle.
—Yes, yes, said Mr Jones, shepherding her into the room. A little overwrought, he said in an aside to Flapping Eagle. Rest is what she needs. I suggest you and I go for a walk. Have our little chat. Let her rest, wouldn’t you agree?
—Of course, said Flapping Eagle.
So they left her in the hut and walked towards Virgil and Dolores’ night-hollow. When they were gone, Dolores moved jerkily towards the old trunk that lay unopened in the corner. This is where the past sat locked, her past, unchanged, unchangeable. She sat on the ground and embraced the trunk, whispering to it.
—It is yesterday, she whispered. Every day is yesterday, so every day is fixed.
XIII
F LAPPING E AGLE, SENSITIVE to changes in atmosphere, knew that the Virgil Jones of this morning was a different man from the Virgil Jones of the previous night. He also felt that Dolores O’Toole’s antagonism to him, so imperceptible at first, was hardening fast. But this morning he had deliberately closed his mind to both these facts; he wanted information from Mr Jones. The sooner he knew the nature of Calf Island and its mountain, not to mention the whereabouts of Bird-Dog and Sispy, the sooner he could leave the outcast couple to their devices and move on down his solitary road.
Virgil Jones led him away from the hut and into the fringes of the wood. They sat beside a deep well. Or,
Perhaps it was wrong to lie with him . Now I have given him what he wanted. Now I have nothing for him, nothing held back, nothing to hold him .
Perhaps it was wrong to lie with her. Another duty, another obligation, another potential source of guilt. Was I lying to her in lying with her?
Perhaps it was right to lie with him. Now there is no secrecy, all of it out in the open and fixed and unchanging. Now he will know that he loves me .
Perhaps it was right to lie with her …
—I love you, said Dolores O’Toole.
—I love you, said Virgil Jones.
They both felt very, very sad.
—It was him , said Dolores fiercely.
—Who?
—Flapping Eagle, she said. If he were not here, we would not be. Here.
—We have much to thank him for, then, said Virgil Jones.
—Yes, said Dolores, unhappily. We have everything to thank him for.
But the risk of grief, thought Virgil, and the risk of guilt: could one not lay that, very properly, at the door of Grimus?
Dolores stared at the mountain with a possessed intensity.
—Nothing will change, she said, between clenched teeth.
XII
I T WAS THE tremor that woke Flapping Eagle early. It shook at him through the thin mat; it upset the room’s single low table to send the jigsaw crashing. He came awake fast, and leapt to his feet at the same instant; but it was over, too slight to cause any damage.
He had been dreaming: a nightmare. He stood on a black rock, in full warpaint, clutching a tomahawk, slashing vainly at the eagle that swooped endlessly down at him, scarring his body, biting at his flesh, while on the ground below stood a faceless figure, long and black and very smooth, with jewelled rings on every finger, laughing and laughing and laughing: the laugh of Deggle.
The room was still dark, sackcloth barring the first faint light. He stood gulping breath for a nervous instant, and saw that Dolores O’Toole’s mat was unused, and Virgil Jones’ rocking-chair was rocking emptily. He went outside.
Mr Jones and Mrs O’Toole stood in the clearing; chickens squawked with alarm and birds screeched, interrupted in their sleep. The ill-assorted pair stood still. Virgil’s tongue was working unconsciously; Dolores’ eyes looked vague and distant. They did not focus on Flapping Eagle.
—Earthquake, she said.
—What? said Flapping Eagle. Dolores appeared not to hear.
—The Great Turtle moved, she said to Virgil and cackled.
Virgil looked at her worriedly, as she broke off and said gravely:
—No, no, I was mistaken. Nothing happened. Nothing changes.
—Is Mrs O’Toole all right? asked Flapping Eagle.
—Yes, yes, said Mr Jones, shepherding her into the room. A little overwrought, he said in an aside to Flapping Eagle. Rest is what she needs. I suggest you and I go for a walk. Have our little chat. Let her rest, wouldn’t you agree?
—Of course, said Flapping Eagle.
So they left her in the hut and walked towards Virgil and Dolores’ night-hollow. When they were gone, Dolores moved jerkily towards the old trunk that lay unopened in the corner. This is where the past sat locked, her past, unchanged, unchangeable. She sat on the ground and embraced the trunk, whispering to it.
—It is yesterday, she whispered. Every day is yesterday, so every day is fixed.
XIII
F LAPPING E AGLE, SENSITIVE to changes in atmosphere, knew that the Virgil Jones of this morning was a different man from the Virgil Jones of the previous night. He also felt that Dolores O’Toole’s antagonism to him, so imperceptible at first, was hardening fast. But this morning he had deliberately closed his mind to both these facts; he wanted information from Mr Jones. The sooner he knew the nature of Calf Island and its mountain, not to mention the whereabouts of Bird-Dog and Sispy, the sooner he could leave the outcast couple to their devices and move on down his solitary road.
Virgil Jones led him away from the hut and into the fringes of the wood. They sat beside a deep well. Or,
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