thinking straight, new thoughts were spawned and galloped through my imagination. And I had plenty to do to rein them in again.
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The night before Monday left me completely restless. I got up already at five in the morning and made myself some coffee. Daniel came a bit later and I still smelt the alcohol on his breath. “Well, this time it really got you, didn’t it. It was never that bad.” He took me into his arms tenderly and squeezed me. It took me a while until I understood that he referred to my period. “Yes, this time it is quite intolerable”, I responded but thought of something different. ‘Keep your fingers crossed for me that Robert won’t succeed even after his death that I’m facing murder charges”, went through my head. The euphoria from last Thursday had completely re-transformed into naked fear. Daniel drove to his office at seven o’clock. I too joined the commuter traffic shortly thereafter. Different from last Saturday I made only slow headway and I was happy that I had left so early. I waited in my car in some distance to the storage hall. Sometime later Judy got out of a small Japanese off-road vehicle that was at least ten years old and then she walked slowly down the ramp. It appeared that her kind of job didn’t earn her too much money. I drove my car even further back and parked it behind trucks of a moving company that had left them there. Nobody should be able to read my license plate. Then I walked to the location where I had killed my tormentor. For a while I stood calmly up on the ramp and recalled the events as if they would be happening again. “Julie, come on down I am here already”, Judy’s voice called me from below and with my high heels I stalked carefully down the ramp. The little court yard was wet and on the backside you could see some scrapes in the concrete. That was it. Police had obviously cleaned the site of the accident. Down there Judy greeted me and in tears she gave me a big hug. “It was there where he was stretched out on his car”, she pointed to the ground. “It was just awful.” I padded her back and tried to show some tears in my eyes. “Robert was such a good guy. If I were not together with Hippo I might have married him one day. He often had asked me if I didn’t want to move in with him.” She looked at me briefly. “Sorry, I’m talking nonsense. That was before he got to know you. The last week before his death he talked about you when we prepared for the shoot. He spoke very highly of you. Julie, Robert loved you.” I pressed my lips together and nodded. In fact my eyes did become moist but not from sadness but rather from rage. “I loved him too.” Hookers may also lie. For a while we kept embracing one another then we went into the hall. In Paolo’s office Judy showed me a small flat tool cabinet that stood there on the ground. “The cops sifted through everything here but they didn’t find anything. They left that cabinet untouched when they realized that only office material was in it and no pornos. They sat together there upfront and watched the movies all day long. Paolo was at the end of his wits when they arrested him then.” I took a deep breath. When the cabinet didn’t contain what I hoped for then I’ve reached the end of my line. Because only police could have taken it. The front door fell closed with a bang and I startled. “That must be Pete.” Judy left and greeted Pete in her rough ways in the corridor. I heard how she went to the shower stalls with him where he was supposed to fix something. I had already started to open the drawers. The upper compartments did in fact only contain office material. The lower drawer could not be opened. Underneath the drawer was a thick metal base. Well, I had watched plenty of thrillers on TV so I knew that something was hidden in there. With great efforts I moved the heavy cabinet and actually succeeded in turning it around. There were more drawers on the