appear at his apartment at odd hours, often interrupting our dinners, videos, and more intimate moments.
I complained, and the river of needy friends slowed to a trickle. When I finally realized that Daniel had seriously curtailed his social life, he confessed that a few of the people at his showâs network had advised him to keep what they called an LGPâLow Gay Profile. Apparently soap viewers had a tendency to overidentify actors with the roles they played. Angus Remington was written as a lady-killer, and although the executives hadnât asked Daniel to step back into the closet from which heâd emerged well over a decade before, they did encourage his discretion.
It didnât really bother me. Iâd never been one for trumpeting my sexual orientation to the world, especially since my family was clueless. So it was probably unattractive of me to enjoy taking an occasional shot at Daniel for his new discretion. I considered it payback for the times that heâd jokingly told people how he had to drag me kicking and screaming from the closet after Sydney and I separated. Maybe Daniel felt he had it coming, too, because he tolerated my verbal bullets.
Looking back, I could see what a toll the situation must have taken on him. Heâd always lived his life with an honesty that I admired, and he was struggling with his new boundaries. Us magazine gave him a cover, dubbing him âSoapâs Sexiest Snake,â and his fans were clamoring for information about him. The press was willing to play his game as long as they had something to hook their stories on. Sheilaâs rising celebrity provided exactly that.
It came to a head the night Sheila and I got back from our publicity junket in Europe. In spite of the excitement weâd felt about our trip, weâd both been homesick. She missed Josh, and I missed Daniel. It was the longest he and I had ever been separated. Iâd wanted to make a celebration of our return, so I asked Daniel to hire a limo and meet us at the airport with champagne and Josh. What I didnât know was that Lillith, delighted by the attention Sheila had garnered, wanted to keep the momentum going. Sheâd arranged for us to be met at the airport, too. By a team of reporters and photographers.
I was used to stepping away from Sheila when the media focused on her. The only thing I wanted was to feel Danielâs arms around me. But when I walked toward him, he took a step back and looked nervous. When I stopped, confused and hurt, Sheila spotted him and rushed to hug him. While the flashbulbs exploded, I met Joshâs eyes. He shrugged, as if to remind me that it was all part of the game. Unfortunately, I didnât feel as resigned as he did.
This incident added to the Maddie Awards caused bad feelings to simmer between Daniel and me for days. It might have been resolved eventually, and at least half forgotten, but it was still too fresh when I found out by accident that Mrs. Lazenby was dead. In fact, had been dead for several weeks.
âDid that hurt?â Gavin asked, jolting me back to the present.
âWhat?â I asked.
âYou made a noise. I thought I hurt you.â
âNo. It feels great. Sorry.â
âIâm ready for you to turn over,â he said.
I did, and he started working from my feet up into my quads, while I brooded about the proverbial straw that broke the camelâs back. Iâd just stepped out of bodyWorks, my Chelsea gym, when I heard someone call my name. I turned and saw Danielâs friend Martin Blount and our artist friend Blythe Mayfield walking down the sidewalk, their arms loaded with bags from Bed Bath & Beyond. I stopped to talk to them, awed that Blytheâs hair, usually magenta, was now brilliant purple with an occasional red streak. It took me a few minutes to comprehend what they were excited about.
â. . . and it was Daniel who suggested it as the perfect solution,â Blythe was
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