with Az.
Chapter Eight
We left only after promising to visit again soon and to keep Luke updated on my efforts at meditation. He also agreed to give Salem some time off so he could visit the Faerie Realm. He said Salem could take all the time he wanted, no one was escaping Hell, but he didn't want us to tell Salem that and make him feel unnecessary. So we told Salem that Luke would find someone to cover for him until he returned and not to worry about it. He was ecstatic and went off immediately to pack. I must admit that I was curious over what a dragon would need to pack for a vacation but I didn't want to offend him by asking.
“ I should go back to Faerie and make sure it's okay that Salem visits,” I told Azrael as we walked up the stairs and into his home on the Southern side of Shehaquim, opposite from the entrance to Hell.
“ Yeah,” Az laughed, “you might want to take care of that before he shows up unannounced.”
“ I'll just be a minute,” I turned and gave him a quick kiss. “You don't mind, do you?”
“ Not at all,” he absently brushed my long hair over my shoulder.
“ Oh good,” I couldn't resist sliding into a hug. “Trevor and Kirill have been getting worried every time I leave.”
“ Why?”
“ They're concerned that something might happen to me and that they'd be powerless to help,” I shrugged. “I get it. I don't like feeling powerless either and I'm not just going to another realm, I'm going back in time. It doesn't get more unreachable than that.”
“ Not to make light of what Trevor or Kirill feel,” Azrael's wings slid around us so that it felt like we were in our own little world. “But that seems useless and a little silly to me. Life comes with risks. Even if you were a normal person, you'd take the chance of something bad happening to you everyday simply by breathing. Anything can happen anywhere at any time, and they can't be with you every minute. The Faerie Realm has nothing to do with it and neither does being in the past. Do they feel worried and powerless when you go to the store? Or go to your home in Hawaii to paint?”
“ No,” I said softly.
“ Then why should you being in Faerie be any different?”
“ Because when I'm in Faerie, I'm not even in the same time,” I tried to reason it out fairly. “If something bad happened, they wouldn't be able to get to me.”
“ But they would know immediately,” Azrael shook his head. “You return in mere moments. If you fail to do so, we know something went wrong and we can go into the Faerie Realm to find you. Plus, it's not like you're lacking protection there. I think you're actually safer in Faerie than you are in the Human Realm. Have they forgotten that the kelpie drowned you in Hawaii? Not only that but no one knew, no one was able to get to you in time. A lot of times, Carus, you have to save yourself and I have confidence in your ability to do so.”
“ You don't even know how wonderful it feels to hear someone say that,” I gave him another kiss, not because he deserved it, which he did, but because he made me feel like I deserved him. “Sometimes I wonder if everyone thinks I'm a powerless wuss.”
“ Trevor and Kirill are just letting their love, and possibly a little jealousy, blind them,” he shrugged.
“ You think they're jealous of Arach?”
“ Probably,” Az shrugged, “I am. Why wouldn't they be?”
“ You're jealous of Arach?” I gasped. “Why?”
“ You're married to him, for one,” Azrael sighed and his wings drooped. “I'm sorry, Carus. Forget I said anything.” He walked into the living room and settled onto one of the couches.
“ Oh hell no,” I followed him in. “Don't apologize. Tell me why you're jealous and how I can make this better for you.”
“ Really?” He watched me take a seat beside him.
“ Of course really,” I took his hand. Damn, had I been that blind? How did I not know my men were unhappy? Maybe I'd been too focused on
Chapter Eight
We left only after promising to visit again soon and to keep Luke updated on my efforts at meditation. He also agreed to give Salem some time off so he could visit the Faerie Realm. He said Salem could take all the time he wanted, no one was escaping Hell, but he didn't want us to tell Salem that and make him feel unnecessary. So we told Salem that Luke would find someone to cover for him until he returned and not to worry about it. He was ecstatic and went off immediately to pack. I must admit that I was curious over what a dragon would need to pack for a vacation but I didn't want to offend him by asking.
“ I should go back to Faerie and make sure it's okay that Salem visits,” I told Azrael as we walked up the stairs and into his home on the Southern side of Shehaquim, opposite from the entrance to Hell.
“ Yeah,” Az laughed, “you might want to take care of that before he shows up unannounced.”
“ I'll just be a minute,” I turned and gave him a quick kiss. “You don't mind, do you?”
“ Not at all,” he absently brushed my long hair over my shoulder.
“ Oh good,” I couldn't resist sliding into a hug. “Trevor and Kirill have been getting worried every time I leave.”
“ Why?”
“ They're concerned that something might happen to me and that they'd be powerless to help,” I shrugged. “I get it. I don't like feeling powerless either and I'm not just going to another realm, I'm going back in time. It doesn't get more unreachable than that.”
“ Not to make light of what Trevor or Kirill feel,” Azrael's wings slid around us so that it felt like we were in our own little world. “But that seems useless and a little silly to me. Life comes with risks. Even if you were a normal person, you'd take the chance of something bad happening to you everyday simply by breathing. Anything can happen anywhere at any time, and they can't be with you every minute. The Faerie Realm has nothing to do with it and neither does being in the past. Do they feel worried and powerless when you go to the store? Or go to your home in Hawaii to paint?”
“ No,” I said softly.
“ Then why should you being in Faerie be any different?”
“ Because when I'm in Faerie, I'm not even in the same time,” I tried to reason it out fairly. “If something bad happened, they wouldn't be able to get to me.”
“ But they would know immediately,” Azrael shook his head. “You return in mere moments. If you fail to do so, we know something went wrong and we can go into the Faerie Realm to find you. Plus, it's not like you're lacking protection there. I think you're actually safer in Faerie than you are in the Human Realm. Have they forgotten that the kelpie drowned you in Hawaii? Not only that but no one knew, no one was able to get to you in time. A lot of times, Carus, you have to save yourself and I have confidence in your ability to do so.”
“ You don't even know how wonderful it feels to hear someone say that,” I gave him another kiss, not because he deserved it, which he did, but because he made me feel like I deserved him. “Sometimes I wonder if everyone thinks I'm a powerless wuss.”
“ Trevor and Kirill are just letting their love, and possibly a little jealousy, blind them,” he shrugged.
“ You think they're jealous of Arach?”
“ Probably,” Az shrugged, “I am. Why wouldn't they be?”
“ You're jealous of Arach?” I gasped. “Why?”
“ You're married to him, for one,” Azrael sighed and his wings drooped. “I'm sorry, Carus. Forget I said anything.” He walked into the living room and settled onto one of the couches.
“ Oh hell no,” I followed him in. “Don't apologize. Tell me why you're jealous and how I can make this better for you.”
“ Really?” He watched me take a seat beside him.
“ Of course really,” I took his hand. Damn, had I been that blind? How did I not know my men were unhappy? Maybe I'd been too focused on
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