Landline by Rainbow Rowell Page B

you?” he hissed. “I did tell you. I said, ‘I can’t do this anymore.’ I said ‘I love you, but I’m not sure it’s enough, I’m not sure it will ever be enough.’ I said, ‘I don’t want to live like this, Georgie’—remember?”
    Georgie was speechless. She did remember. But . . .
    “Just a second,” Neal said quietly. “I don’t want to have this conversation in front of my parents. . . .” What he said next was muffled: “Dad, can you hang this up when I get upstairs?”
    “Sure, tell your Georgie girl I said hi.”
    “You can tell her yourself. She’s right there.”
    “Georgie?” someone said into the phone. Someone who was not Neal’s dad. Who couldn’t be.
    “Mr. Grafton?”
    “We’re sorry you couldn’t come for Christmas this year. We made it snow for you and everything.”
    “I’m sorry I missed it,” Georgie said—she must have said it, she heard herself say it.
    “Well, maybe next year,” he said. He who was not, who could not be, Neal’s dad—who was dead. Who died in a train yard three years ago.
    There was a click, then the hollow sound of another phone on the line. “I’ve got it, Dad, thanks.”
    “See ya, Georgie girl,” Neal’s dad said. “Merry Christmas.”
    “Merry Christmas,” she said. Autonomically.
    There was another click.
    Georgie sat completely still.
    “Georgie?”
    “Neal?”
    “Are you okay—are you crying?”
    She was crying. “I . . . I’m really tired. I haven’t been sleeping, and Neal , oh my God, I just imagined the strangest thing. I imagined your dad telling me Merry Christmas. Isn’t that—”
    “He did tell you Merry Christmas.”
    She sucked in a breath.
    “Georgie?”
    “I don’t think I should be talking right now.”
    “Georgie, wait.”
    “I can’t talk right now, Neal. I just . . . I have to go.”
    She slammed the phone down onto the cradle, looked at it for a second, maybe two, then shoved it away from her. It fell to the ground with a heavy, clanging thump. The receiver went flying into the bedside table.
    Georgie stared at it.
    This wasn’t right. None of this was right.
    Neal’s dad was dead. Neal always said I love you. And he knew who “the girls” were.
    And also . . . also, especially—especially, especially —Neal’s dad was dead .
    Georgie was . . . She must be imagining things.
    Exhausted. She was exhausted.
    And upset. Too much stress. Not enough sleep.
    Also, maybe someone had drugged her—that was possible. That was more possible than Neal’s dad coming back from the dead to wish her Merry Christmas. Which didn’t. Just. Happen.
    What else hadn’t happened today? Had she even gone to work? Had she spent last night on the couch? Had she ever woken up?
    Wake up! Wake the fuck up, Georgie!
    Maybe when she woke up, when she really woke up, she’d find Neal lying beside her. Maybe they wouldn’t even be fighting. ( Were they fighting?) Maybe, in the real world, the waking world, Georgie and Neal never fought.
    “I had a dream that things were just like they are now,” she’d say when she woke up, “but we weren’t happy. And it was Christmas, and you left me. . . .”
    “Georgie?” Her mom was calling from the kitchen. Unless Georgie was dreaming that, too. “Are you okay?” her mom shouted.
    “I’m fine!” Georgie yelled back.
    Her mom came to her room anyway. “I heard a noise,” she said from the doorway. She looked down at the phone, lying stretched out and off the hook on the floor. “Is everything all right?”
    Georgie wiped her eyes. “Fine. I’m just”—she shook her head—“I don’t know, maybe having a nervous breakdown.”
    “Of course you are, honey. Your husband left you.”
    “He didn’t leave me,” Georgie said. But maybe he had. Maybe that’s why Georgie was falling apart. “I think I need to rest.”
    “That’s a good idea.”
    “Or maybe I need a drink.”
    Her mom came into the room and picked up the phone, setting it back on the table. “I