how they take care of the littler ones. They're always explaining why they do things; it always goes back to protecting and taking care of those that need it. They are the best teachers because she never feels awkward and is comfortable enough to ask question.
Danny, Pres and Kate come home today. Tiny and Rob helped me get Jessie's bed finished. Danny and Pres have the dresser done but the platform was in the garage, they're going to be surprised we did this for them. I hope they see it as a show of support. The kids haven’t said a fuckin word about Jessie moving in. They’re happy though. I can't wait for Kate to see how far Tess has come.
Tess
Danny, Kate and Ben came back today. They are so nice to me. Nancy showed me how to bake a cake for them. I told Kate about seeing Patches and Rich before I met them. I thought they were just a regular dream. Rich is strong and hard around the edges with dark hair and light blue eyes. He should be on tv. He's big but not the kind of mean big like the Outlaws. Patches has brown hair with gold in it. His eyes are light brown. He's pretty if men can be pretty. He's gentle and caring in a man way but different than the hard in Rich. In my dream we are on a beach playing in the water. They both hold me and kiss me. I never wanted men to touch me, but I want them to. Kate doesn’t ever get mad about the dreams; I tell her the one with Ally and the kids.
Everyone is here and happy to be together. I don't remember my family being happy like this. Jessie sits by me again helping me when I'm going too fast or I make a mistake. He never says anything just shows me. Little Ben went home with Elizabeth, Jess and Steve. Steve looks scarier than Tiny. Darren brings the cake out then signs that I made it today. I smile and sign thank you. Everyone gets cake and tells me how good it is. I did good! I tell them I wanted to say thank you.
"You know the right way to say thanks." Danny says.
"I promised Patches and Rich no sex for thank you's." Everyone stops and looks at me.
Jessie whispers, "He meant making cake." Oh please send a hole to swallow me up. I get up and run to the patio. I put my forehead on the glass. I am such a dunce.
"I think it was a good promise Tess." Ben says behind me. "They were right to make that promise important." I can't look at him. "Your body should be respected by the person you're with and by you. You didn't get a chance to learn that the conventional way. It's important that you learn it now." I nod against the glass. That's what the guys say.
"We may be unusual but we are a family. You should never be so embarrassed that you run from your family. We accept who you were, who you are and who you will become. No one’s going to pass judgment on you here. Let's go back and eat that awesome cake that you made for us."
I look at him, he's not laughing at me. I take his hand but try to stay away from him; I follow his feet and go back for my cake. Everyone is talking and doesn't stop because I walk in. Darren signs he's proud of me. I relax and watch everyone with a smile. I have family again. Patches and Rich are smiling at me. It's ok.
Rich
Tess goes in the kitchen to help the kids with the dishes. “I wanted to talk to you without the kids. We’ve been sleeping with Tess every night. She’s having nightmares, Patches thinks a couple of times they were flashbacks.” I look at each one. There is no judgment in their looks.
“We can take her home at night and bring her back in the morning.” Patches says.
Pres looks at my father. “Stay at my house. I have three spare rooms for you to choose from.”
“That sounds like a good idea. She’ll never be far from us and she can walk back and forth on her own giving her a little independence.” Kate says smiling at us.
“You don’t mind if we move into your
Danny, Pres and Kate come home today. Tiny and Rob helped me get Jessie's bed finished. Danny and Pres have the dresser done but the platform was in the garage, they're going to be surprised we did this for them. I hope they see it as a show of support. The kids haven’t said a fuckin word about Jessie moving in. They’re happy though. I can't wait for Kate to see how far Tess has come.
Tess
Danny, Kate and Ben came back today. They are so nice to me. Nancy showed me how to bake a cake for them. I told Kate about seeing Patches and Rich before I met them. I thought they were just a regular dream. Rich is strong and hard around the edges with dark hair and light blue eyes. He should be on tv. He's big but not the kind of mean big like the Outlaws. Patches has brown hair with gold in it. His eyes are light brown. He's pretty if men can be pretty. He's gentle and caring in a man way but different than the hard in Rich. In my dream we are on a beach playing in the water. They both hold me and kiss me. I never wanted men to touch me, but I want them to. Kate doesn’t ever get mad about the dreams; I tell her the one with Ally and the kids.
Everyone is here and happy to be together. I don't remember my family being happy like this. Jessie sits by me again helping me when I'm going too fast or I make a mistake. He never says anything just shows me. Little Ben went home with Elizabeth, Jess and Steve. Steve looks scarier than Tiny. Darren brings the cake out then signs that I made it today. I smile and sign thank you. Everyone gets cake and tells me how good it is. I did good! I tell them I wanted to say thank you.
"You know the right way to say thanks." Danny says.
"I promised Patches and Rich no sex for thank you's." Everyone stops and looks at me.
Jessie whispers, "He meant making cake." Oh please send a hole to swallow me up. I get up and run to the patio. I put my forehead on the glass. I am such a dunce.
"I think it was a good promise Tess." Ben says behind me. "They were right to make that promise important." I can't look at him. "Your body should be respected by the person you're with and by you. You didn't get a chance to learn that the conventional way. It's important that you learn it now." I nod against the glass. That's what the guys say.
"We may be unusual but we are a family. You should never be so embarrassed that you run from your family. We accept who you were, who you are and who you will become. No one’s going to pass judgment on you here. Let's go back and eat that awesome cake that you made for us."
I look at him, he's not laughing at me. I take his hand but try to stay away from him; I follow his feet and go back for my cake. Everyone is talking and doesn't stop because I walk in. Darren signs he's proud of me. I relax and watch everyone with a smile. I have family again. Patches and Rich are smiling at me. It's ok.
Rich
Tess goes in the kitchen to help the kids with the dishes. “I wanted to talk to you without the kids. We’ve been sleeping with Tess every night. She’s having nightmares, Patches thinks a couple of times they were flashbacks.” I look at each one. There is no judgment in their looks.
“We can take her home at night and bring her back in the morning.” Patches says.
Pres looks at my father. “Stay at my house. I have three spare rooms for you to choose from.”
“That sounds like a good idea. She’ll never be far from us and she can walk back and forth on her own giving her a little independence.” Kate says smiling at us.
“You don’t mind if we move into your
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