party.â
The tension eases out of his shoulders. âThanks.â He smiles, just a little, and lifts one hand in a wave. âSee you there.â
I watch him walk away. His words spin through my head.
You feel so far away.
Thereâs a funny feeling in my stomach, and I wonder why.
I shake off the thoughts and walk toward my car. Stevenâs waiting for me in the Underwater Café. Or is he?
In my head, I see him lying motionless and pale on a bed,his eyes open and empty, glazed over in death. A chill races through me, penetrating to the marrow of my bones.
No.
Even if he does have a Somnazol, he wouldnât have taken it. Not before our meeting.
Steven will be there. He will.
When I walk into the café and see Steven sitting in the booth, a wave of relief washes over me, so strong that, for a moment, I feel faint. Heâs wearing a long black leather coat with a high collar and far more buckles and straps than seem strictly necessary. âHey, Doc,â he says.
I think about pointing out that Iâm not technically a doctor, but I donât bother. I suppose, given our respective roles, the titleâs not inaccurate. âHello, Steven.â I sit.
I want to ask him if he really has a Somnazol, but I choke down the question. I need to be cautious. Asking could come across as confrontational, which could push him away. Besides, Iâd have to admit Iâd been looking through his file, and I feel a strange reluctance to tell him that. âI didnât see you at school today,â I say instead. âIs everything all right?â
âDidnât feel like going.â He shrugs. âNever liked school. Anything interesting happen?â
âThere was a raid. Someone found a threatening note onthe wall, and the police swarmed in and scanned everyone. They took someone away for treatment.â
âTypical day, then.â
A small chuckle escapes me, though it sounds a little strangled. âI guess so.â It occurs to me thatâif the rumors are trueâSteven has almost certainly been in that boyâs place. Heâs been the one dragged away by police, driven off to a treatment facility against his will.
âSo, you going to order something or what?â he asks.
I glance at the touch screen menu on the table. I didnât have lunch, but my appetite has been conspicuously absent since the incident at school. I order a plate of calamari and a chai tea, anyway. Steven doesnât order anything. When the plate arrives, I pick at the contents without much enthusiasm. The fishy smell nauseates me.
Steven wipes his sleeve across his mouth, staring intently at my dinner.
I push it toward him. âHelp yourself.â
He grabs a fork and starts shoveling calamari into his mouth. When heâs done, he drinks the sauce from its dish like soup. I realize my mouth is hanging open and snap it shut. âWhenâs the last time you ate?â
âUm. Yesterday morning, I think.â
âYou must be starving. Why donât you order something?â
He doesnât answer. I look at his gaunt face, the hollows in his cheeks. If he has no family, what does he do for money? Itâs very difficult for someone with a collar to find work. There are government assistance programs, but the money isnât enough to live on. I think about my freezer, brimming with frozen carrots and broccoli, and the mountains of boxed pasta andcereal in my pantry. Greta is always stocking the kitchen with more than I can possibly eat. Whatever happens, I decide, heâs going home tonight with bags of food.
He runs a finger around the inside of the dish, collecting the last traces of spicy orange sauce, and sucks the finger clean. A small burp escapes him. âScuse me.â
An awkward silence hangs between us. I say, âListen.â
In the same moment, he says, âLook.â
We both fall silent again.
âYou first,â I say.
He rubs
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