Moment of Weakness - The Esquire Girls Series - Hailey (Book 1) by Cassie-Ann L. Miller Page B
Authors: Cassie-Ann L. Miller
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fierce passion.
And, I want him too, dammit.
Chapter 20
“I hate always being stuck at the single people’s table,” Nadia groans as she sinks into the white satin-covered chair next to me. She sets a glass of water down in front of me and holds tightly to her Long Island Iced Tea.
“Nadia, this isn’t the single people’s table – it’s the bride’s maid’s table,” I say with a small laugh.
“Same shit,” she says with a grunt as she takes a greedy gulp of her drink.
“Slow down there, Nadia,” I say resting my hand down on top of hers. “I don’t plan on holding your hair back while you puke the night away so you’d better start pacing your drinks.”
She rolls her eyes at me before gulping again.
I shake my head and bring my eyes to the dance floor. Amber looks so completely in love. I’ve never seen her grin so wide as she looks up into the eyes of her new husband. I see the same joy reflected in Spencer’s eyes. They make such a good-looking pair as they dance the night away at their winter wonderland wedding.
I want to love like that.
I want someone to look at me the way Spencer is looking at Amber right now. A part of me feels like that will never happen. I mean, I’m a big girl – my thighs are too thick, my arms are too big – big girls don’t often get ‘happily ever after’. At least that’s what my mom used to say as I scarfed down burgers back on the ranch. I was young then. I wouldn’t listen to her. I didn’t care about love. And food was the only thing that made me feel good after my daddy died and my mom married her alcoholic deadbeat second husband. Now, I regret my relationship with food. I wish I could change things but it seems like my body is permanently scarred from the way I treated it when I was younger. No matter how ‘vegan’ I get or how many detoxes I take, I’m fat. And I’ll probably always be fat.
And unloveable.
Jackson is pursuing me relentlessly but I have a hard time believing that he’s genuinely interested in me. Like Matt, he only wants my body and then he’ll discard me once he’s done with me. If I give in to him, if I succumb and have sex with him, I’ll have to face this harsh reality. I don’t know if I can deal with the sting of yet another rejection at the hands of a man.
“I think I’m gonna sleep with Luke tonight,” Nadia announces as she rises to her feet. I follow her gaze to the dance floor where Luke is dancing with a dateless Ruthie. Apparently, she and Michael had a fight a few days ago so she’s hanging out at with the ‘single people’ crew tonight. I’m not concerned that Ruthie will do something stupid, though. The dance looks very platonic with my frigging supermodel-looking roommate towering over Luke.
Luke started his internship at CMS at the same time that we did. We always make fun of him because he looks so young and scrawny. Now, in her moment of weakness, Nadia has decided to take him for a ride in the hay.
“Nadia – you can’t sleep with Luke,” I say, amusement brightening up my mood just thinking about it.
“Watch me!” Nadia says challengingly as she staggers her way to the dance floor. “Time to work my seductive charm!”
I can’t help but laugh. I’ll let her have some fun with Luke for now. But if things start getting out of hand, I’ll have to intervene. She would kill me if she ever woke up in Luke’s bed.
Chapter 21
It’s been way too long since I’ve been to the gym. At this time of year, things just sort of fall off track. With all the holiday parties to attend, it seems like the less time you have to exercise, the more food is available to eat.
All the girls have plans tonight so I’m on my own. I won’t let that discourage me. I’m going to work out anyway.
I yank my gym bag over my shoulder as I step off of the elevator. Instinctively, my eyes go to the security desk. Jackson is there
And, I want him too, dammit.
Chapter 20
“I hate always being stuck at the single people’s table,” Nadia groans as she sinks into the white satin-covered chair next to me. She sets a glass of water down in front of me and holds tightly to her Long Island Iced Tea.
“Nadia, this isn’t the single people’s table – it’s the bride’s maid’s table,” I say with a small laugh.
“Same shit,” she says with a grunt as she takes a greedy gulp of her drink.
“Slow down there, Nadia,” I say resting my hand down on top of hers. “I don’t plan on holding your hair back while you puke the night away so you’d better start pacing your drinks.”
She rolls her eyes at me before gulping again.
I shake my head and bring my eyes to the dance floor. Amber looks so completely in love. I’ve never seen her grin so wide as she looks up into the eyes of her new husband. I see the same joy reflected in Spencer’s eyes. They make such a good-looking pair as they dance the night away at their winter wonderland wedding.
I want to love like that.
I want someone to look at me the way Spencer is looking at Amber right now. A part of me feels like that will never happen. I mean, I’m a big girl – my thighs are too thick, my arms are too big – big girls don’t often get ‘happily ever after’. At least that’s what my mom used to say as I scarfed down burgers back on the ranch. I was young then. I wouldn’t listen to her. I didn’t care about love. And food was the only thing that made me feel good after my daddy died and my mom married her alcoholic deadbeat second husband. Now, I regret my relationship with food. I wish I could change things but it seems like my body is permanently scarred from the way I treated it when I was younger. No matter how ‘vegan’ I get or how many detoxes I take, I’m fat. And I’ll probably always be fat.
And unloveable.
Jackson is pursuing me relentlessly but I have a hard time believing that he’s genuinely interested in me. Like Matt, he only wants my body and then he’ll discard me once he’s done with me. If I give in to him, if I succumb and have sex with him, I’ll have to face this harsh reality. I don’t know if I can deal with the sting of yet another rejection at the hands of a man.
“I think I’m gonna sleep with Luke tonight,” Nadia announces as she rises to her feet. I follow her gaze to the dance floor where Luke is dancing with a dateless Ruthie. Apparently, she and Michael had a fight a few days ago so she’s hanging out at with the ‘single people’ crew tonight. I’m not concerned that Ruthie will do something stupid, though. The dance looks very platonic with my frigging supermodel-looking roommate towering over Luke.
Luke started his internship at CMS at the same time that we did. We always make fun of him because he looks so young and scrawny. Now, in her moment of weakness, Nadia has decided to take him for a ride in the hay.
“Nadia – you can’t sleep with Luke,” I say, amusement brightening up my mood just thinking about it.
“Watch me!” Nadia says challengingly as she staggers her way to the dance floor. “Time to work my seductive charm!”
I can’t help but laugh. I’ll let her have some fun with Luke for now. But if things start getting out of hand, I’ll have to intervene. She would kill me if she ever woke up in Luke’s bed.
Chapter 21
It’s been way too long since I’ve been to the gym. At this time of year, things just sort of fall off track. With all the holiday parties to attend, it seems like the less time you have to exercise, the more food is available to eat.
All the girls have plans tonight so I’m on my own. I won’t let that discourage me. I’m going to work out anyway.
I yank my gym bag over my shoulder as I step off of the elevator. Instinctively, my eyes go to the security desk. Jackson is there
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