merchandise to priceless first editions, you never knew what you were going to find here. I found myself drawn to the jewelry counter where cheap dime store knock offs were placed next to expensive family heirlooms. One piece caught my attention, an engagement ring from the 1920’s in art deco style, it was a square cut diamond in the center with smaller diamonds around it, and it was beautiful.
“What’s got you so serious, baby?” Seth asked.
I looked up at him and found him watching me, and it hit me once again how breathtaking this man was.
“I was just thinking it reminds me of my grandmother’s ring.”
I could tell by the look in his eyes he understood, but then again he always had.
“How are your parents?” I shrugged, “Wouldn’t know, haven talked to them in over two years.” I didn’t have to explain why to him, he knew how my parents are.
“I’m sorry baby,” he said simply.
“Nothing to be sorry about, it was their decision, when they found out about the pregnancy they went ballistic, tried forcing me to marry one of their friend’s sons so I wouldn’t reflect badly on the family. I of course, as always refused, they just don’t understand that I can’t live the life they want me too, I can’t be the perfect Porter princess they want.” It still made me sad thinking about my parents, they never truly understood me, or cared to see me. I was to become like my mother the perfect wife and have perfect children, what they got instead was me, a constant disappointment.
“I wish I could have been there for you when they found out,” he replied quietly.
I reached up and put my hand on his cheek, “It wouldn’t have changed anything, I still can’t be who they want me to be, and they will never accept anything less, it was going to happen eventually. Drake was with me, he and my dad went toe to toe as normal while my mother sat there sobbing about how I was a disappointment, and ruining her family. We left after that and haven’t been back, my dad called Drake and told him we were disinherited. But then the day after Drake turned 25 the bank called letting him know his trust fund was now available to him. I don’t know if he called them or not, not even sure if he’s touched the money since he’s had it. Though I don’t think he needs it, he makes a pretty good living working for the label, and he loves his job.”
He turned his face and gave me a kiss on the palm, “They truly don’t understand what they are missing out on Devi, it’s their loss,” he said letting go of my hand and re-lacing his fingers through it.
I had to blink back tears before I could respond. “Well thanks, that’s the way I feel about it too,” I said putting on my brave face, I knew he could see through it, see the hurt little girl that always yearned for her parent’s approval but he didn’t say anything.
“You ready to get out of here?” he asked changing the subject. “How about we go down to the basement and play some video games?”
With that the tension that was building broke, and we headed down to the arcade. We spent an hour or so playing video games, laughing, touching, and having more fun than I could remember having in a long time.
“You ready to head home?” he asked after I once again beat him at Tekken.
“You just don’t want to lose to a girl again.”
“Damn straight, I have to leave with some of my ego in tack,” he said with a laugh.
After we got my fudge, we headed back to the train station, taking our time it felt so much like all the other times Seth and I had come here. I didn’t want it to end, but on the other hand it scared the hell out of me. I knew he would be leaving when he finished his album, he said he wanted to stay in Jaks life, but never said anything about staying in mine. I wasn’t sure I could go through him leaving me again, it was so hard the first time,
“What’s got you so serious, baby?” Seth asked.
I looked up at him and found him watching me, and it hit me once again how breathtaking this man was.
“I was just thinking it reminds me of my grandmother’s ring.”
I could tell by the look in his eyes he understood, but then again he always had.
“How are your parents?” I shrugged, “Wouldn’t know, haven talked to them in over two years.” I didn’t have to explain why to him, he knew how my parents are.
“I’m sorry baby,” he said simply.
“Nothing to be sorry about, it was their decision, when they found out about the pregnancy they went ballistic, tried forcing me to marry one of their friend’s sons so I wouldn’t reflect badly on the family. I of course, as always refused, they just don’t understand that I can’t live the life they want me too, I can’t be the perfect Porter princess they want.” It still made me sad thinking about my parents, they never truly understood me, or cared to see me. I was to become like my mother the perfect wife and have perfect children, what they got instead was me, a constant disappointment.
“I wish I could have been there for you when they found out,” he replied quietly.
I reached up and put my hand on his cheek, “It wouldn’t have changed anything, I still can’t be who they want me to be, and they will never accept anything less, it was going to happen eventually. Drake was with me, he and my dad went toe to toe as normal while my mother sat there sobbing about how I was a disappointment, and ruining her family. We left after that and haven’t been back, my dad called Drake and told him we were disinherited. But then the day after Drake turned 25 the bank called letting him know his trust fund was now available to him. I don’t know if he called them or not, not even sure if he’s touched the money since he’s had it. Though I don’t think he needs it, he makes a pretty good living working for the label, and he loves his job.”
He turned his face and gave me a kiss on the palm, “They truly don’t understand what they are missing out on Devi, it’s their loss,” he said letting go of my hand and re-lacing his fingers through it.
I had to blink back tears before I could respond. “Well thanks, that’s the way I feel about it too,” I said putting on my brave face, I knew he could see through it, see the hurt little girl that always yearned for her parent’s approval but he didn’t say anything.
“You ready to get out of here?” he asked changing the subject. “How about we go down to the basement and play some video games?”
With that the tension that was building broke, and we headed down to the arcade. We spent an hour or so playing video games, laughing, touching, and having more fun than I could remember having in a long time.
“You ready to head home?” he asked after I once again beat him at Tekken.
“You just don’t want to lose to a girl again.”
“Damn straight, I have to leave with some of my ego in tack,” he said with a laugh.
After we got my fudge, we headed back to the train station, taking our time it felt so much like all the other times Seth and I had come here. I didn’t want it to end, but on the other hand it scared the hell out of me. I knew he would be leaving when he finished his album, he said he wanted to stay in Jaks life, but never said anything about staying in mine. I wasn’t sure I could go through him leaving me again, it was so hard the first time,
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