Never Without Hope (Sacred Vows Book 1) by Michelle Sutton Page A
Authors: Michelle Sutton
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nipping at my heels. That was wonderful news indeed! “You’re moving? That’s…that’s so great!”
“ Wait a sec.” He maneuvered until he could lean against the headboard and sit up. His expression grew concerned. “Why you think is great?”
I sat up and faced him. Touching his hair at the nape of his neck, I drew him close for a brief kiss. “Don’t you see? Then this…thing we’re doing won’t go on forever. We can go back to our lives like they were before. And I don’t have to keep seeing you behind my husband’s back!”
“ Is not so great to me. I desire you, not my wife.” Tony frowned and looked sad. Even a bit worried.
“ That’s bad, Tony. You must desire your wife. You have to. Especially if you’re moving. If you don’t find a way, then you’ll find another woman, and that would be too risky for you. Especially after this...” I laid my head on his shoulder and sighed. “I wish it were easy for me at home. But it’s not.”
“ Why is that?” He touched my chin and directed my face until he could look at me.
“ My husband doesn’t want to have sex anymore. I don’t know what’s wrong, but he can’t seem to get in the mood.” Tears filled my eyes.
“ That is impossible. No man could resist you unless he crazy man.”
I brushed the tears from the corners of my eyes. “Yeah, well, thanks anyway.”
We held each other for several minutes in silence. “So what are you going to do to work things out with your wife? What went wrong in your marriage?”
“ Is hard to explain. Ever since she have baby she not want sex. Actually, this start before baby was born. I kiss her and try things but she pull away. I not want to force her so I stop trying so I make her happy. But she still not happy. She says it is the baby that makes her not want sex, but my baby is almost six months old. There is no excuse for not wanting sex. But she insist and she get angry with me. When she does give in, I know she is not interested, but does from duty. That turns me off. Is very hard for me.”
“ Yeah, I know what you mean.” I played with the hair on his chest, wishing my husband would even try to please me. I’d take anything at this point.
“ Is your wife Italian?” I asked absently as I watched his chest rise and fall, mesmerized by the reality of his naked body next to mine. Still feeling heady with a desire for more.
Tony chuckled. “She is white American like you.”
“ Mmmmm…” My curiosity appeased, I didn’t know what more to say.
He kissed my hair and squeezed me with a little grunt of affection, his hand trailing down my arm. “Thank you so much for coming to see me.”
My throat tightened with emotion. I felt so mixed up. “Do you think this is it? Should we say goodbye now…since you’re moving?”
Tony drew me closer and held me tight. His voice sounded husky. “I must see you if you want to see me. I will miss you, miss this…” He buried his face in my hair, nipping at my earlobe, until one thing led to another. The next thing I knew we’d tangled together and torn the sheets loose. A half an hour later, just as he finished, the phone rang.
He hopped from the bed and answered it. “Yes, my sweet. I am getting ready for work. How is you mom?”
As I watched him standing in the buff, talking to his wife, I wondered what I had gotten myself into. But then I remembered my husband ’s lack of interest in me, and I thought about what I had just done with Tony. My mouth curved into a smile from the pleasure I couldn’t deny. Even if our contact resulted in serious consequences, I wanted to see Tony again.
My own words came to mind. “How can anyone do something like that and still say they’re Christian?” Fear squelched my happiness and made my pulse skip in an erratic rhythm. Maybe those people weren’t Christian. Maybe they had lost their salvation. Maybe I had. Theologically that didn’t sit right with me, but could anyone honestly think if I
“ Wait a sec.” He maneuvered until he could lean against the headboard and sit up. His expression grew concerned. “Why you think is great?”
I sat up and faced him. Touching his hair at the nape of his neck, I drew him close for a brief kiss. “Don’t you see? Then this…thing we’re doing won’t go on forever. We can go back to our lives like they were before. And I don’t have to keep seeing you behind my husband’s back!”
“ Is not so great to me. I desire you, not my wife.” Tony frowned and looked sad. Even a bit worried.
“ That’s bad, Tony. You must desire your wife. You have to. Especially if you’re moving. If you don’t find a way, then you’ll find another woman, and that would be too risky for you. Especially after this...” I laid my head on his shoulder and sighed. “I wish it were easy for me at home. But it’s not.”
“ Why is that?” He touched my chin and directed my face until he could look at me.
“ My husband doesn’t want to have sex anymore. I don’t know what’s wrong, but he can’t seem to get in the mood.” Tears filled my eyes.
“ That is impossible. No man could resist you unless he crazy man.”
I brushed the tears from the corners of my eyes. “Yeah, well, thanks anyway.”
We held each other for several minutes in silence. “So what are you going to do to work things out with your wife? What went wrong in your marriage?”
“ Is hard to explain. Ever since she have baby she not want sex. Actually, this start before baby was born. I kiss her and try things but she pull away. I not want to force her so I stop trying so I make her happy. But she still not happy. She says it is the baby that makes her not want sex, but my baby is almost six months old. There is no excuse for not wanting sex. But she insist and she get angry with me. When she does give in, I know she is not interested, but does from duty. That turns me off. Is very hard for me.”
“ Yeah, I know what you mean.” I played with the hair on his chest, wishing my husband would even try to please me. I’d take anything at this point.
“ Is your wife Italian?” I asked absently as I watched his chest rise and fall, mesmerized by the reality of his naked body next to mine. Still feeling heady with a desire for more.
Tony chuckled. “She is white American like you.”
“ Mmmmm…” My curiosity appeased, I didn’t know what more to say.
He kissed my hair and squeezed me with a little grunt of affection, his hand trailing down my arm. “Thank you so much for coming to see me.”
My throat tightened with emotion. I felt so mixed up. “Do you think this is it? Should we say goodbye now…since you’re moving?”
Tony drew me closer and held me tight. His voice sounded husky. “I must see you if you want to see me. I will miss you, miss this…” He buried his face in my hair, nipping at my earlobe, until one thing led to another. The next thing I knew we’d tangled together and torn the sheets loose. A half an hour later, just as he finished, the phone rang.
He hopped from the bed and answered it. “Yes, my sweet. I am getting ready for work. How is you mom?”
As I watched him standing in the buff, talking to his wife, I wondered what I had gotten myself into. But then I remembered my husband ’s lack of interest in me, and I thought about what I had just done with Tony. My mouth curved into a smile from the pleasure I couldn’t deny. Even if our contact resulted in serious consequences, I wanted to see Tony again.
My own words came to mind. “How can anyone do something like that and still say they’re Christian?” Fear squelched my happiness and made my pulse skip in an erratic rhythm. Maybe those people weren’t Christian. Maybe they had lost their salvation. Maybe I had. Theologically that didn’t sit right with me, but could anyone honestly think if I
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