brother it’s insane. Of course, I was datin’ Ford and it was completely different, but still. I know they were close. We were all close before Harley died. After that happened everything changed. Ford changed.”
It made me sad to think back when that all happened. I felt so alone, having him push me away because he couldn’t deal with it. Things got really bad for me after that. Not only had I lost my boyfriend, but I didn’t really hang out with the best people. I smoked a lot of marijuana and drank until I couldn’t feel my emotions anymore. I was lost and wanted to drown my pain however I could. Ford knew it and that’s probably why he stayed away. I know that deep down inside he blames me for her death. I blame myself sometimes too. Indirectly, I suppose it was partly my fault. I never should have talked her into going to that party, and I certainly shouldn’t have coaxed her to drink. Ford and I were on the rocks, being that he was going to school so far away. The whole whirlwind of my life changed everything. In one moment I lost my first love and the family that I’d always considered my own.
It took Shayne a while to reach out to me, but after he rescued me one night at the beach, from a terrible situation, I started doing all of my partying at his place.
He probably felt sorry for my demise. In a way, I wanted the attention. I wanted anything that would make the pain go away.
After failed counseling sessions and a dozen antidepressants , I was left feeling even more lost. I’d pretty much reached rock bottom when I saw Ford with Sky for the first time. I’d been messaging him, but always knew he didn’t want to hang out.
After that night, I fled back to the beach and ended up sleeping with Shayne and Peyton’s brother.
It was such a mistake. I regretted it even while it was happening. I’d stooped so low and prepared myself for that life ending blow to my humanity.
To protect his brother, Shayne buried the event, promising to never speak of it. A few pregnancy tests later and all of that went to shit.
The rest is part of the story that brought us together. Though it was a horrible way to fall in love, it had happened. I owed him so much, especially the way I’d handled Ford, and my pregnancy.
I’d cost them their friendship. It was all my fault.
“Peyton, nobody wants to see Ford and Shayne reconcile more than me. I’m afraid it’s goin’ to take a little more than Sky’s best friend bein’ nice to me for that to happen.”
“It’s still a start. They can’t fight like this forever. So what if you slept with Shayne. You and Ford weren’t together, right?”
She didn’t have a clue.
I nodded, unable to admit anything out loud. I was sick of lying.
With two little ones and a new relationship to worry about, I needed to focus on the future and no longer the past.
“Well, Lacey said the twins are super cute. I think she’s tryin’ real hard to be your friend.”
Thankfully, Eli woke up and started screaming from the top of his healthy lungs. It was enough to wake his sister and cause Peyton to have to help me out.
I appreciated the interruption, but knew it wouldn’t be the last time she tried to talk about it. At some point I was going to have to do something to get the family off my back, which pretty much meant that I needed to figure out how to make Ford forgive Shayne.
Chapter 9
Shayne
My uncle was in his office when I arrived. He had a cigarette in his mouth and was telling my aunt to start making the coffee.
I walked right in and sat down in front of him. “What’s goin’ on nephew? You fightin’ with your dad again?”
“When am I not? He can’t get off my ass. I’m tired of hearin’ his shit. Now he’s all about me bein’ responsible, but he doesn’t get how hard it is to manage twins.”
He put out his cigarette and blew the smoke to the side. “He’s just bein’ a dad, Shayne. We’re always hard on our sons.”
My aunt
It made me sad to think back when that all happened. I felt so alone, having him push me away because he couldn’t deal with it. Things got really bad for me after that. Not only had I lost my boyfriend, but I didn’t really hang out with the best people. I smoked a lot of marijuana and drank until I couldn’t feel my emotions anymore. I was lost and wanted to drown my pain however I could. Ford knew it and that’s probably why he stayed away. I know that deep down inside he blames me for her death. I blame myself sometimes too. Indirectly, I suppose it was partly my fault. I never should have talked her into going to that party, and I certainly shouldn’t have coaxed her to drink. Ford and I were on the rocks, being that he was going to school so far away. The whole whirlwind of my life changed everything. In one moment I lost my first love and the family that I’d always considered my own.
It took Shayne a while to reach out to me, but after he rescued me one night at the beach, from a terrible situation, I started doing all of my partying at his place.
He probably felt sorry for my demise. In a way, I wanted the attention. I wanted anything that would make the pain go away.
After failed counseling sessions and a dozen antidepressants , I was left feeling even more lost. I’d pretty much reached rock bottom when I saw Ford with Sky for the first time. I’d been messaging him, but always knew he didn’t want to hang out.
After that night, I fled back to the beach and ended up sleeping with Shayne and Peyton’s brother.
It was such a mistake. I regretted it even while it was happening. I’d stooped so low and prepared myself for that life ending blow to my humanity.
To protect his brother, Shayne buried the event, promising to never speak of it. A few pregnancy tests later and all of that went to shit.
The rest is part of the story that brought us together. Though it was a horrible way to fall in love, it had happened. I owed him so much, especially the way I’d handled Ford, and my pregnancy.
I’d cost them their friendship. It was all my fault.
“Peyton, nobody wants to see Ford and Shayne reconcile more than me. I’m afraid it’s goin’ to take a little more than Sky’s best friend bein’ nice to me for that to happen.”
“It’s still a start. They can’t fight like this forever. So what if you slept with Shayne. You and Ford weren’t together, right?”
She didn’t have a clue.
I nodded, unable to admit anything out loud. I was sick of lying.
With two little ones and a new relationship to worry about, I needed to focus on the future and no longer the past.
“Well, Lacey said the twins are super cute. I think she’s tryin’ real hard to be your friend.”
Thankfully, Eli woke up and started screaming from the top of his healthy lungs. It was enough to wake his sister and cause Peyton to have to help me out.
I appreciated the interruption, but knew it wouldn’t be the last time she tried to talk about it. At some point I was going to have to do something to get the family off my back, which pretty much meant that I needed to figure out how to make Ford forgive Shayne.
Chapter 9
Shayne
My uncle was in his office when I arrived. He had a cigarette in his mouth and was telling my aunt to start making the coffee.
I walked right in and sat down in front of him. “What’s goin’ on nephew? You fightin’ with your dad again?”
“When am I not? He can’t get off my ass. I’m tired of hearin’ his shit. Now he’s all about me bein’ responsible, but he doesn’t get how hard it is to manage twins.”
He put out his cigarette and blew the smoke to the side. “He’s just bein’ a dad, Shayne. We’re always hard on our sons.”
My aunt
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