alone, but I couldn’t live with myself if someone called when my phone was dead. I could hear Faith working in the kitchen, and I dragged myself in there, phone in hand.
She was kneading dough on the counter, unaware of me for a second before looking up. “Need something, dear?”
I nodded and held up my phone. “You don’t happen to have a charger, do you?”
It was painful to see just how much she looked like my mother. They wore their hair the same way, and neither gave the impression they were an ol’ lady. So familiar, so different. I kept feeling close to Faith and having to pull myself back. Everything was still slow up in the air. Everything was still so dangerous.
She nodded and clapped some flour from her hands. “iPhone? Yeah, I’ve got one over here on the end table.” I followed her until I saw the white cable. “You can take it into the guest room, if you want.”
Sitting alone with my thoughts was no good. I had to be the strong person that Romero and Raven saw. I knew she was in there, I just had to drag her out. I plug the phone in and turned to Faith. “No, I think I could use the company.”
“Now you’re getting it. Even when our men leave, we’re not alone.”
The screen lit up as my phone came back to life. I dropped into a stool across from Faith. She smiled at me and went back to kneading the dough. “Fresh bread for the morning,” she said with an infectious smile.
My heart leapt to life when I heard the throaty sound of approaching motorcycle. Dusk has settled over Faith and Bear’s home, and the two of us were lounging in the low deck chairs beside one another. I sat up, my mind racing at the possibilities. Half of them good, half of them tragic.
Faith pulled me back to reality. “I hate to burst your bubble, but it’s Raven. I figured we could have a bit of a girls’ night.”
Of all the things running through my mind, a girls’ night was not one of the things I’d thought of. “How do you stand this? How do you stay so cool?”
Faith let out a chuckle. “Honey, I’ve lost track of how many times I’ve watched Bear ride off. I mean, shit, I watched him get carted off to prison for five years. Now that was hard. I sat by his bedside day after day wondering if he would come back out of that coma; praying that he would. I don’t know, maybe I’ve just come to grips with things.”
“Like if he didn’t come back, you’d be okay?” I didn’t really get what she was saying. I knew Faith was talking with the wisdom of age and experience, but it was all flying over my head.
“Oh, God, no. I’ll never come to grips with that. I guess after years and years, I’m just very Zen about the whole thing.” She looked over at me, a very complex smile on her face. It wasn’t what I’d call a truly happy smile. “This is my life. This is the only one I’ve got, and I’m going to live it to its fullest. I know damn sure that Bear does the exact same thing.”
The squeak of the gate came from behind me, and I turned to see Raven made her way into the backyard. The shades and Rising Sons cut had been left at home. Despite coming on her Harley, she wore a simple T-shirt and jeans. I could see the very hint of a baby bump, and I wondered just how much longer she’d stay on the bike.
Faith didn’t turn around. “Welcome, welcome. Grab a chair and join us for this beautiful evening.”
Raven didn’t seem like the type to admire beautiful sunsets. I’m sure she was still fuming about missing the battle up north. I smiled at her as she dragged another chair into the grass beside me.
“No news yet.” She said it very matter-of-factly like it was nothing terribly important. She could’ve been talking about some new park being built, not life and death. I had to keep reminding myself that they lived this life day in and day out. I had only experienced the life on the fringe.
I held up my phone. “Silence on my end, too.”
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