was the best Lauren sheâs known in the twenty years sheâs known her. The Lauren with Gabe smiled, and laughed, and was never in any hurry, and always seemed so satisfied to be doing whatever she was doing. The Lauren with Gabe was a beat slower, almost like she was stonedâperhaps she was stoned, come to think of it. But he had a way of looking at her and Lauren had a way of being looked at byhim: Sarah liked it. She liked him. Lauren pretends now that the whole thing meant less than it did, but Sarah is not fooled by this. She wants Lauren to be happy, and she wants her to be happy for her. She wants them to be happy at the same time.
The blocks are long. She prefers to walk on quieter ones, away from the avenues, away from the buses. A nanny on a cell phone pushes a stroller past, the baby sound asleep. An old woman with terrible posture is waiting on the corner, an envelope in her hands. A man unloads a van, shouting companionably at a man from the corner grocery to which he is delivering whatever it is he has in those cardboard boxes. Thereâs a siren, somewhere, and a car alarm, and a helicopter, and a jackhammer, and from somewhere, some music she can only barely hear. She steps around a puddle. She stops to wait for the light.
Getting things done makes Sarah so happy. Sheâs accomplished a lot: meeting with Carol, lunch with Fiona, picking up some sweaters, and now, stopping to see her mom. Sheâs solved what to do about the wedding bands and still has time this afternoon to send more e-mails, figure out what to do about dinner, maybe surprise Dan with mushroom risotto, the only thing she truly knows how to cook. A specialty of sorts. Just reviewing this list, these to-dos and dones, her pace quickens; she feels lighter, she feels smarter, she feels in control, she feels alive. She thinks about Dan, in his suit, in his office, somewhere blocks from where she is now, and smiles. Sheâll call him in a bit, when she leaves her parentsâ place.
A section of the street on this block is cordoned off with yellow tape. Some men are milling about, repairing or rejiggering something, itâs not clear what. Theyâre from the gas company,she can tell by their uniforms. It takes a million people to make life run the way it should run. Everyone has their own part to play in it. This is what she loves about being in the city, living in the cityâseeing this all unfold around her. She likes to know the part she plays in the whole system, in the whole universe.
Her parentsâ house is just here, on the left. Sarah climbs the steps, her keys are already out and in her hand, one of those actions your body performs before your brain even asks it to. She unlocks the door, gives it a shove, itâs a heavy door, prone to sticking. The door falls shut behind her, and the sounds, the alarm, the helicopter, the siren, the bus, they vanish. The house is quiet, though not silent. Footsteps from above.
âMy darling.â Her mother walks down the steps, head held like a queenâs, smiling. She has been expecting her. Thereâs a lot to be done.
Chapter 5
H is name is Rob. Lauren figures it out pretty quicklyâthe office isnât big, sheâs not an idiotâbut she pretends, still, that sheâs not a hundred percent clear on who he is when Antonia mentions him.
âYou could ask Rob to pitch in on this one,â Antonia says, helpfully, sheâs always very helpful. Sheâs not the boss, so sheâs careful to never sound too bossy. Women learn this at an early age.
âRob?â Lauren makes a face thatâs vaguely unpleasant, a little confused, like Antonia has lapsed into a foreign tongue.
âThe temp,â Antonia says. âHe should have some time. And heâs got a lot of writing experience, so it shouldnât take him long. You should divide the list and then edit each other, donât you think?â Phrasing it as a question
Annalisa Nicole
P.A. Jones
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William Lashner
Sharan Newman
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David Grace
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