happy to keep some of my everyday things here, a s long as you’re not worried that it will scare off your lady friends . When we went into this I gave you free reign to be with anyone else because I know that I’ll have to give more of my time and attention to Matt and I don’t want you to get lonely. So I’ll do whatever you want , ” I said, trying to sound cheerful about the whole thing when my insides were in turmoil , but I flinched at the hurt that I saw in his eyes.
“What? What’s wrong, Carlos?” I whispered.
“Do you really believe that I could ever be with anyone else now? Do you want me to be?” he whispered. I sat up, pulled Matt’s t-shirt back on and walked over to the window. He pulled on his sweats and came up behind me, wrapping his arms around my waist and nuzzling into my neck. “Well, do you?”
“I can’t answer that without sounding selfish, Carlos. Please don’t ask me that.”
He turned me around and forced me to look into his eyes, “Be selfish, Sarah. It’s okay. You give both of us everything we need. Neither of us could ever ask for more.”
“You don’t want someone who can be here all the time? Someone who can sleep here every night? Someone you can have whenever you want them? Someone you can love always?” I whispered.
“Me? Mr. attention deficit disorder .? Mr. Boredom? You’re kidding me, right? This arrangement is perfect for me. And I do love you always.”
“But that’s why it’s okay for you to be with others , because I don’t want you to get bored with me .”
“Is it? Is it really okay, Sarah? Are you really okay with it?”
“ Honestly? N o I’m not , but that’s selfish of me. I’m with someone else, so I can’t very well ask you not to be, can I?”
“No, but you’re not asking, are you? I’m choosing this on my own. Right now, you more than give me everything I need. Everything I could ever want. More than I’ve ever had. Since the three of us made th e decision to do this , my needs, sexually, have more than been met. I’ve never felt more satisfied in my life. Me , Mr. pervert, has finally found his sexual equal , I didn’t think that was ever possible . Why would I want to be with anyone else when I have this? ’ ”
“Are you sure? You don’t have to do this.”
“I know I don’t have to, Sarah. I want to. That’s why it feels right. And, yes, I’m sure. I haven‘t even looked at another woman since you and I, well, since the first time we got freaky , in the limo.”
I raised my eyebrow , smiled at him and then threw my head back and laughed , “You? Haven’t looked at another woman? No way, darlin . Not possible. Not unless the sky is falling,” I looked out the window, “and it looks to me like it’s staying put.”
He grinned a mischievous grin, “Okay. Well, maybe I’ve looked. At a few. But I didn’t touch. And I most definitely didn’t want,” then he grinned his goofy Carlos grin and kissed me on the cheek.
“Don’t ever stop making me smile,” I laughed.
“You guys awake and decent?” Matt called from the other room.
“Yes, honey,” I called as I reached up and ran my fingers through my hair to smooth it down and make it look less like ‘just fucked’ hair . “We’re in here watching the sunrise.”
He hesitantly poked his head in the door then walked over to me when I held my hand out to him. “You stole my shirt,” he said into my neck as he kissed it.
“Had to. Bad night. This was the closest thing I could find.”
“Hunger? Carlos helped? He had some blood ready for you?”
“Yeah. But you knew he would, didn’t you?”
He nodded.
“And now Carlos was just giving me an IQ test, but I passed.” I said as I smiled at the confused look on both of their faces.
“An IQ test? What do you mean?” Matt said.
“Yeah, I’d like to hear this too,” Carlos
“What? What’s wrong, Carlos?” I whispered.
“Do you really believe that I could ever be with anyone else now? Do you want me to be?” he whispered. I sat up, pulled Matt’s t-shirt back on and walked over to the window. He pulled on his sweats and came up behind me, wrapping his arms around my waist and nuzzling into my neck. “Well, do you?”
“I can’t answer that without sounding selfish, Carlos. Please don’t ask me that.”
He turned me around and forced me to look into his eyes, “Be selfish, Sarah. It’s okay. You give both of us everything we need. Neither of us could ever ask for more.”
“You don’t want someone who can be here all the time? Someone who can sleep here every night? Someone you can have whenever you want them? Someone you can love always?” I whispered.
“Me? Mr. attention deficit disorder .? Mr. Boredom? You’re kidding me, right? This arrangement is perfect for me. And I do love you always.”
“But that’s why it’s okay for you to be with others , because I don’t want you to get bored with me .”
“Is it? Is it really okay, Sarah? Are you really okay with it?”
“ Honestly? N o I’m not , but that’s selfish of me. I’m with someone else, so I can’t very well ask you not to be, can I?”
“No, but you’re not asking, are you? I’m choosing this on my own. Right now, you more than give me everything I need. Everything I could ever want. More than I’ve ever had. Since the three of us made th e decision to do this , my needs, sexually, have more than been met. I’ve never felt more satisfied in my life. Me , Mr. pervert, has finally found his sexual equal , I didn’t think that was ever possible . Why would I want to be with anyone else when I have this? ’ ”
“Are you sure? You don’t have to do this.”
“I know I don’t have to, Sarah. I want to. That’s why it feels right. And, yes, I’m sure. I haven‘t even looked at another woman since you and I, well, since the first time we got freaky , in the limo.”
I raised my eyebrow , smiled at him and then threw my head back and laughed , “You? Haven’t looked at another woman? No way, darlin . Not possible. Not unless the sky is falling,” I looked out the window, “and it looks to me like it’s staying put.”
He grinned a mischievous grin, “Okay. Well, maybe I’ve looked. At a few. But I didn’t touch. And I most definitely didn’t want,” then he grinned his goofy Carlos grin and kissed me on the cheek.
“Don’t ever stop making me smile,” I laughed.
“You guys awake and decent?” Matt called from the other room.
“Yes, honey,” I called as I reached up and ran my fingers through my hair to smooth it down and make it look less like ‘just fucked’ hair . “We’re in here watching the sunrise.”
He hesitantly poked his head in the door then walked over to me when I held my hand out to him. “You stole my shirt,” he said into my neck as he kissed it.
“Had to. Bad night. This was the closest thing I could find.”
“Hunger? Carlos helped? He had some blood ready for you?”
“Yeah. But you knew he would, didn’t you?”
He nodded.
“And now Carlos was just giving me an IQ test, but I passed.” I said as I smiled at the confused look on both of their faces.
“An IQ test? What do you mean?” Matt said.
“Yeah, I’d like to hear this too,” Carlos
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