parents. She looked out her window, distant and withdrawn. None of us spoke for several miles, and I looked out my window at the rapidly darkening landscape, the rolling hills, the old farms, the snow clinging to everything. With a start I realized that Bree had taken her old route toward home and that we were in Cal’s neighborhood. My heart sped up as we drew closer to the large stone house he had shared with his mother. I hadn’t been past here since the night I’d almost died in the pool house, and my skin broke out in a clammy sweat at the memory.
“I’m sorry,” Bree murmured as she realized where we were.
I swallowed and didn’t say anything, my hand clenching the door handle tightly, my breathing fast and shallow. Relax, I told myself. Relax. They’re gone. They’re nowhere around. Hunter looks for them—scries for them every day—and he hasn’t found them. They’re gone. They won’t hurt you.
As we passed, my eyes were irresistibly drawn to the house. It looked dark, abandoned, forbidding. I recalled the first floor, with its large kitchen, the huge living room with a fireplace where Cal and I had kissed on the sofa. Selene’s hidden, spelled private library that I had found, where I had discovered Maeve’s Book of Shadows. Cal’s room that ran the length of the attic. His wide, low bed where we had kissed and touched each other. The pool house, where he had trapped me and tried to burn me to death . . .
I felt like I was choking and swallowed again, unable to move my eyes away. Then I stared hard as a flickering light, as if from a candle, passed in front of a dark window. Just one moment and it was gone, but I was sure I had seen it. Wildly I looked over at Bree for her reaction, but her eyes were on the road, her hands poised on the leather steering wheel. In the backseat Mary K. gazed out her window, unhappiness making her face seem younger, rounder.
“Did you—” I started to ask. I stopped. Was I sure I had seen it? I thought so. But what was the point of mentioning it? Mary K. would be upset and worried. Bree wouldn’t know what to do, either. If only Hunter was here, I thought, and then grimaced as I realized what would be set in action if Hunter had seen it: a full-blown investigation, worry, trouble, fear.
And had I really seen it? A flickering candle in an abandoned house, at night, for just a moment? I leaned my head against the cold car window, my heart aching. Was this ordeal never going to be over? Would I ever relax again?
“Did we what?” Bree asked, glancing at me.
“Nothing,” I mumbled. Surely it had been my imagination. Cal and Selene were gone. “Never mind.”
6
The Lueg
March 18, 1971
At the age of twenty-seven, I have completed the Great Trial. It was four days ago, and I am only now able to hold a pen and sit up to write. Clyda thought I was ready, and I was so eager to do it that I didn’t listen to the people who warned me not to.
The Great Trial. I have wondered how to describe it, and when my words get close, I want to cry. Twenty-seven is young—many people are never ready. Most people, when they do it, are older, have been preparing for years. But I insisted I was ready, and in the end Clyda agreed.
It took place on top of Windy Tor, past the Old Stones left by the Druids. Below me I could hear the waves crashing against rocks in a timeless rhythm. There was no moon, and it was as black as the end of the world. With me were Clyda and another Welsh witch, Scott Mattox. I was naked, sky clad, and we cast the circle and started the rite. At midnight Clyda held out the goblet. I stared at it, knowing I was scared. It was the Wine of Shadows: where she had gotten it, I don’t know. If I passed the Great Trial, I would live. If I didn’t pass, this wine would kill me. I took the goblet with a shaking hand and drank it.
Clyda and Scott sat nearby, staying to keep me from going over the edge of the cliff. I sat down, my lips numb,
“I’m sorry,” Bree murmured as she realized where we were.
I swallowed and didn’t say anything, my hand clenching the door handle tightly, my breathing fast and shallow. Relax, I told myself. Relax. They’re gone. They’re nowhere around. Hunter looks for them—scries for them every day—and he hasn’t found them. They’re gone. They won’t hurt you.
As we passed, my eyes were irresistibly drawn to the house. It looked dark, abandoned, forbidding. I recalled the first floor, with its large kitchen, the huge living room with a fireplace where Cal and I had kissed on the sofa. Selene’s hidden, spelled private library that I had found, where I had discovered Maeve’s Book of Shadows. Cal’s room that ran the length of the attic. His wide, low bed where we had kissed and touched each other. The pool house, where he had trapped me and tried to burn me to death . . .
I felt like I was choking and swallowed again, unable to move my eyes away. Then I stared hard as a flickering light, as if from a candle, passed in front of a dark window. Just one moment and it was gone, but I was sure I had seen it. Wildly I looked over at Bree for her reaction, but her eyes were on the road, her hands poised on the leather steering wheel. In the backseat Mary K. gazed out her window, unhappiness making her face seem younger, rounder.
“Did you—” I started to ask. I stopped. Was I sure I had seen it? I thought so. But what was the point of mentioning it? Mary K. would be upset and worried. Bree wouldn’t know what to do, either. If only Hunter was here, I thought, and then grimaced as I realized what would be set in action if Hunter had seen it: a full-blown investigation, worry, trouble, fear.
And had I really seen it? A flickering candle in an abandoned house, at night, for just a moment? I leaned my head against the cold car window, my heart aching. Was this ordeal never going to be over? Would I ever relax again?
“Did we what?” Bree asked, glancing at me.
“Nothing,” I mumbled. Surely it had been my imagination. Cal and Selene were gone. “Never mind.”
6
The Lueg
March 18, 1971
At the age of twenty-seven, I have completed the Great Trial. It was four days ago, and I am only now able to hold a pen and sit up to write. Clyda thought I was ready, and I was so eager to do it that I didn’t listen to the people who warned me not to.
The Great Trial. I have wondered how to describe it, and when my words get close, I want to cry. Twenty-seven is young—many people are never ready. Most people, when they do it, are older, have been preparing for years. But I insisted I was ready, and in the end Clyda agreed.
It took place on top of Windy Tor, past the Old Stones left by the Druids. Below me I could hear the waves crashing against rocks in a timeless rhythm. There was no moon, and it was as black as the end of the world. With me were Clyda and another Welsh witch, Scott Mattox. I was naked, sky clad, and we cast the circle and started the rite. At midnight Clyda held out the goblet. I stared at it, knowing I was scared. It was the Wine of Shadows: where she had gotten it, I don’t know. If I passed the Great Trial, I would live. If I didn’t pass, this wine would kill me. I took the goblet with a shaking hand and drank it.
Clyda and Scott sat nearby, staying to keep me from going over the edge of the cliff. I sat down, my lips numb,
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