much more should be happening,” I growled as I bit her neck lightly. “Tell me you don’t want me. Tell me you haven’t been feeling this every moment we have been together. Tell me and mean it and I’ll stop,” I said looking down at her holding her eyes.
She ran her hands up and down my bare chest stopping to toy with my nipples. Her eyes followed her hands the whole time, before lifting her eyes to meet mine. “I want it, believe me I do, but you’re a client. We’ve already pushed way past the line here.”
“Can’t you forget for a minute that I’m a client? Can’t you just look at me and see me, not a job?”
Hoping just for once that someone will see the man hidden behind all the roles and problems. Something told me that Vicky was that woman, but as her legs loosened from around my waist and fell to the bed my heart dropped. I couldn’t keep the disappointment or hurt from my face.
Climbing off her, I pointed to the bags. “I got you clothes for the event today. There are some hair dressers coming soon that will help you finish getting ready. I don’t want to embarrass you tonight so I went all out for this event. At least for a few hours, I’ll be worth it.” I gave her one last look and apologized before walking toward the door. “Oh I left my stash on your stand. Get rid of it please.”
I headed to my office and shut the door. This was the first time since I got into acting that I’ve felt worthless. For whatever reason, her rejection and inability to see me caused my chest to clench tightly and I was lost for breath. When I was with her, I didn’t have any urges to get high because I already was. She gave me the same feelings that I had with the drugs only better. More importantly when I’m with her, the voices weren’t beating me up from the inside out.
But no matter how much I improve, no matter how much of my life I regained control of, I’ll never be worthy enough for Vicky. She deserved better than anything I can offer her and she knew it. For the next forty-five days, she’s mine. The thought made me smile. For forty-five days, I’ll live it up because Lord knew after spending all that time with her I’ll never be the same again.
Chapter Seven
Vicky
Watching the light leave Jacob’s eyes tore me in two. The man under all his troubles was no doubt a terrific man. I’ve met his family, so I’ve seen the proof. His sisters looked up to him. Eli seemed to lean on him too. He was at the impromptu wedding for a little while before leaving. Jake said he was sick, but honestly he looked good to me other than being a bit pale. He talked to me for a few minutes before his phone rang and he was saying goodbye to everyone.
With Jacob, I felt things I’ve never felt before. Most men caused me to panic when they get that close, but not him. In fact, I crave his closeness. I longed for it. That scared me. The fact that if he would have pushed just one more time I would have caved scared me to death. It wasn’t the whole client thing really, but more that I gave up the thought of being in a relationship a long time ago.
Just as I climbed off the bed, there was a knock at the door. Opening the door, I expected to find Jacob standing there, but instead it was two blonde women carrying several bags. They barge in past me as I stand there completely confused.
“So you are Vicky, no? Jakey has talked a lot about you. He did not lie though. You are a beautiful woman. Such a shame you don’t claim it better.”
“Um, who are you?” I said still standing at the door with my hand on the handle.
“We are your stylists for da benefit today. Now we got a lot to do so let’s get started,” the other blonde said, shutting the door and pulling me over to a vanity.
I watched through the mirror as they start unloading several of the items. Blonde two looks at me and back to blonde one before addressing me again.
“Take this,” she tosses me a robe. “Go shower
She ran her hands up and down my bare chest stopping to toy with my nipples. Her eyes followed her hands the whole time, before lifting her eyes to meet mine. “I want it, believe me I do, but you’re a client. We’ve already pushed way past the line here.”
“Can’t you forget for a minute that I’m a client? Can’t you just look at me and see me, not a job?”
Hoping just for once that someone will see the man hidden behind all the roles and problems. Something told me that Vicky was that woman, but as her legs loosened from around my waist and fell to the bed my heart dropped. I couldn’t keep the disappointment or hurt from my face.
Climbing off her, I pointed to the bags. “I got you clothes for the event today. There are some hair dressers coming soon that will help you finish getting ready. I don’t want to embarrass you tonight so I went all out for this event. At least for a few hours, I’ll be worth it.” I gave her one last look and apologized before walking toward the door. “Oh I left my stash on your stand. Get rid of it please.”
I headed to my office and shut the door. This was the first time since I got into acting that I’ve felt worthless. For whatever reason, her rejection and inability to see me caused my chest to clench tightly and I was lost for breath. When I was with her, I didn’t have any urges to get high because I already was. She gave me the same feelings that I had with the drugs only better. More importantly when I’m with her, the voices weren’t beating me up from the inside out.
But no matter how much I improve, no matter how much of my life I regained control of, I’ll never be worthy enough for Vicky. She deserved better than anything I can offer her and she knew it. For the next forty-five days, she’s mine. The thought made me smile. For forty-five days, I’ll live it up because Lord knew after spending all that time with her I’ll never be the same again.
Chapter Seven
Vicky
Watching the light leave Jacob’s eyes tore me in two. The man under all his troubles was no doubt a terrific man. I’ve met his family, so I’ve seen the proof. His sisters looked up to him. Eli seemed to lean on him too. He was at the impromptu wedding for a little while before leaving. Jake said he was sick, but honestly he looked good to me other than being a bit pale. He talked to me for a few minutes before his phone rang and he was saying goodbye to everyone.
With Jacob, I felt things I’ve never felt before. Most men caused me to panic when they get that close, but not him. In fact, I crave his closeness. I longed for it. That scared me. The fact that if he would have pushed just one more time I would have caved scared me to death. It wasn’t the whole client thing really, but more that I gave up the thought of being in a relationship a long time ago.
Just as I climbed off the bed, there was a knock at the door. Opening the door, I expected to find Jacob standing there, but instead it was two blonde women carrying several bags. They barge in past me as I stand there completely confused.
“So you are Vicky, no? Jakey has talked a lot about you. He did not lie though. You are a beautiful woman. Such a shame you don’t claim it better.”
“Um, who are you?” I said still standing at the door with my hand on the handle.
“We are your stylists for da benefit today. Now we got a lot to do so let’s get started,” the other blonde said, shutting the door and pulling me over to a vanity.
I watched through the mirror as they start unloading several of the items. Blonde two looks at me and back to blonde one before addressing me again.
“Take this,” she tosses me a robe. “Go shower
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