million boyfriends in no time. Well, you may not hear from me for a while. I really have to concentrate on my life for a while now. You have fun getting to know your family.
Ciao, mom
Crumpling the letter up in my hand so hard that my knuckles were white I stared at the wall in utter shock. Unaware of the tears rolling down my cheeks I limped out of the door as fast as I could at the moment. I had to get out of this house. I barely touched the steps as I slid down most of them on my butt stumbling down the rest. Barreling through the kitchen crying, and looking like a lunatic I caught aunt Julia and Gavin discussing something quietly. I knew the flames of fire were nipping at my eyes at that point. “Did both of you know?” I asked coming out more in a shriek, the tears falling faster down my face. “Did you know when I got here that I was going to be abandoned? Answer me!” Julia stood with tears in her eyes and Gavin shifted his gaze to the floor, giving me my answer. “Forget it. It doesn’t matter anyway. I’m not staying.” Plowing through the middle of them and out the door. I wasn’t sure where I was going, so I just headed towards the creek. For some reason the peacefulness of the place made me feel closer to dad there. Tripping and falling through the pasture, I came to tall grass and my ankle was screaming at me to stop. I however, did not listen and finally made it to the creek, falling to my knees in exhaustion. The letter still clutched tightly in my hands. All the tears I had been so desperately trying to hold at bay came out. Crying for the father who loved me, crying for the mother who never really wanted me in the first place. Crying for the home I miss so badly, and for the past I’ll never get back.
Chapter Five: Another Loss
“Back at the house, Julia grabbed Gavin’s arm. “Gavin she is coming back. She was just upset. Maybe you should give her a couple of minutes.”
Gavin looked down at his feet with anger and hurt in his eyes. But, most of all guilt for knowing the truth, and not saying a word to her.
“Sweetie? You really care for her don’t you?”
“I don’t know. I haven’t known her all that long. The only thing I do know is when I found out that I was adopted, I would have given anything just to have someone sitting there with me. I don’t want to leave her feeling abandoned. Luckily, I was wrong. I did have people who cared about me, even when I was mad, and hard to love. Deep down I knew you loved me. But, who does Madison have?”
When her son looked back up she could see it in his eyes. Confusion, anger, hurt and love. Even if he didn’t know it yet, she certainly did. Any woman who has ever been loved knows that look. “Alright sweetie. Go see if she is alright.” Beaming with pride for her son.
That was all he needed to hear. Not that he would have listened if she had said no. Running out of the house, he didn’t have to think about it. He knew where she would be. Making his way towards the creek he saw her blond hair falling down around her knees as she sobbed and shook uncontrollably. Stepping up to her he bent down beside her wrapping his arms around her.
“Get off me!” I shrieked with tears blurring my vision.
Letting his hands fall to his sides he sat beside her, trying not to take to much of a blow to his ego.
“You knew, and you didn’t tell me. I thought you were my friend. I thought you cared about me. The few times I did talk about leaving, you knew.” I said sobbing. Looking at Gavin, I could see the hurt in his eyes and it made me feel like a fool for yelling at him. I knew in my heart he never meant to hurt me but, at the moment I was to mad to forgive him.
“I’m sorry babe. I didn’t want to see you sad. Especially, so soon after losing your dad.”
“Don’t do that. Don’t speak of my father. You know nothing of him, or me!”
Looking down, he could see she was clutching the letter and it made his heart ache
Ciao, mom
Crumpling the letter up in my hand so hard that my knuckles were white I stared at the wall in utter shock. Unaware of the tears rolling down my cheeks I limped out of the door as fast as I could at the moment. I had to get out of this house. I barely touched the steps as I slid down most of them on my butt stumbling down the rest. Barreling through the kitchen crying, and looking like a lunatic I caught aunt Julia and Gavin discussing something quietly. I knew the flames of fire were nipping at my eyes at that point. “Did both of you know?” I asked coming out more in a shriek, the tears falling faster down my face. “Did you know when I got here that I was going to be abandoned? Answer me!” Julia stood with tears in her eyes and Gavin shifted his gaze to the floor, giving me my answer. “Forget it. It doesn’t matter anyway. I’m not staying.” Plowing through the middle of them and out the door. I wasn’t sure where I was going, so I just headed towards the creek. For some reason the peacefulness of the place made me feel closer to dad there. Tripping and falling through the pasture, I came to tall grass and my ankle was screaming at me to stop. I however, did not listen and finally made it to the creek, falling to my knees in exhaustion. The letter still clutched tightly in my hands. All the tears I had been so desperately trying to hold at bay came out. Crying for the father who loved me, crying for the mother who never really wanted me in the first place. Crying for the home I miss so badly, and for the past I’ll never get back.
Chapter Five: Another Loss
“Back at the house, Julia grabbed Gavin’s arm. “Gavin she is coming back. She was just upset. Maybe you should give her a couple of minutes.”
Gavin looked down at his feet with anger and hurt in his eyes. But, most of all guilt for knowing the truth, and not saying a word to her.
“Sweetie? You really care for her don’t you?”
“I don’t know. I haven’t known her all that long. The only thing I do know is when I found out that I was adopted, I would have given anything just to have someone sitting there with me. I don’t want to leave her feeling abandoned. Luckily, I was wrong. I did have people who cared about me, even when I was mad, and hard to love. Deep down I knew you loved me. But, who does Madison have?”
When her son looked back up she could see it in his eyes. Confusion, anger, hurt and love. Even if he didn’t know it yet, she certainly did. Any woman who has ever been loved knows that look. “Alright sweetie. Go see if she is alright.” Beaming with pride for her son.
That was all he needed to hear. Not that he would have listened if she had said no. Running out of the house, he didn’t have to think about it. He knew where she would be. Making his way towards the creek he saw her blond hair falling down around her knees as she sobbed and shook uncontrollably. Stepping up to her he bent down beside her wrapping his arms around her.
“Get off me!” I shrieked with tears blurring my vision.
Letting his hands fall to his sides he sat beside her, trying not to take to much of a blow to his ego.
“You knew, and you didn’t tell me. I thought you were my friend. I thought you cared about me. The few times I did talk about leaving, you knew.” I said sobbing. Looking at Gavin, I could see the hurt in his eyes and it made me feel like a fool for yelling at him. I knew in my heart he never meant to hurt me but, at the moment I was to mad to forgive him.
“I’m sorry babe. I didn’t want to see you sad. Especially, so soon after losing your dad.”
“Don’t do that. Don’t speak of my father. You know nothing of him, or me!”
Looking down, he could see she was clutching the letter and it made his heart ache
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