wife by some unchristian foreigner? Here again he found himself, in an obscure way, more angry because the act had offended against the laws of hospitality rather than because his personal love was deeply wounded. He discovered with a shock that he himself had disposed with sex as a problem some long time since. Its only relation to himself now seemed as a subject for conversation with lady novelists. Perhaps this was because he had achieved a certain amount of âintellectual detachmentââas he was pleased to call it. Corézeâs behaviour, he thought firmly, was unpardonable in a host. Things like that were not done in England. Or were they?
The little pile of white saucers rapidly grew on the table before him. Should he attempt a gesture of some sortâdrink himself to death or ring up Chloe?
Drinks only gave him indigestion or made him sleepy. Besides, his love for Alice was so deeply and comfortably based in habit and interest, that he found it hard to bring to the surface for such boring and idiotic interrogations. He would sulk, and probably grow a moustache. Up to now Alice had always refused to let him grow one because it made his chin look so weak and undershot. He would stop at nothing now.
He looked forward to a mutual retreat and regrouping; something like a monthâs holiday. But an unrepenting and violent Alice appeared suddenly at the hotel, thirsting for drama.
It took all his forbearance to avoid a serious engagement during the first quarter of an hour. Alice piled reproaches upon him for being a bad husband, for taking all the travellersâ cheques with him, and for being too cowardly even to reproach her for what she had done.
To her distracted mind it seemed unbelievable that John should be standing there in front of her exhibiting the merest pique and disapproval; in her own eyes the crime had been enlarging itself until it seemed now to be worth a more distinct response. But no. There he stood, in the middle of this drama, refusing to be drawn in beyond the gentlemanly limits laid down in Kiplingâs âIfâ. That he should be able to sit in front of a pile of saucers, dressed in his pork pie hat, blue diceboard tie, canary-coloured cardigan and grey slacks, seemed to be almost irreverent. She noticed that he even fingered an incipient moustache once or twice in a furtive manner.
They continued to sleep in the same bed, though here again Johnâs caution prevented her from enjoying the scenes of which she fell so much need. He did not even try to make love to her. She had planned a dramatic scene about that. âDonât touch me,â she had decided to say in a strangled voice, âcanât you see what iâve been through?ââ
Worse, however, was in store for them. Alice discovered that she was going to have a baby after all. There was every indication that it would be Corézeâs. The thought gave them both a fright. Even John sat up a bit. As for her, she was filled with violent self-loathing for the trick which her body had played upon her. Meanwhile, John conquered his aristocratic disgust sufficiently to carry his inexperience into the consulting-rooms of shabby gynaecologists in the Boulevard Raspail. An operation was arranged and a very cowed Alice thought desperately that poison was really better than dishonourâbut submitted herself to science in the person of Dr. Magnoun, a jolly little twig of a Frenchman with an Academy rosette in his button-hole and moustache-ends waxed into a guardee stiffness. âVous connaissez, Madame,â he said with a certain roguishness, placing her ankles in the canvas hooks hanging from the ceiling and pulling until she was practically standing on her head. âVous connaissez lépigramme du grand génie Pascal qui dit: âLe coeur a des raisons que la raison ne connait pasâ?â
Alice returned to a little studio overlooking Parc Montsouris which John had taken. She
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