layout of June tenth, next year. He wanted to have that date orientated for us with relation to other recurrent eventsâthe Derby, Ascot, the third reading of the budget, the conference of empire journalists and so forth. Also he provided us with sheets of blank paper, the size of
The Times
, which were to be, so to speak, the screen on which the magic lantern of our prevision cast its picture. He was very careful, almost fussy, about this business. The sheets had nothing printed on them, but they had to be exactly right in size, and he rejected the first lot that Sally provided.
But I cannot say that I paid much attention to these or any other details. I was in a mood of utter obedience, simply doing what I was told to do to the best of my power. I was in the grip of a power which I had no desire to question, and which by some strong magic was breaking down walls for me and giving me a new and marvellous freedom. For there was no doubt about itâI could now set my mind at will racing into the future, and placing before me panoramas which might or might not be true, but which had all the concrete sharpness of reality. There were moments when I seemed almost to feel one sphere of presentation give place to another, as the driver of a car changes gear.
Dinner that nightâSally had sent the professor to bed after teaâ was as lively as the meal of the previous evening had been dullâ lively, that is, for the rest of the party, not for us seven. For we seven suddenly developed a remarkable capacity for making sport for the populace, by a kind of mental light-heartedness, similar to my clumsiness with the trout. Our minds seemed to have jolted out of focus. There is a species of
bêtise
, which I believe at Cambridge is named after some don, and which consists in missing completely the point of a metaphor or a joke, in setting the heavy heel of literalness on some trivial flower of fancy. It is a fault to which the Scots are supposed to be prone, and it is the staple of most of the tales against that nation. The classic instance is Charles Lambâs story of how he was once present at a dinner given in honour of Burns, at which a nephew of the poet was to be present. As the company waited on the arrival of the guest, Lamb remarked that he wished the uncle were coming instead of the nephew: upon which several solemn Scotsmen arose to inform him that that was impossible, because Burns was dead.
That night we seven became unconscious Caledonians. Reggie Daker began it, by asking a ridiculous question about a story of Evelynâs. At first Evelyn looked wrathful, suspecting irony, and then, realizing Reggieâs guilelessness, he turned the laugh against that innocent. The extraordinary thing was that we all did it. Sally was the worst, and Charles Ottery a good second. Even Mayot fell into the trickâMayot, who had a reputation for a quick and caustic wit. George Lamington was talking politics. âA Bengali cabinet in England,â George began, and was interrupted by Mayot with, âBut, hang it, man, thereâs no Bengali cabinet in England!â The fact that I noted our behaviour would seem to prove that I was not so deeply under the spell as the others.
We made sport, as I have said, for the company, and some of them enjoyed the pleasant sense of superiority which comes when people who have a reputation for brains make fools of themselves. Yet the mirth struck me as a little uneasy. There was a sense somewhere that all was not well, that odd things were going on beneath the surface. Pamela Brune, I remember, let her eyes rest on Charles Ottery as she left the room, and in those eyes I read bewilderment, almost pain.
Next morning we began the drug. There were in all three dosesâthe first with morning tea, the second at three in the afternoon, and the third after dinner. For myself I felt no particular effects, but I can testify that that day, the last day of our preparation, my
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