is?â
âWhen they want more lebensraum you really donât have much of a choice. They start to multiply; you feel them pressing against the inside of your skin, and you know you have to start looking for the pressure valve.â
âThe pressure valve?â
âSexâ¦â She laughed, tears glittering in her eyes. âWe donât own our bodies anymore. We canât do what we want with them. The only time they ever let me feel sexual excitement is when Iâm with a straight man. I mean a man whoâs not been maggotized.â
âSo the first time we slept togetherâ¦â
â⦠was incredible. I must have had twenty-five orgasms that night. Maggot orgasms, you knowâsimulated orgasms because your body no longer has the ability to⦠I mean, they just send the impulses up to the brain. I even had an orgasm when I came out to speak with you the first time. Thatâs why all I could think of to say was that silly thing about ice cream. Who cares about stupid orgasms, anyway? Iâm tired of them, personally.â âSo itâs just procreation for them?â
Ariel laughed. âYes. For them. Go forth and multiply. That old chestnut. They reward sexually aggressive behavior with strangers. That way they find new host bodies.â Her face clouded over. âBut they take away a womanâs ability to have a child. They rob her of that. Not maliciously. They donât think; they donât do it on purpose. But all the most evil things are senseless mechanisms. A snake, the way it lashes out and bites you without even thinking about it. A tsunami. Are these things evil? I would say they are. Probably even maggots are evil.â
Michael sat up in shock, the realization striking home. âSo when you told me that thing about how good the maggots were it was just bullshit!â
âAch,â she said, âyou were ripe for the taking. Anyway, you had a tumor, you were seriously ill.â She met his accusing stare. âMichael, if I apologized to you now it would be an empty gesture. I knew what I was doing when I picked you up. Iâd probably do it again if I had to. I found myself a Provençal backwater, a village full of repressed, sad fuckers with generations of stupefied lunatics behind them. Moldering scar tissue in their attics. I put on my best dress and I walked fresh as a daisy through the village square until some dolt of a peasant came sniffing at me. By that I mean you , of course. I have to admit you were more sophisticated than most peasants Iâve had. Men who pick you flowers in a ditch and come to you with dried sweat in their armpits. With callused, dirty hands⦠smelling of shit, red wine, and cheap aftershave. They ask you to marry them as soon as you wake up after the first night of fucking⦠because they want a woman to do the cooking and cleaning, someone they can screw when they come home in the evening.â
He breathed hard, trying to contain his panic. âHow did it first happen? I mean the maggots.â
âIt was this mierda . A German immigrant from the south of Brazil. Tall blond creep. He delivered the gas bottles to my parentsâ hotel. My mother used to talk to him, give him coffee in the kitchen. She liked him, or lusted after him, more like. He had very thick arms covered in hair and his face was always very brown and shiny like mahogany. His chest looked like a tree trunk, his legs like two thinner tree trunks bolted together at the top. And his crotch bulged like a mozzarella cheese hung up to dry. My father was always at work⦠he was a very good worker ant. Convenient for my mother.â
âAriel, is there anything you respect?â
âYes. People who shut up.â She laughed. âYou know, Michael, I actually like you, and thatâs bloody rare. Anyway, I think my mother used to suck him off in the kitchen sometimes.â
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