with the waves crashing against the shore, and he was turning me down. I felt embarrassed and mortified. Shit.
“Why not?” I could barely focus with my sensitive bud pulsating between my legs.
“Our first time together can’t be like this. Not here on this beach like this.” He took a step toward me and placed a finger under my chin, gently raising my eyes to his, a slight smile touching the corner of his mouth. “You deserve better than that.”
The reality of what we were doing there began to sink in and I felt like I was yanked out of a drunken haze. I took a big step away from Lucas as I put my hand over my swollen lips, looking at him as if I was seeing him for the first time. What was I doing? I think I got caught up in the romance of it all and I was not thinking straight. It was a beautifully warm night, we were alone on the beach in an exotic location under the moonlight, and he basically rescued me from harm, so why wouldn’t I just give in to the feelings all of that could cause?
“I should not have let that happen, Lucas. I think I was too caught up in everything that just happened. You’re right, we shouldn’t be doing this.”
“I didn’t say we shouldn’t be doing this, I said we can’t do this here on the beach. We definitely should be doing this Kinsley, it is going to happen.”
I ran my hands through my hair, looked up at him and did my best to be nice about letting him down easy. I felt like I had led him on and that was not my intention. I had no idea my emotions would take over the way they did and I would lose my entire logical thought process. The problem was that is what happened to me when I was around Lucas. I couldn’t make sound decisions because all I wanted to do was be with him. But he was bad news and the situation just would not work. Our parents were getting married in less than two months and there was no way around the fact that we were going to be family. So whatever lust I had churning down in my scared place for him, had to be suppressed. I had to accept that it was not going to happen with us, it just was not possible.
“Look Lucas, there is no way we can do this. Our parents are getting married and aside from the fact that they told us to keep our hands off of each other, it just would not be right. We never should have let things get as far as they did tonight.”
He took a step toward me and I could barely breathe. He gently lifted my chin so that I had to look at him.
“Yes, we should have. Just not here. Look, I can see that you’re a little confused so I will back off for now, but will you please do a favor for me?”
I was afraid of what he was going to ask me because I knew it was going to be hard for me to say no to him again, but I decided to hear him out.
“It depends.”
“Okay, come watch me work out tomorrow.”
The thought of watching him prepare to violently fight another man did not appeal to me. As much as I hated to admit it, I couldn’t wait until the fight was over so I could stop worrying about him.
“Um, no thanks.”
“Kinsley, I really want you to be there. I could tell the first night we met at the restaurant that what I do bothers you, and I want you to see that I know how to protect myself so that I don’t get hurt.”
“Lucas, Sophie loves that world and she has told me how brutal the fights are and how beaten the guys are afterwards. I really don’t want to watch that happen to you.”
A tiny twinkle glimmered in his eye. “So, you care about me.”
I felt my cheeks getting warm and I could have kicked myself for letting that slip out. He was cocky enough and I didn’t want to inflate his ego bigger than it already was. I did my best to change the subject, or at least I thought did.
“Lucas, I wouldn’t want to see anyone getting beat up, it’s just not my thing, so
“Why not?” I could barely focus with my sensitive bud pulsating between my legs.
“Our first time together can’t be like this. Not here on this beach like this.” He took a step toward me and placed a finger under my chin, gently raising my eyes to his, a slight smile touching the corner of his mouth. “You deserve better than that.”
The reality of what we were doing there began to sink in and I felt like I was yanked out of a drunken haze. I took a big step away from Lucas as I put my hand over my swollen lips, looking at him as if I was seeing him for the first time. What was I doing? I think I got caught up in the romance of it all and I was not thinking straight. It was a beautifully warm night, we were alone on the beach in an exotic location under the moonlight, and he basically rescued me from harm, so why wouldn’t I just give in to the feelings all of that could cause?
“I should not have let that happen, Lucas. I think I was too caught up in everything that just happened. You’re right, we shouldn’t be doing this.”
“I didn’t say we shouldn’t be doing this, I said we can’t do this here on the beach. We definitely should be doing this Kinsley, it is going to happen.”
I ran my hands through my hair, looked up at him and did my best to be nice about letting him down easy. I felt like I had led him on and that was not my intention. I had no idea my emotions would take over the way they did and I would lose my entire logical thought process. The problem was that is what happened to me when I was around Lucas. I couldn’t make sound decisions because all I wanted to do was be with him. But he was bad news and the situation just would not work. Our parents were getting married in less than two months and there was no way around the fact that we were going to be family. So whatever lust I had churning down in my scared place for him, had to be suppressed. I had to accept that it was not going to happen with us, it just was not possible.
“Look Lucas, there is no way we can do this. Our parents are getting married and aside from the fact that they told us to keep our hands off of each other, it just would not be right. We never should have let things get as far as they did tonight.”
He took a step toward me and I could barely breathe. He gently lifted my chin so that I had to look at him.
“Yes, we should have. Just not here. Look, I can see that you’re a little confused so I will back off for now, but will you please do a favor for me?”
I was afraid of what he was going to ask me because I knew it was going to be hard for me to say no to him again, but I decided to hear him out.
“It depends.”
“Okay, come watch me work out tomorrow.”
The thought of watching him prepare to violently fight another man did not appeal to me. As much as I hated to admit it, I couldn’t wait until the fight was over so I could stop worrying about him.
“Um, no thanks.”
“Kinsley, I really want you to be there. I could tell the first night we met at the restaurant that what I do bothers you, and I want you to see that I know how to protect myself so that I don’t get hurt.”
“Lucas, Sophie loves that world and she has told me how brutal the fights are and how beaten the guys are afterwards. I really don’t want to watch that happen to you.”
A tiny twinkle glimmered in his eye. “So, you care about me.”
I felt my cheeks getting warm and I could have kicked myself for letting that slip out. He was cocky enough and I didn’t want to inflate his ego bigger than it already was. I did my best to change the subject, or at least I thought did.
“Lucas, I wouldn’t want to see anyone getting beat up, it’s just not my thing, so
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