is a thing of the past.â
âNo. No, it isnât. I like to think I treat women right. And I treated your mother right. It was her greed that made her leave. She was more into material things than the heart.â
I didnât want to say what I was about to say, so I said it gently:
âDamonâs not like Mom, though. Mom left you for another man. She left us.â
Dad turned off the video, and the wall faded into a silver metallic mural.
âDamon left you,â he said, âwhen he went on that foolish mission to wherever he went, if thatâs even where he went. Iâm not so sure.â
âBut why would he lie?â
âEven if he
is
telling the truth, he still left the country, and he left you.â
I stood there a long time, looking at his cluttered desk. My eyes followed the jagged lines of strewn pens, papers, and pictures.
âAnd I never said anything when you were together because I hoped it wouldâve ended up all right, and plus, you were a grown woman, so I figured you wouldnât want my advice. But as a man, looking at another man, I know he didnât treat you right. Heâd go off somewhere for days, weeks at a time, and not tell you where he was. Not answer his phone.â
âI wasnât a babysitter,â I said quietly. âI didnât need to know where he was.â
âIt wouldâve been polite for him to tell you, and you wouldâve told
him
where
you
were. Itâs common courtesy. Didnât he even stand you up a few times? I canât count the angry phone calls I got from you, the hours I spent calming you down. Donât you remember?â
Fire. Thatâs what it felt like. Fiery Irish temper, running through my veins. Though Iâm not sure if I was angrier at my dad or at Damon.
âHe always had an explanation,â I said, trying to save face.
âThey all do,â he said. âAnd that spark I was telling you about, the one youâd had all your life, it started to go away, and it was replaced by a look of pain and confusion. Itâs better now, but I want to see it completely gone. I think the only way to do that is to completely remove him from your life.â
We stood there, with me staring at his desk, with him staring at me. Heâd said a mouthful. I didnât want to think about it. I needed to focus on that jerk Jared Doyle. I needed to focus on what my plan was for guarding Leighâs tonight. IâI just needed to go.
âDo you know if Coltâs home?â I asked, giving Dad a hug. âI think Iâm going to get out of here and run some errands. I want to stop by his place.â
Colt had a punching bag, and I really needed to beat that thing up to release some of this emotion. I didnât have a punching bag at my house because I wanted home to be a peaceful, relaxing place. I didnât want to associate it with my aggressions. Plus, it probably wouldâve freaked Rogue out to see me going Bruce Lee on a hanging bag of sand.
âActually, I just talked to him on the phone,â Dad said, hugging me back. âHe said he was going to work on his car this afternoon.â
âOkay, well, if you wouldnât mind, could you call him and let him know Iâm on my way over?â
âWill do.â
I pulled away from his safe embrace, trying not to think of the things heâd said about me, about Damon, about chivalry and treating people right and being happy. But my mind was swirling with it.
* * *
Every punch and kick had my complete concentration. I homed in on the punching bag, sensing nothing in the room but it, as my gloved fist landed with a muted slam. I focused on my leg and imagined it striking with the force of a ram, and the roundhouse kick jarred the bag to the left. With mind and body connected, I channeled my frustration into energy and released it. Again. And again. And again. My brow began to sweat. It was great.
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