wet!”
“Don’t worry about it. Just get in!” He opens the door for me. “I don’t want you sick, baby.”
Baby? Baby! Am I okay with him calling me baby? He guides me into the seat, slams the door and runs to the driver side. He looks over at me, his hair and shirt soaked, breathing hard, his beautiful blue eyes full of humor.
Oh yes. I’m fine with it.
“Let’s get you home and dry.” He starts the car and pulls out of the parking lot, toward the freeway.
“So, tell me more about yourself.” Luke merges onto the freeway and glances over at me.
“What do you want to know?” I ask.
“Favorite music?”
“Maroon 5,” I respond easily.
“Favorite movie?” he asks with a grin.
“Hmm…we’ve had this conversation.” I laugh. “I still like The Way We Were .”
“Ah yes, you’re a Robert Redford fan.” He kisses my hand, and I sigh.
“I am.”
“First boyfriend?” His eyes turn nervously to mine again, and I freeze. How do I answer this question?
“You know, I don’t do this.” I turn in the seat to face him.
He glances at me, then back at the road. “Do what?”
I shrug, trying to find the words and wondering why I feel the need to explain myself.
“Hey.” He links his fingers with mine and kisses my hand before resting them both in his lap. “What is it?”
“I don’t usually spend much time with men. I don’t make out. I don’t share meals. I don’t spend time playing the twenty questions game. I just…don’t.” This is coming out so wrong!
He gazes at me again, surprised.
“Okay, what do you do with men?” He squirms in his seat, and I think he’s mad.
“I fuck them.” There. It’s out there.
“What?” Oh yeah… I think he’s really mad.
“Luke, I don’t date.” Oh, how do I explain this? I have never wanted to date anyone before. Before him.
“Are you brushing me off?” His voice is incredulous, and he lets go of my hand.
“No!” I close my eyes and shake my head. “Before I met you, I mean. I just don’t want you to think that I’m promiscuous or that I go out with guys into the woods after knowing them for less than two days.”
“But you fuck them,” he snarls.
“Well, I used to.” I turn back in the seat and stare out the windshield. “Before my parents died…”
He grabs my hand again, and I whip my head back to him, surprised.
“Go on.”
“Before they died, when I was in college, I didn’t think much of myself. And, therefore, neither did anyone else. I didn’t date as a choice, Luke. But sex was something I understood. I’ve never wanted to feel anything else for a man.” I swallow hard and close my eyes in shame.
“Did something happen to you to make you feel like that?” His voice is dead calm. Too calm.
“Umm…” I’ve never told anyone this. Except Jules.
“Look, Nat, I feel something here, too, and you can bet your sweet, beautiful ass that I’m going to make love to you tonight. I’m not going to fuck you. So I think it’s pretty important that we’re honest with each other now. No surprises.” His handsome face is so sincere, and sweet.
“Last night you said you wanted to fuck me.”
“I did. I do. And I will. But not tonight.”
“Oh,” I breathe.
“Yeah. So, what happened, baby?”
I pull my hand out of his and twist my fingers in my lap. Luke changes lanes, and I try to gather my thoughts. Oh, this hurts.
“When I was seventeen, I dated a guy for a few months who I thought was pretty nice. I was a virgin, which he would tease me about, but I didn’t care. I was only seventeen, for Christ sake.
“Well, long story short, he took things too far one night. We were at my house. My parents were at some party, and we were alone, and he…” I stop talking and look out the window, not seeing the buildings and trees, swamped in shame.
“He raped me.”
Luke inhales sharply, his
“Don’t worry about it. Just get in!” He opens the door for me. “I don’t want you sick, baby.”
Baby? Baby! Am I okay with him calling me baby? He guides me into the seat, slams the door and runs to the driver side. He looks over at me, his hair and shirt soaked, breathing hard, his beautiful blue eyes full of humor.
Oh yes. I’m fine with it.
“Let’s get you home and dry.” He starts the car and pulls out of the parking lot, toward the freeway.
“So, tell me more about yourself.” Luke merges onto the freeway and glances over at me.
“What do you want to know?” I ask.
“Favorite music?”
“Maroon 5,” I respond easily.
“Favorite movie?” he asks with a grin.
“Hmm…we’ve had this conversation.” I laugh. “I still like The Way We Were .”
“Ah yes, you’re a Robert Redford fan.” He kisses my hand, and I sigh.
“I am.”
“First boyfriend?” His eyes turn nervously to mine again, and I freeze. How do I answer this question?
“You know, I don’t do this.” I turn in the seat to face him.
He glances at me, then back at the road. “Do what?”
I shrug, trying to find the words and wondering why I feel the need to explain myself.
“Hey.” He links his fingers with mine and kisses my hand before resting them both in his lap. “What is it?”
“I don’t usually spend much time with men. I don’t make out. I don’t share meals. I don’t spend time playing the twenty questions game. I just…don’t.” This is coming out so wrong!
He gazes at me again, surprised.
“Okay, what do you do with men?” He squirms in his seat, and I think he’s mad.
“I fuck them.” There. It’s out there.
“What?” Oh yeah… I think he’s really mad.
“Luke, I don’t date.” Oh, how do I explain this? I have never wanted to date anyone before. Before him.
“Are you brushing me off?” His voice is incredulous, and he lets go of my hand.
“No!” I close my eyes and shake my head. “Before I met you, I mean. I just don’t want you to think that I’m promiscuous or that I go out with guys into the woods after knowing them for less than two days.”
“But you fuck them,” he snarls.
“Well, I used to.” I turn back in the seat and stare out the windshield. “Before my parents died…”
He grabs my hand again, and I whip my head back to him, surprised.
“Go on.”
“Before they died, when I was in college, I didn’t think much of myself. And, therefore, neither did anyone else. I didn’t date as a choice, Luke. But sex was something I understood. I’ve never wanted to feel anything else for a man.” I swallow hard and close my eyes in shame.
“Did something happen to you to make you feel like that?” His voice is dead calm. Too calm.
“Umm…” I’ve never told anyone this. Except Jules.
“Look, Nat, I feel something here, too, and you can bet your sweet, beautiful ass that I’m going to make love to you tonight. I’m not going to fuck you. So I think it’s pretty important that we’re honest with each other now. No surprises.” His handsome face is so sincere, and sweet.
“Last night you said you wanted to fuck me.”
“I did. I do. And I will. But not tonight.”
“Oh,” I breathe.
“Yeah. So, what happened, baby?”
I pull my hand out of his and twist my fingers in my lap. Luke changes lanes, and I try to gather my thoughts. Oh, this hurts.
“When I was seventeen, I dated a guy for a few months who I thought was pretty nice. I was a virgin, which he would tease me about, but I didn’t care. I was only seventeen, for Christ sake.
“Well, long story short, he took things too far one night. We were at my house. My parents were at some party, and we were alone, and he…” I stop talking and look out the window, not seeing the buildings and trees, swamped in shame.
“He raped me.”
Luke inhales sharply, his
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