You Can't Help Who You Love by Tierra Hopkins Page A

giving her a hug. That’s my bestie and I wouldn’t sugarcoat shit, sorry not sorry. I must admit, he had to have laid the pipe down because she normally didn’t act like this about anyone. Not even her ex. She was always nonchalant. Now, she in this bitch crumbling like a piece of paper. I held her for a minute before I headed back downstairs. We’ve known one another since she moved in the neighborhood years ago, so I knew when she wanted her space.
    As soon as I hit the bottom stairs, I ran smack dab into Carter. I tried walking past him, but today, for some reason, he wasn’t having it. He grabbed my hand and pulled me into the guest room before I had the chance to protest. I could tell he was drinking on something because I smelled the alcohol on his breath.
    “Carter, what the fuck?” I asked him. His hot breath on my neck sent me into overdrive. I let a small moan seep out of my mouth. Though he had taken my virginity, I didn’t really feel how I felt anymore because he pushed me away. “Lee, I missed you baby,” he grunted.
    I shook my head, backing into the door. “No, you don’t. You just want some pussy and think you’re about to get it. Think again though,” I told him, putting my hand on the knob. The minute it opened, he shut it right back. He threw me on the bed and dropped his baggy jeans. His anaconda fell out, hard as hell. I can’t even lie; the sight of it cause my pussy to pulsate. It was prettier than I remember. I shook my head; I had to get out of here.
    “Ever since that day, I missed you. I couldn’t act on it because of the age difference, but now, I can’t fight the shit anymore Lee. I want you in my life. Hell, I need you. I know damn well I ain’t gone be able to find another down ass white girl like you,” he said, staring in my eyes. If he would’ve said this shit two years ago, I would’ve fell for it. But he waited too late and now my eyes were on someone else, and that was Marquis.
    “CARTER!” I heard Justin yell his name. I was saved by the damn bell because I know that I probably would’ve fell victim to this shit. Don’t get me wrong. Carter was finer than a fool, but it took him two long ass years, seven hundred thirty plus days to tell me all the shit I had been waiting to hear. I wasn’t anything like the gullible bitches y’all read about these days. Plus, when my feelings changed, like they just did, I couldn’t go that route anymore.
    Carter stared at me before leaving. “I’m serious Lee. I miss you and we going to make this shit work. I’m sorry I was being a dick then; I regret the shit every day. These hoes out here ain’t shit compared to you; you’re solid and I want you to be a part of my life.” I watched him leave out and let everything he said sink in. It didn’t matter what he said, I knew that I couldn’t do this shit anymore. I’ve waited too long. I figured I had had enough of the cookout and went back upstairs to tell Miracle that I was heading out.
    “M, baby girl, I’m out. I’ll come check on you in the morning.” The look she gave me told me she either wanted to go with me or she wanted me to stay. Being that I felt like being in my own home, I told her to grab some stuff and let’s go. We were having a girl’s night tonight. When she gathered all her stuff, she told her daddy that she would be across the street if he needed her. After he said it was cool, we headed out. But, not before getting stopped by Quis first.
    “Yo, what y’all up to tonight?” he asked me.
    “Having a girl’s night, just chilling, smoking and probably sipping,” I told him.
    “Me and Dallas gone scroll through. Maybe we can go out for a little date,” he told me.  My mind wandered back to Toya bringing her ass over here and it slightly pissed me off. If she was near right now, I probably would’ve thrown a brick and busted her ass in her shit.
    “Nah, let’s just meet up somewhere. Or we can come chill with y’all. I’m not trying