about a thing.â
Bree wasnât worried. She hadnât thought about what would come after, was still trying to figure out what had come before. âI died on the operating table.â
âNo, you didnât. Your heart stopped for a few beats before they started it up again. Thatâs not dying.â
But she wasnât being put off. Flash was one of her best friends. She needed to tell him what had happened. âI knew when it stopped. I felt things.â
He looked skeptical. âWhat kinds of things?â
âLightness. Out-of-my-body kinds of things. I went through the ceiling.â
âSo did I when Eliot told me about the accident. I knew I should have driven you all the way home. If I had, you wouldnât be lying here now. Whoever was driving that truck is in deep shit.â
He wasnât listening. Frustrated, Bree closed her eyes. But a greater need forced them open again. âWhat do you know about near-death experiences?â
âAs much as I want,â he said, with a snort that said he didnât think they were real. âWhen we die, we die. I donât believe in heaven or hell.â
He didnât believe in God, either. He had told her that more than once, and while she didnât agree with him, she respected his feelings. She also respected the fact that he had a graduate degree in art history from Columbia. He wasnât dumb.
âWhat if I said Iâd had a look at heaven?â she asked.
âIâd say itâs the medication talking. They have you on morphine. Thatâs strong stuff.â
She gave a tiny head shake. âItâs not the medication.â
âNo? Listen to you. Your words are slurred. Itâs the medication.â
Possibly. Still, she saw that scene and felt that light, felt the benevolence of it. âI donât usually believe in things like this.â
âDamn right you donât,â Flash scolded. âVerity does. Do you want people laughing at you the way they laugh at her?â
âBut I see this so clearly,â she pleaded.
âIâm telling you, itâs the morphine and, if not that, the anesthesia. Itâll pass.â With more fear than humor, he added, âIt better. I need you with your feet on the ground. Youâre the sane one, Bree. Donât flip out on me, huh?â
Bree wasnât flipping out. He was right. She was the sane one.
But each time she closed her eyes, she was back in the operating room, hovering over the table, then rising, rising, and then there was that light. As confused as she was about what was real and what wasnât, she couldnât deny the calm that flowed through her each time she thought of that light. And there was more to the experience. She hadnât told Flash the half of it. More returned with each wakeful stretch, much of it sketchy still, but exciting, baffling, even scary, if what she thought she had heard was true.
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Dusk fell. Bree dreamed about the operating room again, dreamed of hovering above it and looking down. This time she saw a mole on the nape of the neck of one of the nurses.
She awoke convinced that it wasnât a dream at all. She had seen a mole in the operating room that night. But how, if she had been unconscious? There was only one way.
Shaken, she forced her eyes open. The only light in the room was the dim glow of a corner lamp. It was a gentle light, less harsh than the overheads, but reassuring. She wouldnât have wanted to wake up to total darkness and wonder which world she was in.
She lay without moving for a while, trying to separate pain from other needs, deciding whether she wanted to act on any and, if so, how. First priority, easiest to meet, was water. Her mouth was still abominably dry.
She had barely reached for the overhead bar, in an attempt to sit up, when the chair in the corner came alive. Her eyes widened on the man who approached. Uncommon height, tapering