“No I don’t.”
“Please?”
“I just noticed someone perving at me. And I didn’t mind it. That’s all.”
“That’s all?”
“Yep. ” She gave him a small smile. “Want sex?”
He grinned at her.
“So yes?” she said.
“Yep,” he said, and kissed her neck. “And the rest? Someone watching us have sex?”
“We’ll see,” she said. “Don’t push. Let me decide.”
He kept kissing her and didn’t answer.
Chapter 20
A
few nights later, Pam started to have second thoughts about whether or not this was a good idea. After all, it wasn’t that long ago that Steve was having buyer’s remorse. Okay, not buyer’s remorse but while his one head wanted to watch Pam with a lover, his other head was having jealousy issues.
One thing that puzzled Pam was how Steve wasn’t jealous about Mike. Whenever Mike came over, Steve would try to push things to happen, but she wasn’t comfortable with that since it’s never wise to mix friends with bedroom stuff. Or was it? Maybe she was being closed minded on including Mike? Something for her to ponder.
While she was ready to try something new, and right now something other than Mike, Pam fretted over creating issues or problems with Steve. Steve said he would be fine, but he’d said that last time and hadn’t been. She wasn’t sure she should trust him again to know his own feelings when he might turn out to be completely wrong.
She thought a lot, but all the thinking didn’t help. She was agitated. She caught herself being very short with others. She felt disheveled, and she had trouble sitting down to do anything. And she was horny all the time, impatiently waiting for Steve to come home when she planned to jump him. She was just thinking about sex too much, trying to decide.
Pam thought about her toys to settle herself but knew that this itch could only be appeased by a man.
That weekend she walked around the house in only her thong, just to see how it felt. To make sure that if they tried this, she wouldn’t get embarrassed and suddenly want to stop and try and check whether Steve would care. She stood next to the front windows with the curtains open in view of the street. Steve watched her. He seemed curious at first. Then he started smirking like he knew some secret.
Pam turned to face him. “What?”
“You.” Steve smiled enjoying the view. “You and how you do what you do.”
“What does that mean?”
“I love you, that’s all.”
“Oh.” She was caught off guard by his comment but decided that it was good.
Steve kept watching her, but she decided his look wasn’t the same as a stranger sneaking a glance at her. Steve could look at her any old time. It didn’t have the same thrill as new eyes.
“Is this because of the thing?” Steve said after a while.
Pam looked over. She stayed beside the window. “Maybe,” she said.
Even though he was dealing with his jealousy issues, Steve still wanted more. His desire to watch her with another man was overpowering. “Have you decided anything?”
“I’m thinking about it.”
He gave a cocky grin.
“I think after your reaction, well, I need a push,” Pam finally blurted out. “I think I need this to just happen. I don’t want you to plan the entire night out, but I need for you to decide everything first.”
“Okay.” Steve walked over to her and wrapped his arms around her.
“It’s kind of cold and unreal that we are even talking about this, let alone what we’ve done so far, you know?”
Steve just gave her a squeeze.
In her soft sexy voice she said, “Like this. It worked before, talking about it so much, but it seems weird now.”
Steve nodded. “Okay. So what are you saying?”
“That I need a push. I can feel how you want this, unless you have a flashlight in your pocket. I want this, too. But like I said, I need a push for us to
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