consequences?â
âUmm . . . Carl . . . he was a boy at my last school. I got suspended and then we had to sort out the lost property cupboard together. Restorative justice.â
Patrick is enormously interested in restorative justice and asks me loads of questions about it. Then he asks, âAnd why did you hit him?â
âHe tried to drown me in the swimming pool. . .â and I have to explain all about the contact lenses I wore as part of my disguise when I was Joe, and why it was so dangerous when Carl ducked me in the water, and about how heâd broken my ribs as well by kicking me.
âAnd Archie? What heinous crime did he commit that you needed to punish him by pulling his hair?â he asks, once Iâve ground to a halt.
Megâs lying on the ground now, and she rolls over so I can tickle her tummy. Her fur is really silky and soft and Iâm not thinking about germs at all.
âHe was moving my stuff from my bed to the bunk bed. He was touching my stuff, stuff thatâs not his to touch.â
âIâll talk to him,â says Patrick.
âDoes he have to stay?â
âApparently so,â he says. âI think it might be quite interesting for you and Archie to get to know each other. Youâve both grown up without brothers or sisters.â
âI donât want to get to know him.â
âYou seem to have no choice,â he says. âBut you may have more in common than you realise.â
I donât think Iâve got anything in common withthat spoilt baby.
âTy,â he says. âI know you think Iâm being dictatorial about the computer and the phone, and Iâm sorry if you donât feel fully at home. But Louise did say no contact with anyone, and that means no email and no phone calls, and from what I know about teenagers and the internet, Iâd prefer you to avoid dubious chatrooms and illegal downloads.â
âYeah . . . but. . .â
âI suspect that so many huge changes have happened in your life recently that it would be understandable if you started to act . . . how should I put it . . . without discipline. If you start punching people, taking things that donât belong to you, and so on . . . because, compared to the things youâve seen and the things youâve experienced, nothing seems to matter very much. Understand?â
Iâm not sure. I concentrate on stroking Megâs soft ears. Heâs right that things did get a bit out of control when I was Joe, but I donât know where heâs going with this.
âI think you need me to set clear boundaries,â he says. âFrom what Louise has told me, neither Nicki nor Julie have ever been really tough with you. Has anyone ever given you any discipline at all?â
Iâm not really sure what he means. Is he going to hit me? Gran never ever told me off, but there was nothingto tell me off about. I used to go round to her flat and have my supper and do my homework and watch TV, and whatâs the problem with that? Nicki would explode at me pretty randomly, not all that often, and I learned to keep my head down and say what she wanted to hear. That policy worked well at school too. Arron used to laugh at me because I was such a good boy.
There was one boyfriend of my mumâs, Chris the plumber, who said I needed a firm hand and more discipline. He used to boss me around and shout at me, and I was a bit scared of him. Once, I remember, we went out for the day with him and in the car going home he got angry â âCrumbs all over the bleeding upholsteryâ â and he went on and on and in the end I felt something warm on my leg and Iâd wet myself. I was only about five.
Nicki looked over her shoulder and saw my face and said, âTell you what, Chris, letâs drop him off with my mum and then we can have some fun by ourselves.â When we got to Granâs, she shoved Chrisâs A-Z over
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