That was totally a lie, I was dying day by day, but there was no need to alert John. I knew he would be by my side in an instant. I sort of wished he would, but I knew it was best to keep my space from relationships for a while.
My mom finally got me to admit what was happening between Tate and me. I hated to tell her again that I had broken up with Tate, but I knew it was better than making upstories for how we were doing. I wasn’t sure what she would finally see on Facebook if he really started publically dating Lauren. Oh God, I broke down crying just thinking of how bad that would hurt me…deep to the core. In the end the truth hurt, but it
was
the truth no less. Our love had not been strong enough.
My sweet friends Maura and Chloe called too, reminding me how soon we would be enjoying our girl’s time during Spring break. Just one more week, and we would be in La Jolla in San Diego, California lying on the beach. I was looking forward to seeing my girls, although deep down, I wasn’t over Elle’s misuse of our trusting friendship. It still hurt, I felt it always would. It’s even worse to think our relationship would forever be changed. Waterworks again, for the second time today. Great, I might as well call my counselor. It had been a while, and I really needed some spiritual guidance. I also was praying harder and longer than usual. I felt like that
was
helping me gain ground on a desolate place in time.
Elle wasn’t sharing any updates regarding Tate with me. I knew she had plenty from Finn. Just thinking about my gorgeous Tate and Finn together…I felt the squeeze again in my heart. Oh Tate, I never thought you would tire of me so easily. Maybe I was wrong to make you wait for sex with me. No, that couldn’t be true. Better to learn now that he didn’t think I was worth the wait. Damn it hurt!
A day before we were supposed to leave on our trip, Elle came up to me with a newspaper in her hands. “Reese, I need to show you something about Tate, it’s going to really sting, but I need to keep everything in the open with you. I promised I would, and I always will.”
What could it be? I wasn’t sure, but I did actually appreciate Elle’s honesty. “Okay, I’m ready then, what is it?” I wasn’t sure now if I wanted full relinquishment of her knowledge of Tate, but I was thankful she felt a need to keep her promise. Maybe there was hope for us yet as best friends.
“Tate flew out yesterday afternoon for San Diego. He’s being heavily courted by the Padres for a rookie position on the team. This is one of the teams that Lauren’s dad has part-ownership in. So, there’s a story on the front page of the sports section in the San Diego Times about Tate. One of the lead pictures…Oh God Reese, I’m sorry to show you this…”
“Elle, please let me just see that…” Once my eyes focused on the picture... ‘Oh God’ was right. I gasped and my hand flew to my mouth. It couldn’t be. I nearly passed out, sliding down the edge of my bed to the floor. The picture was clear, Lauren had her arms around Tate…kissing him square on the lips. The caption read, ‘Tate Justice and girlfriend land in San Diego. Are they up for the life of the Pros?’
Oh. My. God. This couldn’t be real. I turned the paper in my hand to see if it was in fact a real newspaper. I wasn’t sure what I expected it to be, but this whole
thing
felt surreal. Tate was my boyfriend, wasn’t he? I had chills all over my body, then I went totally numb. My heart almost squeezed so tight I could barely breathe. In fact, I began to hyperventilate, I was sure I would pass out. I was shaking all over. The paper fell from my trembling fingers.
“Oh Reese, I shouldn’t have shown you. Hey, calm down…please! You have to calm down. Slow Reese. Breathe slowly. Take a breath in and hold it. You have to breathe in, BREATHE damn it!” Elle was hysterical now. She was so worried for me.My eyes locked with Elle’s. I was pleading for
My mom finally got me to admit what was happening between Tate and me. I hated to tell her again that I had broken up with Tate, but I knew it was better than making upstories for how we were doing. I wasn’t sure what she would finally see on Facebook if he really started publically dating Lauren. Oh God, I broke down crying just thinking of how bad that would hurt me…deep to the core. In the end the truth hurt, but it
was
the truth no less. Our love had not been strong enough.
My sweet friends Maura and Chloe called too, reminding me how soon we would be enjoying our girl’s time during Spring break. Just one more week, and we would be in La Jolla in San Diego, California lying on the beach. I was looking forward to seeing my girls, although deep down, I wasn’t over Elle’s misuse of our trusting friendship. It still hurt, I felt it always would. It’s even worse to think our relationship would forever be changed. Waterworks again, for the second time today. Great, I might as well call my counselor. It had been a while, and I really needed some spiritual guidance. I also was praying harder and longer than usual. I felt like that
was
helping me gain ground on a desolate place in time.
Elle wasn’t sharing any updates regarding Tate with me. I knew she had plenty from Finn. Just thinking about my gorgeous Tate and Finn together…I felt the squeeze again in my heart. Oh Tate, I never thought you would tire of me so easily. Maybe I was wrong to make you wait for sex with me. No, that couldn’t be true. Better to learn now that he didn’t think I was worth the wait. Damn it hurt!
A day before we were supposed to leave on our trip, Elle came up to me with a newspaper in her hands. “Reese, I need to show you something about Tate, it’s going to really sting, but I need to keep everything in the open with you. I promised I would, and I always will.”
What could it be? I wasn’t sure, but I did actually appreciate Elle’s honesty. “Okay, I’m ready then, what is it?” I wasn’t sure now if I wanted full relinquishment of her knowledge of Tate, but I was thankful she felt a need to keep her promise. Maybe there was hope for us yet as best friends.
“Tate flew out yesterday afternoon for San Diego. He’s being heavily courted by the Padres for a rookie position on the team. This is one of the teams that Lauren’s dad has part-ownership in. So, there’s a story on the front page of the sports section in the San Diego Times about Tate. One of the lead pictures…Oh God Reese, I’m sorry to show you this…”
“Elle, please let me just see that…” Once my eyes focused on the picture... ‘Oh God’ was right. I gasped and my hand flew to my mouth. It couldn’t be. I nearly passed out, sliding down the edge of my bed to the floor. The picture was clear, Lauren had her arms around Tate…kissing him square on the lips. The caption read, ‘Tate Justice and girlfriend land in San Diego. Are they up for the life of the Pros?’
Oh. My. God. This couldn’t be real. I turned the paper in my hand to see if it was in fact a real newspaper. I wasn’t sure what I expected it to be, but this whole
thing
felt surreal. Tate was my boyfriend, wasn’t he? I had chills all over my body, then I went totally numb. My heart almost squeezed so tight I could barely breathe. In fact, I began to hyperventilate, I was sure I would pass out. I was shaking all over. The paper fell from my trembling fingers.
“Oh Reese, I shouldn’t have shown you. Hey, calm down…please! You have to calm down. Slow Reese. Breathe slowly. Take a breath in and hold it. You have to breathe in, BREATHE damn it!” Elle was hysterical now. She was so worried for me.My eyes locked with Elle’s. I was pleading for
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