police insistâof a carefully planned and executed hoax. Incidentally, the police looked at me speculatively as they made this last suggestion.
After a while I got control of myself to the point where I could trace what I saw to its ending and then back again, still using my flashlight to supplement the gathering dawn.
A little later I made the round-about car trip I mentioned earlier to the Grand Canal and searched furiously along it, running down to its bank at several spots and venturing out on a couple of the ruined bridges.
I saw no signs of any boat or body at all, or of any oil either, for that matter, though the odor is always strong there.
Then I went to the police. Almost at once, a little to my shame, I found myself resorting to the subterfuge of emphasizing the one point that my friend Daloway had an almost crazily obsessive fear of drowning in the Grand Canal and that this might be a clue to his disappearance.
I guess I had to take that line. The police were at least willing to give some serious attention to the possibility of a demented suicide, whereas they could hardly have been expected to give any to the hypothesis of a black inanimate, ancient, almost ubiquitous liquid engineering a diabolical kidnaping.
Later they assured me that they had inspected the canal and found no evidence of bodies or sunken boats in it. They didnât drag it, at least not all of it.
That ended the investigation for them. As for the real and material evidence back at the trailer, well, as Iâve said at least twice before, the police insist that was a hoax, perpetuated either by Daloway or myself.
And now the investigation is ended for me too. I dare not torture my mind any longer with a theory that endows with purposeful life the deepest buried darkness, that makes man and his most vaunted technological achievements the sardonic whim of that darkness and invests it with a hellish light visible only to its servitors, or to those about to become its slaves. No, I dare no longer think in this direction, no matter how conclusive the evidence I saw with my own eyes. I almost flipped when I saw it, and I will flip if I go on thinking about it.
What that evidence wasâwhat I saw back at the trailer when I directed my flash another way, froze in horror, and later traced the thing from end to endâwas simply this: a yard-long black straight indentation in the bank of the canal by Dalowayâs trailer, as if cut by one end of the keel of an oil-drenched boat, and then, leading from that point to Dalowayâs oil-soaked bunk and back againâa little wider and more closely spaced on the way back, as if something were being carriedâ the long narrow sharply pointed footprints, marked in blackest thickest oil, of the Black Gondolier.
THE DREAMS OF ALBERT MORELAND
I THINK OF the autumn of 1939, not as the beginning of the Second World War, but as the period in which Albert Moreland dreamed the dream. The two eventsâthe war and the dreamâare not, however, divorced in my mind. Indeed, I sometimes fear that there is a connection between them, but it is a connection which no sane person will consider seriously, if he is wise.
Albert Moreland was, and perhaps still is, a professional chess player. That fact has an important bearing on the dream, or dreams. He made most of his scant income at a games arcade in Lower Manhattan, taking on all comersâthe enthusiast who gets a kick out of trying to beat an expert, the lonely man who turns to chess as to a drug, or the down-and-outer tempted into purchasing a half hour of intellectual dignity for a quarter.
After I got to know Moreland, I often wandered into the arcade and watched him playing as many as three or four games simultaneously, oblivious to the clicking and whirring of the pinball games and the intermittent reports from the shooting gallery. He got fifteen cents for every win; the house took the extra dime. When he lost, neither got
After a while I got control of myself to the point where I could trace what I saw to its ending and then back again, still using my flashlight to supplement the gathering dawn.
A little later I made the round-about car trip I mentioned earlier to the Grand Canal and searched furiously along it, running down to its bank at several spots and venturing out on a couple of the ruined bridges.
I saw no signs of any boat or body at all, or of any oil either, for that matter, though the odor is always strong there.
Then I went to the police. Almost at once, a little to my shame, I found myself resorting to the subterfuge of emphasizing the one point that my friend Daloway had an almost crazily obsessive fear of drowning in the Grand Canal and that this might be a clue to his disappearance.
I guess I had to take that line. The police were at least willing to give some serious attention to the possibility of a demented suicide, whereas they could hardly have been expected to give any to the hypothesis of a black inanimate, ancient, almost ubiquitous liquid engineering a diabolical kidnaping.
Later they assured me that they had inspected the canal and found no evidence of bodies or sunken boats in it. They didnât drag it, at least not all of it.
That ended the investigation for them. As for the real and material evidence back at the trailer, well, as Iâve said at least twice before, the police insist that was a hoax, perpetuated either by Daloway or myself.
And now the investigation is ended for me too. I dare not torture my mind any longer with a theory that endows with purposeful life the deepest buried darkness, that makes man and his most vaunted technological achievements the sardonic whim of that darkness and invests it with a hellish light visible only to its servitors, or to those about to become its slaves. No, I dare no longer think in this direction, no matter how conclusive the evidence I saw with my own eyes. I almost flipped when I saw it, and I will flip if I go on thinking about it.
What that evidence wasâwhat I saw back at the trailer when I directed my flash another way, froze in horror, and later traced the thing from end to endâwas simply this: a yard-long black straight indentation in the bank of the canal by Dalowayâs trailer, as if cut by one end of the keel of an oil-drenched boat, and then, leading from that point to Dalowayâs oil-soaked bunk and back againâa little wider and more closely spaced on the way back, as if something were being carriedâ the long narrow sharply pointed footprints, marked in blackest thickest oil, of the Black Gondolier.
THE DREAMS OF ALBERT MORELAND
I THINK OF the autumn of 1939, not as the beginning of the Second World War, but as the period in which Albert Moreland dreamed the dream. The two eventsâthe war and the dreamâare not, however, divorced in my mind. Indeed, I sometimes fear that there is a connection between them, but it is a connection which no sane person will consider seriously, if he is wise.
Albert Moreland was, and perhaps still is, a professional chess player. That fact has an important bearing on the dream, or dreams. He made most of his scant income at a games arcade in Lower Manhattan, taking on all comersâthe enthusiast who gets a kick out of trying to beat an expert, the lonely man who turns to chess as to a drug, or the down-and-outer tempted into purchasing a half hour of intellectual dignity for a quarter.
After I got to know Moreland, I often wandered into the arcade and watched him playing as many as three or four games simultaneously, oblivious to the clicking and whirring of the pinball games and the intermittent reports from the shooting gallery. He got fifteen cents for every win; the house took the extra dime. When he lost, neither got
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