concerned.
“Sure, that’d be great.” I smiled genuinely this time knowing I’d be away from this nightmare. We stood up and headed for the exit. I caught Julie’s attention and waved goodbye. She smiled seeing Jaxon right behind me and gave me the thumbs up signal. I rolled my eyes and shook my head and walked out the door.
The drive to my house was filled with awkward silence. Jaxon drove down the main road, flipping through the stations before stopping at some classic rock station. The volume was low, but I couldn’t think of anything to say. Jaxon would glance my way and I’d smile. His deep dimples would reply but I could tell he was struggling with something.
He pulled into the driveway and jumped out to open my door. That was something I wasn’t expecting. He stood between the door and me holding out his left hand to help me out of the car. I hesitated a moment trying to figure out where this was leading, but Jaxon grabbed my hand and pulled me toward him. He held my hand as he shut the door behind me and leaned in, pressing me against his car. “I will regret it for the rest of my life if I don’t at least try to see if there’s anything between us.” He leaned in toward me and cupped his hand under my chin.
“Jaxon, I don’t think…” He softly brushed his thumb over my lips.
“Shh, don’t think.” His lips gently pressed against mine. It was a sweet, tender kiss, but no sparks. He pulled away slowly before removing his hand from my cheek. “Guess I lost my touch?” He smiled with those heart breaking dimples. Jaxon laughed nervously as he ran his hand through his hair.
“Jaxon, I’m sorry. That was…nice?” I internally rolled my eyes. What was I saying? “I don’t want our friendship to end over this. I just don’t feel that way about you. You’re a great guy and everything. I’m extremely flattered. You’re one of the hottest guys I know, but…”
“Yeah, I know. Brotherly love.” He stepped away shoving his hands in his pockets, kicking imaginary rocks in the driveway. “God, Reagan, it’s not supposed to hurt this bad. I knew you probably wouldn’t feel the same, but I was hoping for a little more than this.” He started walking around to the driver’s side of his car and I followed, unsure what to say or do to make him hurt less.
I placed my hand on his shoulder and turned him toward me. I reached my arms around him and hugged him tightly. “Jaxon, no matter what you think, I do love you and care about you. I’m just not ready for that kind of relationship yet. There are too many emotions right now I’m dealing with. I could really use your friendship.” My tears dampened his shirt as he pulled me in tighter to him. He placed another kiss on my head.
Jaxon cleared his throat. “I can do that. I can be your friend, but understand that I won’t give up on you. I have a feeling you’ll come around to my charms.” He chuckled and pulled out of our embrace. He ran his hands down my arms, grabbing my hands before bringing them to his lips. He kissed each hand then kissed my cheek. “I’ll give you a call tomorrow.”
After Jaxon got in his car, I waited and watched him drive away before heading across the street to the beach and toward the Rock. I’d missed my opportunity the other night to look into this music mystery. I also needed some air. Being in that building with two gorgeous guys spewing testosterone around me left me claustrophobic. I felt this overwhelming attraction to Kyler, but he seemed indifferent at times. I can’t figure him out. Then there’s Jaxon. I knew how much he liked me, now, but after the feelings I have for Kyler, I can’t imagine settling for his affection. A year ago, yes, definitely, Jaxon would have been a first choice boyfriend. But right now, it was just too confusing.
I had taken my sandals off and held
“Sure, that’d be great.” I smiled genuinely this time knowing I’d be away from this nightmare. We stood up and headed for the exit. I caught Julie’s attention and waved goodbye. She smiled seeing Jaxon right behind me and gave me the thumbs up signal. I rolled my eyes and shook my head and walked out the door.
The drive to my house was filled with awkward silence. Jaxon drove down the main road, flipping through the stations before stopping at some classic rock station. The volume was low, but I couldn’t think of anything to say. Jaxon would glance my way and I’d smile. His deep dimples would reply but I could tell he was struggling with something.
He pulled into the driveway and jumped out to open my door. That was something I wasn’t expecting. He stood between the door and me holding out his left hand to help me out of the car. I hesitated a moment trying to figure out where this was leading, but Jaxon grabbed my hand and pulled me toward him. He held my hand as he shut the door behind me and leaned in, pressing me against his car. “I will regret it for the rest of my life if I don’t at least try to see if there’s anything between us.” He leaned in toward me and cupped his hand under my chin.
“Jaxon, I don’t think…” He softly brushed his thumb over my lips.
“Shh, don’t think.” His lips gently pressed against mine. It was a sweet, tender kiss, but no sparks. He pulled away slowly before removing his hand from my cheek. “Guess I lost my touch?” He smiled with those heart breaking dimples. Jaxon laughed nervously as he ran his hand through his hair.
“Jaxon, I’m sorry. That was…nice?” I internally rolled my eyes. What was I saying? “I don’t want our friendship to end over this. I just don’t feel that way about you. You’re a great guy and everything. I’m extremely flattered. You’re one of the hottest guys I know, but…”
“Yeah, I know. Brotherly love.” He stepped away shoving his hands in his pockets, kicking imaginary rocks in the driveway. “God, Reagan, it’s not supposed to hurt this bad. I knew you probably wouldn’t feel the same, but I was hoping for a little more than this.” He started walking around to the driver’s side of his car and I followed, unsure what to say or do to make him hurt less.
I placed my hand on his shoulder and turned him toward me. I reached my arms around him and hugged him tightly. “Jaxon, no matter what you think, I do love you and care about you. I’m just not ready for that kind of relationship yet. There are too many emotions right now I’m dealing with. I could really use your friendship.” My tears dampened his shirt as he pulled me in tighter to him. He placed another kiss on my head.
Jaxon cleared his throat. “I can do that. I can be your friend, but understand that I won’t give up on you. I have a feeling you’ll come around to my charms.” He chuckled and pulled out of our embrace. He ran his hands down my arms, grabbing my hands before bringing them to his lips. He kissed each hand then kissed my cheek. “I’ll give you a call tomorrow.”
After Jaxon got in his car, I waited and watched him drive away before heading across the street to the beach and toward the Rock. I’d missed my opportunity the other night to look into this music mystery. I also needed some air. Being in that building with two gorgeous guys spewing testosterone around me left me claustrophobic. I felt this overwhelming attraction to Kyler, but he seemed indifferent at times. I can’t figure him out. Then there’s Jaxon. I knew how much he liked me, now, but after the feelings I have for Kyler, I can’t imagine settling for his affection. A year ago, yes, definitely, Jaxon would have been a first choice boyfriend. But right now, it was just too confusing.
I had taken my sandals off and held
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