Circle of Stones by Suzanne Alyssa Andrew

body still. But her eyeballs are still fluttering under her closed eyelids, her long, fake lashes twitching like trapped spiders. Nik sees she is waiting for him to react, for rescue, and for her scene to play out. But he doesn’t feel it. He can’t do it. Instead there’s a familiar lurch. Anxiety like a black wave.
    Nik coughs. He doesn’t want to be like his father. He thinks finding Jennifer will make him different. Heroic. He leaves Ilana there, grabs his sketchbook from his milk-crate nightstand and begins sketching the lines of her tall black leather, high-heeled boots. They look like the ones Jennifer used to wear. Nik thinks Ilana must have stolen them.
    Nik glances down at Ilana’s face. She has sharp features: her nose is slightly crooked, he notices, and she has a cut on her lower lip. Ilana opens her eyes and sits up, her elbows turning awkwardly backwards as she rests on them.
    â€œYou’re sketching me?” she says. “God, Nik, you’re sick.” She stands up and skulks out of the room. Nik looks at his sketch. It’s not quite right. Jennifer’s dancer’s calves curved more underneath the leather. He scrapes a fierce X over the drawing with the flat edge of his pencil. He shuts his door quietly and wedges a wooden chair against the knob. Then he sits down on the floor and pretends he’s talking to Aaron, who used to be his best friend.
    â€œWhat the hell was that?” Nik whispers.
    â€œShe’s crazy,” the old Aaron would have said. “She’ll be outta here soon though, so don’t worry about it.”
    Nik misses Old Aaron, who had a lot more sense than Aaron has now. When Nik moved to Vancouver from the island, Aaron’s was the only ad that caught his eye on the student housing website. It read: RAMSHACKLE ROOM! CHEAP AND UGLY. It meant Nik didn’t have to worry about wrecking the place with paint. Not like his mom’s house, where Katya, his mom’s new girlfriend, now runs the place with hotel-quality precision. White towels. The end of the toilet paper roll folded into a point. Nik always remembers his promise to keep Katya a secret from the rest of the family. Something to do with support payments from his dad. He always goes along with his mom’s lies. But he’s still relegated to the basement when he visits, like his mom’s dogs to their kennel. When his mom and his dad lived together his mom put up with a lot more disorganization. Nik has fond memories of his messy childhood home. There were so many places to hide when his parents fought. Nik used to disappear like a magic trick and lose himself in epic drawings. His adventures in vanishing make the raggedy apartment seem tiny now in comparison. Nik looks around his room. He feels like a rabbit in a hat. The Jennifer mural and paintings are growing, squeezing the walls closer and crowding him.
    When Nik moved into the Rumble Shack, it was completely empty. It felt spacious that way. He and Aaron scavenged furniture from the curb, garage sales and thrift stores. They hauled it all home on their skinny shoulders. The older the furniture, the heavier it was. Aaron helped Nik mod his leather jacket with spikes and stitch punk patches to his pants. They did screen-printing in the living room, creating irreverent designs with corporate logos and raucous, symbol-splotched T-shirts they sold at school for beer money. Hardly anyone ever bought anything with the upside-down golden arches on it, but big pink skulls and anarchy A ’s were popular. They had three prolific months.
    Then the girls arrived. Ilana wrapped herself around Aaron one night at a dive bar in Gastown. Nik had returned from the bar with a fresh pitcher to find her sitting in his seat. She drank more of their beer than she should have, stayed over, moved in. Kendall appeared shortly after. Ilana rented her the unheated back room without asking. Ilana did a lot of things Nik didn’t