out for approval below. The nursing home was safe and cosy there, forgotten about like most of the people in it. There were stories that on a clear day it was possible to look across the valley and pick out the distant spire of Salisbury Cathedral proving how tall it was, but Charlie had never seen it and heâd visited his mother on quite a few very clear days. He tried this time and failed: perhaps he wasnât standing in the right spot.
Heâd telephoned ahead and arranged the most convenient time, so the matron was expecting him. Her name was Hewlett: her signature made it impossible to identify the christian name, apart from the initial letter E, but then she was not a person to be addressed familiarly. She was not particularly tall but very wide. The large and tightly corseted bust was more a prow than a bosom, parting the waves before her, and she always walked with thrust-forward urgency, as if she were late. She invariably wore, like now, a blue uniform of her own design with a crimped and starched headpiece and an expression of fierce severity.
âYou said ten,â she accused at once, loud-voiced. It was fifteen minutes past.
âBad traffic,â apologized Charlie, unoffended. She was one of those brusque-mannered women of inordinate love and kindness towards all the old people for whom she cared.
âYour mother is a great deal better, as I told you in my note,â said the matron at once. âShe still drifts a little but sheâs much more aware than sheâs been for a long time.â
âYou trying some new treatment or drug?â
The formidable woman shook her head. âIt happens. Weâve just got to hope it lasts. Iâm glad you were able to come as quickly as you did.â
So was he, thought Charlie. For more than two years now his motherâs senility had locked her away in a dream world no one could enter. âDoes she know Iâm coming?â
The matron nodded. âSheâs had her hair washed. Donât forget to tell her it looks nice.â
âAny limit on how long I can stay?â
âAs long as you like,â said the woman. âNot a lot of relatives come: some of the others will enjoy a different face, as well.â
Charlie followed the woman, tender to battleship, in a surge through the nursing home. It was a conversion from the long-ago status symbol of a wool millionaire when men became millionaires in the wool trade. There had been the minimum of alteration, little more than stairway lifts and door widening for wheelchairs. All the panelling and flooring was the original wood and the huge floor-to-ceiling verandah doors were retained in the drawing rooms, so that the occupants could easily get outside when it was warm enough, which it was today. The place smelled of polish and fresh air, with no trace of old-people, decay or clinical antiseptic anywhere.
His mother was just outside the furthest room, raised into a sitting position by a back support in a bed equipped with large wheels to make it easier to manoeuvre. Her pure white hair was rigidly waved and sheâd arranged the pillows to end at her shoulders so that it did not become disarranged. There was the faintest touch of rouge, giving her cheeks some colour, and a very light lipstick as well. She wore a crocheted bed jacket over a floral-print nightdress and was sitting in calm patience with her hands, black-corded with veins, on the bed before her. She was wearing a wedding ring sheâd bought herself when he was about eighteen but which he couldnât remember her using for quite a while.
âHello Mum,â greeted Charlie.
âHello Charlie,â she said, in immediate recognition. It was the first occasion for a long time that sheâd known him. He kissed her, aware of a furtive audience on the verandah and further away, from groups on the lawns.
Charlie offered the box he carried and said: âChocolates. Plain. The sort you
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