at their breaking point as well, I know I was. Not only because the shit was like the sword of Damocles hanging over our heads, but also because it was keeping me from her.
***
My mind went back to that first meet, the first time I ever laid eyes on her. The day my world changed and some of the grey edges drifted away to let in the light. After years of knowing that my life was destined to be a lonely one, in one moment she’d given me a glimpse into what could be and the beast had popped his leash.
I didn’t know that it would happen like this, wasn’t even sure that it would ever happen. And then one look, that’s all it took as banal as that sounds. But she came through the gate looking for her little brother, a mere nuisance I thought at first. We didn’t have time for this shit. Things were heating up around here and my brothers and I, were hip deep in some fuck that we still had no answers to. We were swinging in the wind, a feeling that has never sat well with me. I like to be in control, have to be in control.
So when the young girl had flown through the gate like an avenging angel I wasn’t in the mood. But then she opened that mouth of hers and turned those eyes, spitting fire on me, and the bottom dropped out. I knew in that split second when I turned to her and her breath caught and she stumbled just a little, that I was going to take her on a journey. One that I always thought I’d walk alone.
I saw it in her then too before she pulled herself together; saw that flash of interest before she went back to spitting fire at me. I wonder if she knew that I could see right through her? If she knew that she had given so much away in that one unguarded moment?
She was the first woman to stop me in my tracks. As far as I was concerned, up until then, pussy was pussy, some better than others, but nothing to lose my head over. Then I took her in from head to toe and felt it.
I didn’t give anything away as I studied her. But after that little telltale sign from her, I was hooked. I held my silence for a hot minute, just taking her in, taking it all in. I wanted to remember everything about the moment my life changed. As Tyler would say, that was bitch made moment number one.
After the ringing in my ears had calmed down, and the haze had cleared from my sight, the need to separate her from the herd, to keep her scent away from the others had been strong. It was the first time in my life I’d reacted that way to a woman, and I was sure it would be the last.
I wasn’t sure if it was love at first sight, I know fuck all about that shit. But I knew there was very strong interest and attraction on my part. For me, at the time, that was more than enough. Only time will tell if she could hold my interest, if she could fit into that slot that I had pushed way back in the recesses of my mind when I’d given up on such things ever happening for me.
I walked into her space, moving her back and away from the men. Brothers or not the situation could become dangerous. It was my first show of ownership, of my intent. My brothers would understand what that gesture meant. I felt the shift in their moods behind me but didn’t turn around. They knew better than to approach.
“You need to calm down.” I crowded her as my brothers watched from afar. I took in the differences in our statures acutely, which only seemed to feed the flames of my awakening lust. She was so small, so vulnerable, though she didn’t know it. Everything about her made the blood sing in my veins.
I folded my fists to keep myself from reaching out for her. Not yet. She’d probably run screaming if I put hands on her. But even then I promised myself that it won’t be long before I filled that need to test the softness of her skin. I ate her up with my eyes, recording everything about her to take out later when I was in my bed alone.
“What are you staring at?” She flung the words in my face in her mini rage. I saw her over my knee, her ass
***
My mind went back to that first meet, the first time I ever laid eyes on her. The day my world changed and some of the grey edges drifted away to let in the light. After years of knowing that my life was destined to be a lonely one, in one moment she’d given me a glimpse into what could be and the beast had popped his leash.
I didn’t know that it would happen like this, wasn’t even sure that it would ever happen. And then one look, that’s all it took as banal as that sounds. But she came through the gate looking for her little brother, a mere nuisance I thought at first. We didn’t have time for this shit. Things were heating up around here and my brothers and I, were hip deep in some fuck that we still had no answers to. We were swinging in the wind, a feeling that has never sat well with me. I like to be in control, have to be in control.
So when the young girl had flown through the gate like an avenging angel I wasn’t in the mood. But then she opened that mouth of hers and turned those eyes, spitting fire on me, and the bottom dropped out. I knew in that split second when I turned to her and her breath caught and she stumbled just a little, that I was going to take her on a journey. One that I always thought I’d walk alone.
I saw it in her then too before she pulled herself together; saw that flash of interest before she went back to spitting fire at me. I wonder if she knew that I could see right through her? If she knew that she had given so much away in that one unguarded moment?
She was the first woman to stop me in my tracks. As far as I was concerned, up until then, pussy was pussy, some better than others, but nothing to lose my head over. Then I took her in from head to toe and felt it.
I didn’t give anything away as I studied her. But after that little telltale sign from her, I was hooked. I held my silence for a hot minute, just taking her in, taking it all in. I wanted to remember everything about the moment my life changed. As Tyler would say, that was bitch made moment number one.
After the ringing in my ears had calmed down, and the haze had cleared from my sight, the need to separate her from the herd, to keep her scent away from the others had been strong. It was the first time in my life I’d reacted that way to a woman, and I was sure it would be the last.
I wasn’t sure if it was love at first sight, I know fuck all about that shit. But I knew there was very strong interest and attraction on my part. For me, at the time, that was more than enough. Only time will tell if she could hold my interest, if she could fit into that slot that I had pushed way back in the recesses of my mind when I’d given up on such things ever happening for me.
I walked into her space, moving her back and away from the men. Brothers or not the situation could become dangerous. It was my first show of ownership, of my intent. My brothers would understand what that gesture meant. I felt the shift in their moods behind me but didn’t turn around. They knew better than to approach.
“You need to calm down.” I crowded her as my brothers watched from afar. I took in the differences in our statures acutely, which only seemed to feed the flames of my awakening lust. She was so small, so vulnerable, though she didn’t know it. Everything about her made the blood sing in my veins.
I folded my fists to keep myself from reaching out for her. Not yet. She’d probably run screaming if I put hands on her. But even then I promised myself that it won’t be long before I filled that need to test the softness of her skin. I ate her up with my eyes, recording everything about her to take out later when I was in my bed alone.
“What are you staring at?” She flung the words in my face in her mini rage. I saw her over my knee, her ass
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