Tags:
General,
Sex,
Health; Fitness & Dieting,
Self-Help,
Religion & Spirituality,
Love & Romance,
Relationships,
Spiritual,
Religious Studies,
Other Religions; Practices & Sacred Texts,
Sexual Health,
Gender & Sexuality,
Family & Relationships/Love & Romance
way to live, yet you are both holding back your deepest gifts of love, not offering yourselves fully to each other or to the world.
His shallowness expresses itself as ambiguity, purposelessness, and lack of presence. Yours shows itself through your body. Your shells of protectionliterally enclose your heart, your vagina, your belly—all the most vulnerable and soft parts of your flesh are hardened against the barrage of insult, abuse, and rejection that your man’s aimless thrusts cause you.
The most feminine parts of your body may become diseased, or at least closed down to pleasure. Your energy becomes blocked, your emotions suppressed. Your true heart’s desire gets buried so deeply that you may no longer even hope for anything more than a decent relationship. Your deep desire to be taken, ravished, opened, and blissfully offered to God as unbounded love has all but disappeared behind years of devastation, frustration, and betrayal.
You and your man are no longer hoping to be fulfilled by someone else. You have grown beyond dependence. But you are probably stuck in a phase of self-reliance. You have probably become trapped in the belief that you can only make yourself happy: You are responsible for your own happiness, your lover is responsible for his, and to give your heart without holding back any in reserve for yourself is a sign of weakness. This results in a terrible and constant sense of separation.
Beyond the needs for dependence and independence, you can learn to love so your shells soften and you grow open without protection. Your deepest heart’s desire can be allowed to percolate up from your depths and express your genuine love outward through every part of your body. As you learn to tenderly open your shells of protection, you can actively receive the ravishment you have always wanted and fully offer your love as a gift to all.
When you are ready, you can open beyond the safety of self-responsibility for one body. You can merge open in two-bodied sexual devotion. You can open to feel and breathe all—your lover, your family, your friends, everyone—in the full offering of your heart’s openness.
You can live as divine love, opening and breathing as this entire moment. You can offer your life as if this moment’s presence were entering you deeplylike a lover’s intense claim, your body danced by love’s unblocked currents, your heart open as an offering, breathing as far as you can see and feel. You can open as the love that lives as all.
11
The Two-Bodied Play of Love
In the past, when I was more self-centered, I needed you to make me feel good about myself. Then, when I grew more open and became more we-centered, I wanted you to join with me as a team, so we could work together and create a good life for ourselves and with our friends. But now I need your love in a different way.
I still enjoy feeling good with myself, with you, and with our friends. But your love invites me beyond my own thoughts and emotions. Your surrender draws me even deeper than all bodies.
Words cannot describe the unbounded place your love illumines. Here, now, deeper than my own heart yet more open then the farthest reaches I can see, your love awakens an openness of bliss.
This bliss isn’t different from anything. My feet, your smile, the trees are all made of this bliss, this openness, this love. There are no words for that which is not other than any thing, and yet opens deeper than everything, and spreads wider than all. This openness is where your love invites me to awaken. I long to ravish you open to God here. This is the openness we are born of and the openness we die into. This is the love that our two bodies remember through their embrace when we allow our yearning to open without end.
If you have a more feminine sexual essence, your strength is your devotional capacity to open to God in two-bodied form. Yearning open with your lover, you become two who open as one love.
Rather than only being
Beverly LaHaye, Terri Blackstock
Maureen Smith
Janet Woods
Reshonda Tate Billingsley
Barbara Samuel
Cheryl Dragon
Annie Dalton
Mary Jane Clark
Alice Duncan
Caitlin Crews, Trish Morey