her to sleep, that was what she did until Princess said the time to wake up had come. Sex with Dean had let her break from her prison once. It would work again. The only problem was that she couldn’t conjure Dean from thin air and force him to come and have sex with her unconscious body. She shuddered at the idea. It would be a little bit like making love to a corpse. Somehow, she suspected Dean would object even if she were to ask for such a thing. “So I can’t exactly get him in here to have sex with me.” But maybe she could think about it and that would do it for her. She lay down on the ground and tried to picture Dean in her mind. He’d been so handsome when she’d been a child, even if she hadn’t known it then. Her parents had disliked him immensely, but then strong personalities frequently came to blows. When Dean had objected to her parents’ illegal and not accidental pregnancy, they’d taken their first chance to skedaddle in the middle of the night. Her parents had been right about their babies. But she knew from what Dean had told her years later that he would eventually have calmed down—nothing would have happened to the kids. Watching him bluster with Princess, she knew he could bark as loud as any dog. But his kisses were tender. He had a big heart in his perfectly sculpted chest. Her parents had never given him the chance to take back his anger. Not thinking at all about what could happen to them in the wilderness on their own, they’d moved around constantly—farther and farther from New Strauss. It had seemed like a great adventure until the reality of starvation and danger had set in. She’d asked to go back many times in the beginning. How bad could mean Dean Andrews be? He’d always been nice to the kids around the township. She hadn’t seen him again until the day she’d stolen the bread, gotten caught and been kidnapped by the dragons. Yet he’d still raised her brother and sister. Amanda closed her eyes. And hell’s bells, his fucking body. She could still remember the way his skin had felt under the pads of her fingers. It had been rough. The man worked outside, spent his days in defense of his people. He didn’t feel as if he spent a lot of time worrying about whether he’d moisturized and exfoliated his skin as the men were made to do here. In her imagination she could still feel him with her. The way his four o’clock shadow had rubbed against her. She shivered. Alone in her dreams, she could do as she wished. Who would ever know? And even if someone found out, she didn’t really care. This existence trapped in her own head constituted her whole life. Unzipping her khaki shorts, she let her finger find her clit. Dean had played her like a finely tuned instrument. She’d been touched before, but never like that. Could she manage to do the same to herself? Living with Princess inside her head hadn’t left a lot of time for self-gratification. Dean had found her clit much faster than she was able to, which made her roll her eyes. How out of touch with her body did that make her? Or how experienced did that make him? She tossed out the idea of Dean with other women. Those weren’t the images she wanted in her head. He’d only had eyes for her when they were together. That was how he’d look at her now. As she rubbed and stroked the bundle of nerves responsible for so much pleasure, she saw his fingers doing it instead of hers. “You okay?” he whispered in her ear. The scene unfolded before her. Instead of the beach, they were alone in a bedroom. Darkness provided a cover for them. Outside, the sounds of the desert filled the evening air. A coyote howled his evening prayer and she shuddered. “I’m better now that you’re here.” He’d been gone for hours. “I miss you when you go on runs.” “I’d rather not go but you know how it is.” “I do.” He slipped his finger inside her and she moaned. “You’re so damn wet for me. I’m not