will have our name on them.â
âSo other people can see it?â
John Carey didnât answer: Peter felt consumed by the blackness of his stare. Then a small smile crossed his face. âWeâll come again. Thereâs something else I want to show you.â
They went to the car. John Carey nodded curtly at the chauffeur. âDrive us to the firm.â
An hour later they stopped in front of a twenty-story building of slate-gray stone jutting upward from the corner of Fifth Avenue and 42nd Street. On its exposed side, towering over the ruckus of Fifth Avenue, âVan Dreelen & Careyâ was lettered in outsized gold script, glistening in the late afternoon sunlight. The buildingâs front was of an elaborate French design, with a mansard roof and black wrought-iron railings around the upper office windows, its elegant glass doorwayâsurrounded by more windows filled with John Careyâs hardback booksâtopped by ornate gold-painted filigree and the same gold lettering, âVan Dreelen & Carey,â that Peter recognized from the book he held. âIs that our name, too?â
âYes.â
They stared up at it from the sidewalk. Chill fall winds brushed Peterâs face. âDo we own this building, Grandpa?â
âYes.â
âDid we always?â
âNoânot always. Men named Van Dreelen owned it onceâyour Grandmother Careyâs family.â John Carey turned, palms extended toward Peter. âI got these calluses shoveling coal into their furnace.â
â Then you bought it.â
âYesâa long time later.â
Peter thought of his father, the way he had of sometimes looking over his shoulder, as if someone were pursuing him. âDo other people want it, too?â
âYes.â John Careyâs face was hard. âBut I wonât ever let them take it from us.â
Peter looked back at the lettering above the door. âHow come my daddy never brought me here before?â
John Carey did not answer.
Peter felt puzzled. âDoes he love this building, too, Grandpa?â
For a long, silent moment, John Carey turned to stare at it. âI donât know.â
âThen why do you? â
John Carey kept staring at the building, motionless, gripping Peterâs hand. In a fierce near-whisper, he said, âBecause itâs ours .â
The hoarseness in his grandfatherâs voice made Peter somehow afraid. Timidly, he asked, âAre you much older than my daddy?â
âYes, John Peter, I am.â John Careyâs eyes were still fixed on the building. âWhy?â
Peter could not say what he knew only by instinct: that no one had driven horses or stoked furnaces for a long time, that his grandfather moved more slowly now, as if the movements were from memory and the memory was failing, that his face became redder when they had to hurry across a street, that it was autumn and leaves fell from their trees, that there was no Grandmother Carey and no one ever spoke of her, that old voices sounded lonely. âDonât worry, Grandpa. Iâll take care of your building for you.â
John Carey knelt abruptly on the sidewalk, clasping Peterâs shoulders and staring into his eyes. âWhat made you say that?â
âI will .â
âThen why did you ask about your father?â
Still Peter couldnât say. He touched the lines on his grandfatherâs face. âBecause you have cracks . Daddy only has little cracks near his eyes.â
John Carey was silent. Then he smiled. âWhat does your Daddy play with you?â
âSometimes he chases me, in the park.â
It frightened Peter when John Carey started trying to chase him like his father: Peter saw that it was much too late.
His grandfather would run and then pull up, wheezing and red-faced. A worried Peter stopped asking if they could run; disappointed, his grandfather would challenge him.
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