Five Seasons by A. B. Yehoshua

momentum that it devoured his own complaints too.
    Deciding to go for a walk, he put on his coat and went downstairs, where it was calm but cold. He glanced at the windows, the terraces, the doorways of the houses, and followed a woman walking a dog while the moon rose above the rooftops into a cleared, pacific sky, returning to his unlit apartment with a feeling of wonder that soon changed to pleasure at his freedom. For months, even at night, the apartment had not been this dark, and so, curious to see how it looked from the ravine, he descended to the backyard, turning by its mesh fence to look up at the house suspended above him on columns. When they had bought the apartment four years ago, it was already with this green gully in mind—that is, with the thought of the view she would have from her deathbed. Now, staring into its blackness, which was only heightened by the luminous sky, he walked carefully along the path he knew well and had followed often to the bottom. The ground was very wet. Puddles of water lay about, and broken branches and building debris obstructed his progress. Once again he pictured her leaving this way—yes, this was the direction she had gone in that night—and absconding with part of him.
    All at once the telephone rang loudly in his apartment. Was it some friends calling to ask him over for a drink? He started back up, refusing, however, to run, while the phone kept ringing stubbornly, only to fall silent as he reached the door of the apartment. Now, he thought, everyone will say that I’m never home at night! There were no doubt people who envied him his new freedom without realizing how lonely it could be. And yet he was glad his wife’s death was behind him. A year ago the thought of it had terrified him, but it had gone easily enough in the end.
    He poured himself a glass of brandy, opened the clothes closet, and surveyed his wife’s wardrobe, which was hanging there. Just then the telephone rang again. It was a woman who introduced herself as Ruth, a friend of his wife’s who never had met him, though she knew all about him and kept tabs on him even now. Her voice was warm and cheery, like a self-assured schoolteacher’s. Did he mind having a personal chat with her? “No,” Molkho said. Was he sure? “Yes,” Molkho said. Well, then, she wanted him to know how sorry she was and how full of admiration for him. “For me?” he asked, knowing perfectly well what she meant. “For taking such good care of her,” explained the woman. Was he really sure she wasn’t intruding? Perhaps he would rather she called some other time. “No, go ahead,” replied Molkho, his heart suddenly beating faster. “Please don’t misunderstand me,” said the woman ... although, on the other hand, no one could possibly suspect her of ... and especially since it had dragged on so much longer than...“Than what?” Molkho asked. Than it usually did: that’s why she had decided not to wait any longer. Though he wished she would stop beating about the bush, he was startled by her boldness. The idea of her dialing him just like that! “What are you getting at?” he asked, regretting the question at once, because now he heard the hesitation in her voice, as if it were about to beat a retreat. But it didn’t. “What I’m getting at,” it plunged on, “is that I know someone you might want to meet, a lovely woman who’s just your type”—although if he thought the subject was premature, he only need say so. Secretly thrilled, he did his best to sound casual. Was it anyone he knew? No, she didn’t think so, though, of course, she couldn’t mention any names; the person in question had not been consulted and didn’t know Molkho herself. For the moment, it was just a thought in the minds of some well-wishers. Were those their voices that he heard in the background? Molkho wondered.