Forced Out of the Darkness by G. Wayne Jackson Jr

would
soon prove Monti wrong.
    “When are we going to
see each other again?” Cameron asked.
    “I don’t know man. When
did you want to see me?”
    “I hope soon because I
really enjoyed spending time with you yesterday. You were a breath of fresh air
and even though you didn’t tell me your name initially. I feel that you’re a
good guy and I’m definitely wanting to see where this will lead.”
    Monti wanted to see
where this would lead also, but he wasn’t sure if he was ready for Cameron’s
realness. Monte was not an openly gay man and he was heavily involved in the
church. Cameron, too, was heavily involved in church but didn’t face the same
issues that Monti did. He knew that he did not want to go back to his wife
especially after the stunt she pulled when he had to go to the hospital. He
loved his children, however he did not want to be unhappy in his day-to-day
life. He also didn’t want them to feel the constant tension between he and
Yolanda. He didn’t have any examples growing up of parents that raised their
children separately. He remembered growing up in a military family that would
move every few years due to his father being reassigned to different posts
throughout the world, but they were always together. Monti did not like
possibility that his children would be raised in two separate homes.
    “So Monti, tell me
something about you that I should know that I don’t know?”
    “I don’t know man what
do you want to know?”
    “When I looked at you
at dinner last night I got to see that there were some sadness in your eyes
what caused that?”
    “I’m not sure what
you’re talking about. I guess you’re reading into things that are not there. I
used to work in construction so because of my job, as a roofer, my eyes were
darker.”
    That damn Cameron, he was too observant and his
observations made Monti feel uncomfortable. Monty had every intention on being
honest and straightforward with Cameron but he really had to get to know him
first. Until that time, Monti felt that he was going to keep his business to
himself until he was ready to reveal it. Right now, the first thing on Monti’s
agenda was to see Cameron again because he was horny and wanted Cameron to take
care of it.
    “Cameron, can I ask you
a question?”
    “Sure go ahead.”
    “What are you in to
sexually?”
    “I’m just a sexual
person. I don’t like to fall into sexual roles such as top or bottom. I just
like to be me and go with the flow.”
    Monty didn’t understand
how it was that Cameron could be so free-spirited and just live life like there
was no care. What Monty didn’t know was that Cameron had his own demons that he
had to deal with also. He didn’t understand that Cameron just ended a relationship
with Guy who helped him to understand who he was and to embrace who he was and
will be. Cameron had not so long ago just decided to be an openly gay man, at
least outside of the church. He thought Cameron didn’t have the pressures to be
a straight man because he didn’t have a wife.
    “Cameron, because you
say that, you know the saying whatever you did to get the man you have to do to
keep them.”
                “That’s
what you think Monti? My thoughts on it is that you keep communication open and
you talk about things are that bothering you. A relationship should have trust
and respect for each other so that you can talk about it and make the
appropriate adjustments as needed.”
    “Ok, I can respect
that. Cameron, you come from a place deep within yourself. I really want to get
to know you better. I want to get to know you like the Bible says, too. There
aren’t many brothers that intrigue me like you do. I think we can both benefit
from seeing this thing farther. It will never be one-sided.”
                What
Cameron seriously wanted was an equal-effort relationship. He knew that two gay
men could have a successful monogamous relationship despite what the naysayers
had to